The Laugh And Smile Therapy : D

Here are some of the jokes that really cracked me up and I guess this also would cheer up your day :D



1 - One day theres a couple of kids in a phycology class. The teacher stands up and says to the class "stand up if u think you're stupid!" after about 5 minutes Little Johnny stood up and the teacher says "do you think you're stupid Johnny?"


To which Little Johnny replies "No miss i just hate to see you standing there all by yourself!!!"

2-  Ten things that you don't want to hear during a surgery.

1 Don't worry. I think it is sharp enough.
2 Nurse, did this patient sign the organs donation card?
3 Damn! Page 84 of the manual is missing!
4 Everybody stand back! I lost a contact lens!
5 Hand me that...uh...that uh.....thingie
6 Better save that. We'll need it for the autopsy.
7 "Accept this sacrifice, O Great Lord of Darkness"

8 Whoa, wait a minute, if this is his spleen, then what's that?
9 "Ya know, there's big money in kidneys. Hell, he's got two of'em
10 What do you mean "You want a divorce?"


3- A Plane was flying through the jungle when suddenly the engine stalled. The pilot ejected and drifted gently down to land. Unfortunately he landed in a large cooking pot which was gently simmering over a low fire.


All the local tribesmen turned to look at him until the chief, blinking in disbelief asked, "What's this flier doing in my soup?"



4- Two fisherman are out sailing when suddenly a hand appears in the sea. "What's this?" asked the first fisherman, "It looks as if someone is drowning!"


"No," explained the second fisherman, "It's just a little wave."


5- First Man: I bet I can make you speak like a Red Indian?


Second Man: How?

First Man: Told you I could.


6- "He may look like an idiot and talk like an idiot but don't let that fool you. He really is an idiot."


- Groucho Marx

7- "His mind is so open - so open that ideas simply pass through it."


- F. H. Bradley


8- Q. Were you long in the hospital?


A. No, I was the same size that I am now!


Q. What button won't you find in a tailor's shop?

A. A Belly button!


Q. What kind of car does Mickey Mouse's wife drive?


A. A minnie van!


Q: How did the telephones get married?

A. In a double ring ceremony!


Q: Why did the child study in the aeroplane?

A: He wanted a higher education!


Q: What kind of hair do oceans have?


A: Wavy!



Make A Change

Last night I slept late because I watched CSI : NY and Miami, their latest season you know? haha and err I was scolded by Baba. He said " Kamu lupa ke, umur ni rezeki. Jangan buang masa. You had the whole day to watch tv, takkan malam pun nak watch tv juga? Read books, banyak buku agama dalam almari tu yang kamu tak baca lagi ...." Reminiscing those words really made me TER-SEN-TAK. Yes, what Baba said was true. I've been living for 18 years, and throughout those years, so many, so much rezeki, nikmat, that He'd gave to me, to my family. What should I do in becoming a greatful believer? I should make a change. A change here means towards a better Raihana Nadhira Rafidi.

I, should make a list. One step at a time is the best solution for my TheChangeProject.

1. No more read the Quran 1-4 pages every morning. Read 5 pages !

2. Start istiqamah in performing the rawatib prayers. Start by performing rawatib for one compulsory prayer. For instance, start by performing the rawatib prayer during Zohor.

3. Finish the book : Apa Ertinya Aku Memeluk Islam Fathi Yakan by next week. Please amati page by page.

4. Never fail to read agama book everyday. At least, a page a day.

5. After this, FB is only in the morning and before Asar. Sebab, cmmon lah, like takkan the whole day?!?

6. Sleep early to rise early. If you people see me at certain days I onlined YM or whatsoever late at night, then I have certain reasons. But still, sleep early to rise early.

7. Do qiyam at least twice per week.

8. Never fail to solat taubat, hajat and witir every night.

9. Jom Rai, puasa sunat balik macam kt smakl dulu? ;D Start slow by fast once a week. Either monday or thursday, you choose babe!

10. Keep on searchin', browsin' about Dentistry, Universities, Courses, Scholarships.

11. Never EVER GIVE UP ! The only key to success is hard work Rai. Then remember the word money in bahasa melayu, D-U-I-T.

12. Pray, pray, and keep on praying! And remember His words in Surah Al- Baqarah ayaat 186. Put your trust in Him Rai. And you must be bertaqwa in order to get what you've prayed.

Let yourself change Raihana. For a better you : )

The Current Issues

Assalamualaikum and a very good morning  :)

So there are like many many things that really disturbed me. Seriously, like seriously. And how is that they happened to disturbed me? Well, maybe if you speak for an eighteen year old teenage girl the things that I'll tell all of you are something somewhat important. Yes, important so important that I'll be happy to share the benefits of the err things. Okay so let us start, shall we?

THINGS THAT REALLY DISTURB ME NOWADAYS - with its benefits

1. I am handphoneLESS. Yep. Since I was in form 4, my new phone that I got as for my pmr gift, stolen by my maid - -"" how irritating and annoying was that. So I started using handphone when I was going to PLKN, but technically it wasn't mine, it was Rayyan's old one- oh she has a new phone already sebab pmr jugak - then the handphone, I kinda let it wet when I played by the sea in Sepang Gold Coast last March holiday (now why this sound kiddish? oh nvm) so the handphone rosak = ="" yeah I know. Okay, it's not like I'm being ungrateful and demanding it's just that it's easier for my friends to contact me although I am a FBManiac, I uh practically online every single day, well because of other reason that also really disturb me. But still, I am eighteen and I shouldn't be handphoneLESS. Oh well. So Mama said "insha Allah by end of April, okay?" and I was like "wokay mom".

2. I am jobLESS. Well at first I stated in my about me in FB that 'currently I'm JOBLESS and I'm HAPPY with it ' but now I stated in my blog that 'currently I'm JOBLESS and I'm TOTALLY NOT FINE WITH IT'
But I've already had the discussions with the Mighty Two and I'm not to work like as a waiter or jobs that required me to go there using public transportations or jobs that situated in some malls, because my dad really don't like the picture or even the sound of it. And I actually agree with Baba on that. But knowing about how my friends work and earn money on their own really disturbed me. I, want to earn money to, I mean I, have things that I really want to buy that I don't really like to ask my parents to buy them for me. I mean most of my friends really being independent in buying their stuff but doesn't have to ask money from their parents. Mama don't like us siblings spend using our own money because money should just go to the bank! Oh well, but still kan? And I'm still hunting for a good and suitable job for me that will have my parents approval. But I really want to earn money okay. Okay.

3. I am driving liscenseLESS. Ugh. Everytime my friends ask me in FB , 'Rai, dah ada lesen?' the normal answer would be 'Daftar pun belum lagi '. I know, now is already almost end of April and sooner May comes! Okay it's not like you should have a driving liscense by certain month, it's just that it's easier for Mama to go to her office, because err, Mama can't drive. I don't mind being a driver for awhile. Alah, pahala pun dapat jugak kan :) But now we already have the numbers that lead us to lady instructors. And this afternoon, my friend gave a number, he said he and his siblings semua belajar with the same lady ! hahah cool tak. And plus him, 5 of his family actually learn with the same old woman. But before that Mama already got a number from a cousin of mine, only that if I'll be learning with the lady that Ahmad - my cousin- introduced, I'll be staying at his place at Gombak. Yeah because the driving academy is at Gombak. Oh I don't mind take me anywhere as long as I could learn how to drive a car :D

4. I am laptopLESS every night. Pfft. Our pc broke down and been sent for a repair, so every night I just have to give the laptop to my bro. For what? For the annoying PHENOMENAL game ; NINJA SAGA (!)
Ugh. This game just annoyed me and my brother and his friends siap buat group lagi : Anti Scammers Ninja Saga . Right. So now I just have to pray so that the pc cepat cepat sembuh, so he'll get to play the game without me grumbling beside him every night ; D Well, maybe you people are wondering why would I really care if I just give my brother some space to use the internet because I practically use the laptop almost the whole day since morning. Well, maybe because most of my friends online at night and I like to update my blog at night. Okay, maybe my reasons aren't relevant enough but I could only think of that eheh ^ ^""

5. I am MUET-LESS. Okay, just incase some of you still wondering what is MUET well it stands for Malaysian University English Test. Maybe some of you also wondering that why should I bother about this test? Well, maybe if you're not going to study overseas within a few years, you have to worry about this test because this test is just so important for students who attends local universities. Like if you go to UK or Aussie, you have to take A - levels, or TOEFL maybe. But MUET is important in our country. Some of my friends have already sat for the exams and last Sunday, during my brother's Sports Day, I met Aunty Sherry, my primary school friend's mother, and she said that 'yeah, you're not working, you're just sitting around at home, you SHOULD take this test sayang' and I turned to Mama and was like 'see? I told you so' heheh. Because Mama said last time when I questioned my thought about taking MUET, that we don't have to worry now and just wait a bit later. But I really am jobless and just sitting around at home without any work to do, this is actually a good idea. But right now, this matter is still under discussions, well my parents are busy people. Haihh. Never mind. Aunty Sherry even offered to give me some of 'Aisyah's notes (my primary school friend tu only that fyi, she is one year old YOUNGER than I am and she's now sitting for A levels. TERKEJUT tak? haha!) because last time she and her sister went to the bengkel about MUET and stuff and Aunty Sherry also mentioned that the book is quite expensive but I have pictured Aimisya's book in my mind, so yeah : ) haha

Well, practically I've got 5 things that disturbed me. But I haven't told you that my current mood is still happy. I'm disturbed but I can still live my life. When certain things troubled you, go back and return to Him, maybe this is not the right time for you to earn those things and be happy. You should be greatful of what you have now and it is all gifts from Him to you.

ps. Tak tahu kenapa now I'm soo into this song : Janji - Akim. HAHA

She is happy.

She. AWAKENED!

Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh !

I KNOW I KNOW IT HAS BEEN AGES! People, I know. AND I MISS YOU ALL TOOOO LIKE SODMNMUCH! ;D haha. Sooo, how are youuuu? Alhamdulillah I'm fine today and mayeb that's why I'd planned to start dusting raihanaeuphoria by today and gimme a whole week will yah?

Okay so. Many, many, many things happened throughout the month and weeks and days, and maybe some I'll share it with yah and some just let me keep that in my secret box of mypersonalstories. Ehem. So, this beloved blog of mine okay will be under construction for a week. So please, visit after one week, don't peek okay so maybe you can peek but I want this to be hyperly active like it used to everyday. I, am going to try to write as much as possible, everyday. Got it? E-VERY-DAY! :D heehee. Oh well - -""""

So here I am, once again, I AM AWAKENED! : )

ps.  just incase some of you still wondering, - -""" is the new -,-"" okay? My buddy MNZKA first introduced that to me and I was like hey, this looks nicer without the nose! HAHA :P



Talented People :DD HeeHee

Sometimes I Just Wished That I Would Just Fade Away

I thought I've made the right choice.

I thought I've made the right decision.

On my feelings.

But it turned out to be,

I just don't know how to describe it.

Oh dang.

I just have to learn how to stop believing.

I just have to learn how to stop holding onto.

I just have to stop acting like I'm on a cloud 9.

I just have to stop letting my heart being torn.

I just have to learn how to fade away.



Taylor Swift Madness ;D

Puzzles of Words For You

To my meilleur ami - ,

this is a special post for you.

Because I want you to know how your words affected me.

And because I want you to know how your words changed my feelings towards you.

First of all, I know that I owe you an apology.

Because I forgot your birthday.

Because I was late in wishing your birthday.

And because of all the reasons that I had stated.

Yes, I'm a lousy meilleur ami.

No need to doubt that.
Happy belated birthday my meilleur ami.

Secondly, let's turn back the time.

I was away for three days.

It was March 17 in the evening,

when I decided to open my big red bag,

to look at my phone which has been left untouched since I left the house that morning.

Then, I saw your message.

Puzzles of feelings started to link together.

Happy.

Glee.

Touched.

Confuse.

Irritated.

Happy.

I can't believe that I still get those beautiful words.

I can't believe that I still get those beautiful reminders.

So why confuse and irritated?

Because I recalled your post on March 16.
I'm in confusion with your words.
I'm irritated because at that time the words kept lingering in my mind.
".. hypnotizing my mind, my feelings, my heart "
And now,
I'm feeling more and more confused.
With your post on March 17,
that I get to read yesterday.
Is that true what you wrote?
Is that true what I read?
Is that true?
"..my blood, my vein, my heart",
"...it's you that I will wait for,
even if it takes days, weeks, months, years, centuries",
till death comes your way you said.
And then you wrote the magic words.

On March 19,
your post is full of apologies,
full of hopes,
full of expressions.
On this day also,
I wrote my post.
And I'm sure you've read it.
Now, keep on reading,
because now I'm writing full.

I don't know how everything could turn out differently.
I don't know how everything turned out to be so unexpected.
So unpredicted.
So wrong,
No, wait.
More words to come so please keep on reading.

I want that everything we do is what He would be pleased.
I want that everything we do achieved His blessings.
I want everything we do follow the right procedure.
I don't know right now.
I've got so much things ahead of me.
I'm just eighteen.
I'm still young to think about 'it'.
Just like what I've posted yesterday,
let du'a be the link that bonded us.
If,
this is the right decision.
Let Him made the final plan.

If you fall for someone,
keep it a secret.
Pray for the one you love.
So that you can be with the one you love,
forever and always.

You pursue your dream.
You hold onto your goal.
You become a Cardiologist like you've ever wanted.
And you know you'll take no less than six years.
Six years is long my meilleur ami.
Anything could happen throughout those years.
Many people that we will meet.
Many people that we will have to know.
Many people that could change our life,
forever and always.

So if the feelings is true,
let's start praying for our future what might hold us.
And no promises please.
Because making promises that can't be kept is just another hurtful page of your life.

 

Awakened

Hey, I've returned. Yeah, been gone for three days and I miss writing already :) Anyway, peace be upon you wonderful folks - my trustee readers (:

Alhamdulillah, I managed to come back in one piece ;) and my holiday was AWESOME and a different post will be coming out soon about it, don't worry I'll babble a lot later, hehe. Just that this is a short post (I know, I keep saying I'll be writing a short one but it turned out to be long, sorry  ^ ^" but I'll try to be as simple and prep as possible).

I just happen to read my good friend's blog, and she said now she is in love. No, wait. Don't get yourself wrong and think that I'm busybody with other people's lovelife but this is different. What I want to say here is that I'm proud of her. I really, really had fall for her beautiful words. And I'm awakened now. Alhamdulillah.

You must be curious of what I've read right? Well let me share it with you then.

My dear friend said that she is in love, she is in love with a person who ;

"dengan insan yang melabuhkan cintanya kepada Allah.


dengan insan yang menjaga peribadinya dari fitnah.

dengan insan yang tiada cinta utama selain perjuangan fisabilillah.

dengan insan yang tiada aku kenal, kecuali kerana agama dan peribadinya.."

She also adds;

"Sesiapa yang jatuh cinta, kemudian menyembunyikannya hingga kematian datang menjemputnya,

maka dia adalah seorang yang syahid."

(Riwayat Hakim,Ibn Asakir,al-Dailami dan lain2)

*dipetik daripada buku Pemilik Cintaku Setelah Allah dan Rasul karya ukht Fatimah Syarha Mohd Noordin


PS. Dia tak tahu dan takkan pernah tahu. Doa itu penghubung antara hati hati insan. Juga penghubung insan dengan pencipta. Pertemuan semula itu, serahkan kepada Al-'Alim. May Allah Hears."

After all these words, these remarkable words, I've awakened. I'm in confusion right now, with my feelings. But this is the perfect solution for me right now. And maybe for any of you out there who needs a resolution on love and feelings. Then, this is it. Let our hearts be taken care by Him. He knows what's the best for all of us. And don't you want your life is full of His blessings?

I do. And I know that now my journey is still long, is still far ahead. I've got lots of times to think about love. And I know that now, my solution is to pray, is to seek His guidance always, and so that whoever has won my heart now, is the perfect choice for me.

To my dear friend, Aimi Syahirah Ibrahim, Masha Allah, you've awakened me. Alhamdulillah. Thank you sweetheart ;)

ps. I'm sorry that I copypaste some of your words. I hope you don't mind and I really want to show to the world (who some, happened haven't read your beautiful post yet) on the beautiful of love in Islam.

My Beloved Friends

My beloved friends,

a few words to express how I felt about all of you,

about how sorry I am if you think I've left you,

how sorry I am if you think I'm a lousy friend,

how sorry I am if you think I never value our friendship that we created together,

how sorry I am if you think that I have forget you,

how sorry I am if you think I don't need you in my life anymore.

My beloved friends,

I'm truly blessed having to meet with all of you,

having to know with all of you,

to become your friend.

I'm absolutely grateful to Him that I met all of you,

I get to know all of you better,

I get to be your friend,

and most importantly,

your best friend.

I'm thankful to Him that He let us create a beautiful bond,

a beautiful relationship,

friendship.

My beloved friends,

I know I always apologize.

Because I thought I'd make you guys mad,

I'd hurt your feelings,

I'd torn you apart.

I know friends forever is what I promised all of you.

Because that is really what I want, deep inside of me.

I understand that someone should take the blame.

And let the person be me.

But one thing that I must tell all of you,

this friendship won't work if both sides won't cooperate.

Let's try again.

Although friendship is hard to retain.

Because as you grow older,

you'll meet more people.

You'll create another bond of friendship.

You'll may forget your past bonds.

So I understand that,

promise of 'friends forever' is hard to keep,

but for my side,

I'll try.

I'll try to be your, friend.

Forever.

SRIP: Nur Aisyah Rahman, Nur Nabihah Abd Hadi, Anis Hasanah, Syahmira, Atikah Abdulullah, NZKA(; , Naim Mazri, Mohd. Hanif Zonkifle, Mohd. Hafiz Zonkifle, Hafiz Suhaimi, Hanif Suhaimi, Naif Faris, Amirul Azim, Naif Farhan, Shauqy Osman.

SB: Nurul Husna Yusof, Siti Sakirah Abd Jalil, Zaid Jamaluddin, Aqilah Kamarulzaman, Nurul Hanani Damiri, Fatin Afiqah, Nur Alia Niza, Teratai Nadia, Rizwan Saiful Raslin, Hafiz Nazri, Zafran Mustafa, Mohd Naqiyuddin, Aisyah, Fatin, Zulaikha Syawal, Natasya Fellina, Ehsan, Affan Bahemsa-i.

SMAKL: Nurul Jannah Jalaluddin, Insyirah Zulkifli, Fatin Syakirah, Siti Nur Nabilah Lutfi, Sharifah Amirah, Aimi Syahirah, Auni Bazilah, Nur Zafirah, Norain, Puteri Hidayu Nafisah, Nur Nailah, Nor Saffana, Siti Husniyah, Farihah, all of Dorm Jauhari, all of batch  FiveForm Puteri 2010, all of my usrah members, Raihan, Izzat, Shafique, Azim Razak, Kamil, Iqbal

PLKN Kem Bumimas Sibu: Diyanah Kaiyisah, Fatin Nurafiqah, Shazwana Shahril, Redzlam, Shazwani Shahril, Azura, Jannah, Izzyani izzat, Reyvathy Sheena, Mohd Shafiqal, Filhan, Siti Syamimie, Muthaharah, Afiq Fakrul Razi, Najwa Nur Diyana, Francis, Affendi, Muhammad Wira, Aliff,  Siti Solehah, Azniera, Selviya, all of Dorm Durian, all of DELTA COMPANY that know me, all of WIRAWATI KUMP1 SIRI 8 that know me.

THANKS FOR EVERYTHING. THANK YOU FOR BEING MY FRIEND. MY BEST FRIEND.

I LOVE YOU TOO .



I Really Miss You. I do. I do.

I know I'd probably hurt your feelings.

I know I'd probably torn you apart.

I know I'd tell you my phone is a bloody thing.

I know I'd tell you I've got no more credits.

I know I'd tell you FB was damn slow.

I know I'd tell you that I'm sorry that you thought I'd forgot about you.

But hurting your feelings,

torn you apart,

have never come into my mind.

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry that I should've called you using the house phone.

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry that I should've post you a hello greeting.

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry for all the things I did wrong,

that made you think I'd forgotten about you.

Never.

I felt crushed.

I felt torn.

I felt upset.

After you send me the message.

Maybe what you said would happen to be true.

If you don't remind me,

remind me to be a friend.

A friend in need is a friend indeed.

I'm sorry.

If I haven't been your friend in need.

If I haven't been your friend that you hoped for.

I'm sorry.

But no, I really miss you.

I really do.

So please forgive me my dear,

for you are my good friend,

and I can't possibly forget you.

Can't possibly.

Thank you for the reminder.

That's sure a wake up call.

I really miss you. I do. I do,

Fatin Syakira.

When You Thought It Is Enough But It Is Actually Isn't

Enough is enough.

You think you have done enough.

Enough in everything.

Enough in your words.

Enough in your actions.

Unfortunately, so sorry to say that,

you are wrong.

So wrong.

Let us go one by one.

Let us turn the page by page.

Let us just sit down and take time,

to think back,

to recall,

to reminisce.

Number One;

"How is my ma'thruat?"

Sadly to say that,

it has been in a comma for almost more than two months now.

Yes, now you can open your eyes big,

your mouth wide open in shock,

this is absolutely,

unexpected.

Take a deep breath,

and let's move on to Number Two.

Shall we?

Number Two;

"How is my Dhuha?"

Sadly to say that,

it is only been done 3 times when you were away for 70 days.

Yes, now you can start closing your big eyes,

your mouth now shut abrubtly,

too numb.

No my dear, this is not torture.

Really, it's for your own good.

So buck up, Number Three is coming right up.

Number Three;

"How is my qiyam?"

Sadly to say that,

it hasn't been done for three months now!

Gosh, honey!

What have you been doing?

You know that you cannot rise early if you don't sleep early.

Yes, you can fall down now.

And let the tears fall,

silently.

Sorry to let you know about all these.

But you do remember your resolutions right?

Please, if you don't, let's not be a lazy bump and click on to the January post.

There, written clearly and nicely, boldly.

It is understood that you are now,

feeling guilty.

Ya Allah,

forgive me.

I shouldn't be like this.

I shouldn't just let it all go away.

I shouldn't create excuses.

I shouldn't just pray 5 times a day and read the Quran every morning and night.

I should've done more than that.

It is not enough yet.

I've wasted a lot of my time.

A lot of precious time.

Ya Allah,

forgive me.

And no one forgive sins but You.

Allah is all Forgiving, all Merciful.

p/s: This is only the part of it. I have many things that I'd done not enough yet. Well actually, there is no 'enough' in our life. Yeah, no enough.

If I Die Young - The Band Perry

The Way I Loved You (:

Some of My Favourite Indonesian Songs

It's Fine With Me (I'm Feeling Fine With You (: )

I've posted three different stories.

Each has its own meaning.

Each has its own speciality.

Each has its own secret.

And now,

I must tell how I felt,

how I felt after those three stories been poured out.

Why Is It Just Don't Come Out Right?
Well, you cannot really win everytime.
Every game there's always a winner,
and of course,
every game there's always a loser.
It's fine with me,
if I have to be the loser,
because I know it won't last long.
I may lose right now.
I may lose again.
But again as I said before,
it's fine with me.
Because sooner or later,
I'll win.
I'll win over 'it'.
I'll win and get my trophy.
The Trophy of 'It'.

Some said that,
I'm still young,
I've got more in front of me,
I've got a lot ahead of me.
I've got time.
Time to search for 'it'.
Time to look for 'it'.
So maybe not now.
Maybe not tomorrow.
Maybe not next month or another year.
But the time will come.
The time will come,
for me to be the winner.
The winner, finally.
I'll bring back The Trophy of 'It'.
So like I said before,
it's fine with me.

Trapped Within,
trapped,
buried,
it's almost the same right?
The same feel,
the same condition,
the same everything.
Now I have to work things out,
to crush the sealed tight box,
to break the oversized chains,
to sit again,
to stand again,
to be able to breathe freedom.
All praise is for Him,
for giving me the courage,
the guts,
the strentgh,
to work things out.
So that I could smile again.
So that I could laugh again.
With no more fear.
No more lies.
Don't get yourself wrong my friend,
like I told you this morning,
I've got many other different reasons that made me
Trapped Within.
And no,
I never forcing smiles and faking laughs,
when it comes about you,
my best friend.

It's fine with me
now that although some part of me still,
Trapped Within,
but with His help,
I can always run a mile on naked feet,
I can always swim in the ice cold water of Southern Ocean,
I can always climb the Mount Everest,
to untrap me.
To set me free.
So it's fine with me now.
It's fine with me.
Because one of my problems,
has settled,
settled beautifully,
settled wonderfully,
and been understood patiently,
by one of the souls that I really
appreciate most-
apart from my family and other friends.
Thank you again.

NZKA(;
I know that it's a bit rare of me,
to write about specific person,
in my beloved raihanaeuphoria,
but I did, didn't I?
So that I could tell,
how I really felt after what I said.
How I really felt after what has been uttered.
So that I won't feel regret.
So that I won't be upset.
So that no more heart I'd torn.
So that no more sad songs could be heard.

It's fine with me
now that I just got your message,
now that I just got your words,
makes me stonger,
makes me relieved,
makes me smile one more time.
It's fine with me
that we are still best friends.
We are still feeling fine.
Yeah,
it's fine with me,
when you are always fine.
NZKA(;

So I've written down,
my feelings after those three stories has been posted.
I hope all of you would understand now.
I hope all of you would understand.
Understand a girl,
who could not leave her smile behind.

My Long Time Favourite

Trapped Within

Have you seen a box

sealed so tight,

that when you take it and shake it,

you can hear a sound,

that makes you wonder,

that makes you suspicious,

whatever inside the tight sealed box?

Have you seen a trunk

shut so tight,

by an oversized chain,

that when you forced it to open,

you'll just brake your manicured nails,

that even when you use the crowbar,

it just won't work,

this makes you feel frustrated,

this makes you feel angry,

however shall it going to be opened?

Have you seen a girl,

that look so pale,

look so numb,

have red rimmed eyes,

look confused,

look pressured,

at somewhat that has been bothering her.

Have you seen a girl trapped within her own mistakes?

It's all my fault.

It's all because I never think before I do.

It's all because of giving to people a lot.

No, you can give,

but it depends on what you give.

There's no next time.

And you can't hit Rewind.

You can't even linger your finger at Pause.

Because it has happened.

Now you just have to make it all better.

You just have to work yourself out.

Work yourself out of the box.

Work yourself out of the trunk.

Work yourself out of your mistakes.

Ya Allah, help me.

And no one can help me but You.

Why Is It Just Don't Come Out Right?

Just a short pouring-what-I-feel note.

Just a short expression.

I promise you.

You, Raihana.

When it comes about 'it', 

when you suddenly feel that,

this is it.

The right time,

the right change.

Because it is hard you see,

before this you had what you thought 

enough experience.

But actually you don't.

But that doesn't matter.

What you're going to say right now,

is that you've been hit by 'it'.

Again.

Damn it.

You saw 'it' is coming,

and at first you know that you're in a situation.

Confusion, surrounds you.

Confusion and anxiety.

Just seemed to enveloped you.

Especially your heart.

Yes, you knew that your heart has been 

intrigued by 'it'.

You said to yourself, 

its okay. 

You can trust on this one.

But then it turn out to be,

 otherwise.

At first, 

there were two 'it'.

But you know that one of 'it' you just have to just forget.

Because like they say,

friends should just remain friends.

Anyway you know that 'it' is taken by someone else.

A soul that your best friend love.

Then came another 'it'.

You look at how 'it' is.

Throughout the days, weeks.

You thought 'it' looks nice.

'It' looks like 

The Perfect One.

Whatever.

Now, everything almost everything

that you thought,

just don't seem to be right.

You just saw the pictures.

One of it just made you feel,

somehow disgusted.

And you felt disappointed.

And sorry, 

two pictures.

And you know that now you have to end 'it'.

Damn 'it'.

I'm sorry.

You just have to forget 'it'.

Although tears may fall.

And your heart is in

pain.

Again.

No longer Aishiteru.

Crying on the inside.

raihanaeuphoria Under Construction

Starting 14th of March 2011.

Be patient, just.

Stay with me. 

Alhamdulillah, I'm Home. Finally ;')

IMY IMY IMY guysssss badly! ;') I'm BACK FINALLY and it's true, Azim R, aku ada banyak STORIESSS TO SHARE with you guys :D Alhamdulillah, I came back to pangkuan family safely, around 5 something yesterday. I arrived at KLIA around 2 pm, then we had this process before we go to Zetro Wangsa Maju, macam kena ada check whatsoever and by the time we finished all this it was almost 3.30 we started heading to Zetro. But seriously the process is slow! Anyway, we bertembung with other two camps that arrived from Sabah, jumpa dengan Teha, Debel :)

Whatever it is, I'm so SORRY coz last night I tak dapat online FB lama, after Isyak, I head downstairs, with a new book on my left hand, Thirteen Reasons Why by Jay Asher and dunking Oreos in Milk ,(cold milik. Finally!! ) and at the same time watch a scary movie at HBO, Case 39 - seriously got goosebumps every second :P But I'll try to online FB as long as I can take, but at the same time updating my beloved bloggie(: And cakap awal2 kt sini, I rarely nak pegang my phone so FB je okay my beloved friends(:

Just wanna add that I terkilan sbb semalam tak sempat peluk habis2 Fatin Nurafiqah and Fatin Izzatie :'( I'm sorry girls, I really wanna apologize for all my wrong doings and thank you guys for everything, face-to-face. Insha Allah kalau ada rezeki, we will meet again(:

I miss THEM already : Diyanah Kaiyisah, Fatin Nurafiqah, Shazwana Shahril, Fatin Izzatie, Reyvathy Sheena, Shazwani Shahril, Azura, Izzyani, Jannah, Siti Syamimi.... Ustazah :'(

I miss all of wirawati and wira (?!) and para jurulatih, cikgu cikgu, that I get to know at PLKN Kem Bumimas Sibu Sarawak Kump 1 Siri 8 2011

Thanks for everything and sorry for anything.

Goodbye Folks ! :(

Saying godbye is always the hardest thing ever. Unfortunately, I have to say it because leaving you without a goodbye is like a cut through your heart, leaving it throbbing in pain.

Goodbye Folks! Pray for me, pray for us, PARA PELATIH PLKN 2011 KUMP 1~

See you in March 2011.

2011 - A New Rai 2

Alhamdulillah alhamdulillah alhamdulillah. Finally, today is 01/01.11 (: And I'm grateful to Allah for giving me and my family the chance to improve better in this whole new year. I would like to wish all of you peeps all the best in 2011! Make yourself a cup of coffee and start writing your azam because this year shall be YOUR YEAR to become the BEST HUMAN BEING ON EARTH :D

My AZAM TAHUN BARU 2011(:

I want to become a better muslim a better daughter a better sister a better student have a better attitude a better academic performances have high confidence in me to khatam quran at least three times this year to not fail recite the mathurat every day to never fail to say "please and thank you" to people when I need and obtain something to be a great friend to my friends to help others more often to smile often to be a happier person to always try the hardest in everything be the best among the rest to try not to miss dhuha every morning to sleep by 10. 30 every night so that I would not skip my qiyam unless I have lots of assignments or whatsoever important stuff to do then I could exceed until midnight to become more polite to act like a real woman to be polish in everything especially in communications to make my parents proud to make my siblings look up to me always to not raise my voice anymore to create a happy living to all people to exercise every day at least for 15 minutes per day become more alert in every situations not be careless in keeping things to be happy to eat healthily to drink more water to speak fluently in english without grammatical errors to write better in english and malay to learn more of every useful things to learn how to drive and get driving license to lessen the day dreaming to lessen my times on tv to read more religious boks to read more books to become a happy Raihana (: Insya Allah~

Since you get more joy out of giving joy to others, you should put a good deal of thought into the happiness that you are able to give.

- Eleanor Roosevelt

2011 - A New Rai

A new year has come - does not mean that the past year should be forgotten.

2011 is certainly a large number, well not if you compared to a billion but it is without a doubt a pretty large number, and you know that it grows bigger every year. 2010 is about gain another year and its brithday is less than 4 hours by now. 2010 has certainly brought many sweet and sad memories, that I will not forget. Never. If He let me.

Insya Allah, a new year would be a new Rai. Yes, I want to be better. i want myself to not become just the best better but the BEST SPECTACULAR. Insya Allah I will write my azam tomorrow on the 1st day of 2011. just wait for it, I hope my azam will inspire all of you wonderful peeps :DD

And remember that new year means the world is growing older.

Love,

Raihana.

Buck Up, Rai!

Why are you doing this to yourself? You chose to be hurt by your own feelings. Pegh. Buck, up girl. You can do better than this. Happiness is always in your hands, it is the matter how you are going to use it. If you want to let it fall between your fingers, then it is your fault. You just have to lose your happiness, aren't you Rai?



The Silent Pray

" Ya Allah, ampunilah dosa-dosa hamba Mu yang banyak melakukan khilaf ini, ampunilah dosa-dosaku yang telah banyak menzalimi diri. Ya Ghafur Ya Raheem. Sesungguhnya tiada yang mampu untuk mengampunkan dosa-dosaku melainkan Engkau Ya Allah. Ya Allah, jika PLKN ialah tempat yang terbaik untukku, maka Kau izinkanlah aku untuk meredhainya. Ya Allah, kau jadikanlah tempat itu tempat untuk aku makin dekat padaMu. Mudahkanlah urusanku dan usrusan kawan-kawanku yang turut serta menjadi pelatih dalam PLKN nanti Ya Allah. Mudahkanlah kami untuk menunaikan solat dengan sempurna dan bersih, yang khusyuk dan terimalah segala amal ibadat kami Ya Allah, dimana saja kami berada. Ya Allah Ya 'Alim, peliharalah kami daripada lalai dari mengingatiMu. Mudahkanlah kami untuk meneruskan pembacaan kitab Mu setiap hari seperti selalu. Peliharalah kami meletakkan perkara lain menjadi keutamaan kami selain daripada Mu Ya Allah. Ya Allah, lindungilah kami, peliharalah kami, selamatkanlah kami, dan tolonglah kami daripada segala bencana, malapetaka, kezaliman di dunia dan diakhirat. Jadikanlah kami hambaMu yang taat pada perintahMu dan soleh dan solehah. Tolonglah kami menghadapi dugaan dan cabaran yang bakal kami hadapi dan tempuhi. ya Allah sesungguhnya segala perkara itu mudah kerana Mu dan aku yakin akan kekuasaanMu Ya Allah. Dan Kau tutupkanlah 'aib kami dimana sahaja kami berada didunia mahupun di akhirat nanti. Dan Kau tinggikanlah martabat dan maruah kami Ya Allah. Bersihkanlah hati ini yang kotor, dan ampunilah dosa-dosa kami, sesungguhnya, Engkaulah sebaik-baik penerima taubat. Ameen Ya Rabbal 'Alamin.. "

This Is The Right Time - I guess 2

Wooh seriously like penat gila. Today my feet have walked many miles ! :P HAHA exaggerate much? well yeah probably. Oh well, so today I'm out again with my mom and my sisters. We went to KL. And I got myself new more tudungss and head scarvess. We also went to SOGO, haha the sale haven't ended yet!
Anyway PLKN is near and I'm going to start packing tonight. Aimisya pun dah like pack (?!) OMG haha. So since I couldn't like bring more than a bag full of clothes and a bag sandang so I asked mama how to solve my so many bajus -.-" Fortunately, mama asked me to open one of her cabinets at the top cupboard and she got me a very huge luggage! HAHA seriously that would certainly solve my problem. Mama said that she bought that during our holiday to Australia last time. HEHEHE I can't wait to pack!

Balance yourself with the bag(:

Oh btw, for all my peers yang pergi PLKN, here are some lists that I would love to share (:

> Trackbottoms and shirtss (mencukupi and banyak)
> Vicks, minyak cap kapak, plasters
> Tudung and headscarves - yang banyak and enough
> Your phone - a must!
> Some foods - just in case you're hungry
> Socksss - PLENTY!
> Sportshoes
> Cleanser, Toner, Sunblock, Lip balm
> Toilettries including sabun, shampoo, floss! toothbrush toothpaste semuaa
>Armsocks
>Flip flops and sandals
> Laundry bagss
> Detergents and berus baju, hangrerss and sepit baju okay jgak kalau bawak
> Medications - if needed.
>Pictures of your love ones -HAHA ;')
>Baju kurung
>Pens and a notebook - there'll be like classes.

HEHE. So, bawak like a huge bag to throw all these stuff and a bag sandang or whatever bag. Make sure there are only TWO bags. I called JKLN this morning and the abang said that especially to those who 'll be going this sunday, bag tak nak bawak banyak because you guys are flying there, mcm tu lah alasan dia. Oh well. ++ This SUNDAY , please PAKAI FORMAL ATTIRE. Abang tu ckp tht guys should wear t shirt bercollar and shoes. Girls pakai formal jugak and tak nak baju kurung. Baju sukan pun boleh(:
>

Best friends forever, can we?

4 Ali 2009 and 5 Othman 2010. In memories. I'm sorry for all of my wrong doings and I hope all of you would never forget me. Take care and keep in touch always Insya Allah :DD

4 Ali 2009

Seoul Garden, Near Mid Valley.

Courtesy from Dr. SNNL (:

The Baju Kurung Babes :D

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^ ^

C:

:DD

;P

XD

The ;P Table HAHA

Pah, Nab and My hands :P HAHA at Forever 21.

5 Othman 2010

Kenny Rogers Roasters, OU.

Pics Courtesy from Pah :D

KEEP IN TOUCH. I'LL BE MISSING YOU GUYS.

The DQ-ians :)

Bismillah. and alhamdulillah. I'm so prod of those who managed to enrol to Darul Quran. Congrats! And for those who did not, do not be sad, because I'm positively sure that Insya Allah you guys will get to a much better place. Adelah tu himah di sebaliknya :DD

So, I would like to bid BON VOYAGEEE to Saff, Nailah, Ummu, Norain and I know that you guys have left today :"( and I heard that you guys' phones like kena simpan for a week, so I guess, this is my only way to bid all of you wonderful peeps :/ But Insya Allah when I reached there - there where? there Sibu :P I'll contact you guys. On weekend lah. Hmm. I'll be missing all of you guys. All of us smaklians :(

XOXO

This Is The Right Time - I guess

Bismillah. Okay, I guess I haven't exactly uar-uarkan in my blog about my going to PLKN. Yeahh, I got it.

At first, it was hard to acknowledged that I'm like compulsory - duhh - to go for PLKN and surprise surprise I got at Sibu, Sarawak :P Yeah, I know, it is so darn far. I mean, at first I wasn't prepared for PLKN, then I got to go to Sibu. How great is that? -.-" But I've prayed about it. So if this is where I should be going then there's no doubt I shouldn't go.

So if there is no halangan or anything, I'll be going this 2nd of Jan -yeah that early - and my parents will send me to Wangsa Maju, here for those who are going to Sabah and Sarawak have to berkumpul here. And I guess, after that I won't be 'seeing' all of you peeps for another THREE months! pfft. Oh well, just pray so that I won't get tanned so much!

I went to OU twice last weekend and apparently my stuff for PLKN is not well prepared yet. Mama asked me to packed my things the latest this Wednesday. Because this is Sibu we're talking about, its not like we could travel there for ten minutes. Oh my camp is at Bumimas, so anybody who would like to visit me, PLEASE COME will you? Heehee.

But I'm sick right now. I've got terrible cold and coughs, so do pray for my health, not just my health but OUR health :DD These are the names that I could remember would be going to PLKN - note that NONE of my buddies got the same camp as mine :P

> Aimisya, Aisyah Zailan, Rai, Syed, Kamil, Hakim, Nublan, Naim, Zaid, Keyya, Ane, Waniman, Wanimer, Shekkey, Mushi,  I'm sorry but I can't remember other names but there will be 6 of my buddies going to Sabah- how cool is that? And total pelajar smakl that got it is 33, if I'm not mistaken. sorry ^ ^"

Anyway, I'll update more about my buddies yang pergi. So, pray for us all the BOMB :)

I'm the Blue one. I shouldn't be that way, shouldn't I?

Perfect Two

Grenade - My latest fav song :D Thank you.

Flashbacks by Raihana Nadhira

I remember how everything was perfect. You told me you will be there whenever I needed you. You told me how beautifully amazing I was when we met for the first time. Then, you told me that, you will never left me alone, because, you said you are my guardian angel. Reminiscing that night when you said "I have to go away. I'm sorry" and you left without no more words spoken, you left me speechless, and you made me pouring down hot streaming tears. You are unforgiven.

I remember how everything was tough. I remember I was at the stable, taking care of those horses that you and I use to rode. I haven't heard of you since that night. At that time it was almost six months since you left me, without calls and letters, I couldn't know how you are, where you are and why you left me. I was angry and frustated because all you said to me before was a lie. My heart was torn, throbbing in pain. I couldn't endure it, and my eyes kept welding up tears. I remember when I came to your house the other day after you went away, I knocked once, then twice, then many times, hard enough to break it down. I shouted your name, but there was no response. Of course, I was knocking at the door of an empty house.

I remember how everything was troubled. I remember when I was walking at the park from my college to my apartment in King's Street, I stumbled upon you. All of my college assignments strewn everywhere. You helped me to pick up all of the papers. It was three years after you left me, and suddenly you showed up again. Why? You made my heart torn again. We just stand there, looked at each other, studying each others' faces. You looked different. You looked somewhat, paler, and weaker. You looked at me, but I could see that your eyes looked through me. You were studying your beloved face. I smiled, my eyes weld up with tears again and I tried to touch your face but you looked away. Suddenly, you turned and you ran. I could see your feet brought you away from me as fast as if I was also running, trying to catch you, trying to reach you. But I was just standing there, where you left me, feeling dumbfounded what I just did, to make you go away, again.

I remember when I was busy. Busy looking up names, searching your name in the internet. I googled, and your name suddenly popped up in the centre of my computer. I plastered a smile. I finally found you. My housemate said that I was a fool, trying to find you when you're the one who left me. But somehow, although I was still mad at you for breaking your promises, deep down I felt as if you weren't purposely left me. I could tell when I looked into your soft hazel eyes this evening. Are you alright? I wrote down your address, and that night I walked out of my apartment, determined to see you and put away the memories of three miserable years of my life behind me.

I remember when I rang the doorbell. I rang many times, I called your name, I cried. I reminisced how I felt when I knocked your door last three years. I didn't bear to fail this time, no not this time. Just after a few moments, the door opened, and a familiar looking woman was standing in front of me. It was your mother, looking beautiful like always, like you. She was surprised to see me, and I was surprised even more when she quickly hugged me. She asked why I never called them and send letters. I was puzzled, I told her how you left me that night without telling me why, without telling me where you will be going. She wasn't prepared for this and she broke down. I helped her to sit in the kitchen. And then she said, "Oh honey, I thought he has told you. I'm sorry." I said to her I don't want an apology but an explanation. So, she told me your story.

I remember when my cheeks are wet again.  I remember I was in a ward, your ward. I walked into the room with a heavy heart, because I couldn't bear seeing you like that. You turned to look at me, and you let your tears fall. You said, "I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. I couldn't take care of you anymore." I broke down beside you. And I remember I hugged you and finally I'm in your arms that had always been guarding me. "I love you. So please, don't leave me again. Never." And we remained quiet to capture that moment, that soon will end.

I remember when I read your letter, that you has wrote for me the day before you left me. A special letter for a special someone, you said. And to me an explanation that I have been trying to find. You wrote; ".... You are my one true love, and you can never be replaced sweetheart. I could never stop loving you because you are truly a special woman in my life. You brought happiness in my life and you should know that your laughters has always been my favourite. I am really lucky, to have you inside my life. I would never regret that I had lend you my heart.
I'm sorry. But I have to go. I couldn't live beside you anymore because I 'm not strong enough to see you cry. I'm sick. And it is killing me slowly. I've diagnosed with brain cancer. And you could tell that I'm dying. I must let you go because I don't want you to see me like this. I'm sorry. And I love you. Please take care. And please.... forget me." My lips trembled. And I cried again.

I remember when the air was windy when you has gone. I remember I walked towards your grave and kneeled down to lay the flowers. All of your family were there. I could see your mother and her red rimmed eyes. She has cried enough. And I thought that I had too. I'm ready to let you go. And I want to tell you that my sweetheart, your love could never be replaced. I will always cherished our memories that we have shared together and I promise I will take care of myself. And I'm going to miss you. Badly.Thanks for the memories. Thank you for letting me be part of your life. And in your heart is forever I'll be.

I remember when I wrote this story. I remember when I told the New York Times publisher that I would like to share my story. I said, "Hi, my name is Rachel. And I've got story to tell."

THE END.

Forever and Always

Congratulationssss!

Alhamdulillah, all praise for Allah. I would like to congratulate all of you 30 000 PMR candidates for getting straight a's in your Big Whoopie! and no, not just you guys, all of you that although didn't make it to get straight but still, you guys had did the BOMB~~

Congrats Rayyan, and all of SB PMR Candidates. Nabihah, Fazi, Aziz, Moden, and all of SMAKL PMR Candidates :DD Akak bangga sama korg! Haha. Keep up the good work!

All the best always(:

I - WANT - IT - ALL 2

- stationaries peaceful life friends forever cute pink umbrella vacations to Europe run a mile jump on a trampoline for an hour non stop go bungee jumping ice-skating learn karate-do play chess with my husband hug a Chinese panda bake delicious cookies never be frustated sing a happy song everyday giggle at every jokes make everyone happy be a professional dentist wall- climbing be a best friend to my children give a shoulder for someone to cry on khatam all 40 hadith ride a horse by the beach breathe in fresh air walk on the road of Paris singing while skipping play a piano professionally a persian cat singing while playing a piano a goldfish eat rambutans everyday collect seashells learn to play a guitar be good in maths speak fluent english without grammatical errors become an idol to my siblings smile when times are rough Paul Smith clothing line wear braces bring my parents for hajj again laughing with my friends all the time never failed to selawat to Prophet Muhammad s.a.w every day make Makkah and Madinah as our second home touch a tiger ride on an elephant own a special bracelet think positive all the time have a creative and artistic mind have my own fashion line go to a funfair play all of Monopoly games series take a picture on top of a mountain go fishing have healthy and beautiful kids marry a man that can lead me always in Islam ways

Insya Allah. Ameen ;D

Two Talented Dudes ;D

I - WANT - IT - ALL

Are you ready? I WANT ;  spring summer fall winter rainy days sunny days rainbows Ray Bans walking down the beach sunsets Ipanema flip flops laughters Cybershot T - Series camera DSLR jumping on a puddle during rainy days haute couture dentistry in London umrah every year hajj at young age iPhone 4 chocolates Baskin Robbins climb mountains beautiful sceneries Juicy Couture MacBook Air straight A's student sweet movies animals to be saved from extinctions green environent be artistic ballet flats every shopping bags biodegradable save the planet see stars through telescope ride horses swimming every day scuba dive my husband to sing me Just The Way You Are become a good daughter a good wife a good student a good woman be healthy sing to Taylor Swift every single day read good novels eat good food Volkswagen Polo big furry cute teddy bear the new iPod Touch eat Famous Amos cookies every day not miss qiyam every morning never forget to read the quran every day to shop many accessories e - Book gladiatorish wedges never forget to drink water 8 times a day sing to my husband Perfect Two by Auburn get engaged by 22 get married by 24 have many wonderful kids have my own clinic major in arts do fencing learn to play chess rollerblade a full collection of Hans Zimmer Album professional photographer smile every day have many friends worldwide have my own orphanage help muslims and my religion make my parents proud become a useful person become rich and donate to many be a good cook watch a football game take beautiful pictures have an art gallery

Just The Way You Are ♥

Attteeennttiiooooonnnnnn!

This is my new yahoo mail so, add lah okay? Hee ;D

rai_nad24@yahoo.com