Yesterday Morning Was A Happy Morning

Assalamualaikum and a very good 8.38 am in the morning :)

So today, I'm going to share with all of you peeps, about yesterday morning. I. Am Soooo damn happy ! :D
Alhamdulillah. He let me meet up with my old friends again, and that is something that I would love to have the chance every single day :')

Yesterday I went to SB 5th Annual Academic Excellence Award -AEA at Kuliyyah of Engineering UIAM.
Many new faces that I saw yesterday, like memanglah, I've left SB for two years kan, haha. But I like the performances that they did yesterday and mostly were about Palestine : ) The Nasheed group was the most awesome. The final touch yesterday was a performance of Laskar Pelangi song, the singer, Rahman, is Rayyan's friend and mostly in the band : ada drummer, 3 violin players, a boy at the piano, 3 guitar players and if I'm not mistaken, the guitars were different kinds, err kan ada banyak jenis kan? Then ada choir group sekali :D haha hebat kan? The performance wasn't bad at all, and if you give me a 1- 10 scale I'll rate 8 :) The band consists students from form 4 and form 5.

But that's not really my point of posting this post, in fact, the performances contributed only 1 % of my happiness yesterday. I get to meet my old friends again. Yeppp, and I don't think you know how I felt yesterday when I get to hug my best friends : Husna, Kyra, Nani, and get to hold their hands again, and get to meet my buddies Zaid, Zafran and Faez. Everything were so touching. I sat beside Husna when she cried because of joy, she got the Best Student Award because she's contributed a lot to that school and besides, she got straight a's for her SPM. Congrats Husna ! :D And Zaid, also got the award for Best Student, he also has contributed a lot to SB and he got 10 a's for SPM. Congrats Zaid ! :D And to all my friends that I get to meet yesterday, including Nana, Atikah and Irsalina, and especially to Kyra, Nani, Zafran, Faez, Tun, CONGRATULATIONS ! I'm soo happy for all of you : ) Insha Allah we will meet again. And I was also a lil bit disappointed coz Qila, Tera and Alia wasn't there. Aisyah pun takde :( Hope to see you guys sooner or later.

To Zafran and Nani, all the best for this coming PLKN siri 8 Kump 2 : ) Alah, mula2 je you guys feel like you're going to a Camp Hell, tapi lama2 you guys will enjoy it. Like seriously. And to Zaid, insha Allah you'll get the Khazanah scholarship. Keep on praying buddy ! :) And baik2 kerja kat Dominoes tu :P Husna, insha Allah you'll get JPA scholar, keep praying too :D And to Tera and Alia, all the best at Taylor's. Qila, Kyra, Nani, waiting is okay, haha I pun sama now. Insha Allah all of us will achieve what we want : )

Congratulations also to my sisters Rayyan and Raihan for getting excellent results in year 2010. Alhamdulillah both of them got the awards for Best in Subjects - each of them got 4 awards ( @_@ ) and also got another award for 2nd position in class. Hehe I'm soo proud of both you. Keep up the good work okay? Rayyan also got the 9 A's Award and Raihan got the CGPA 4.0 Award. Oho, nampaknya kakak lah kena keep up dgn korang. Oh well.

All in all, I'm so proud for all of you guys and all of you has done your parts in SB. Each of you guys really contributed to our beloved SB.

And to my teachers in SB especially to Cikgu Latifah, Cikgu As, Cikgu Siti Salmah, Cikgu Marziyana, Cikgu Amin, Cikgu Zaid, and to all teachers in SB that has taught me when I was in SB for three years, thanks a million for everything! :D

I really really hoped that I could meet all of you again. And Zaid, HAHA thanks a lot for sharing some of your experiences in Kem Princess Heliza. I really am glad that you shared your stories especially about your Sabah girl haha.

A Day Without Your Post, Is Like A Day Without Rainbow

Just a short post-

To my buddy who is supposed to tell how your condition is.

Everyday, remember?

Oh well.

I understand that you are pretty busy.

Take a good care of yourself.

Polaroid pictures. I love how they'll capture my memories.

(The pic has got nothing to do with this post. Saje letak, haha )

Please be aware of my GRAMMATICALERRORS !

Assalamualaikum and a very good night to all of you : )

This is just a short post regarding my language and writings that I use and write in my blog - I have lots of grammatical errors! Okay? So please, please don't use words that you all tak pasti maksud dia, or sentence that you all was was nak guna in essay or whatsoeever. Haha, why the sudden reminder? Sebab my mom and my sisters were very crossed reading my posts - -"" pfft. And fyi people? My header tu mmg saje I buat salah tau. She Hypnotizing. It is a wrong sentence. It should be She is hypnotizing. But I am picturing it to be said like "oh she, hypnotizing". Macam tu! Tapi Mama kata, then you must put comma lah lepas she tu kalau tak orang tak tau. Oh well. Mama ada point lagi sekali so, I'm truly sorry for any mistakes, and please, sometimes I write my post in full english, please be my guest to correct any grammatical errors and this is absoulutely not an invitation for you Rayyan and Raihan - -""" (sometimes it sucks when your sisters write better english than you do :P oh well) But I am a very proud sister okay? : D hehe. So, have a good night people!

سلامتك يا صديقيGet Well Soon My Friend : ' (

May Allah protect you always.

We will always pray for your health and condition.

Have faith in Him always.

Only He can give us the better condition that we want in him -Fikri.

To Fikri Che Daud,

kami akan sentiasa doakan anda.

Latest info from Munzir : ALHAMDULILLAH Fikri dalam keadaan selamat cuma kaki kirinya patah, mulut dijahit. How many stiches tak tahu, but Kamil is with him at Hospital Selayang. To all my friends yang melawat Fikri at Hospital, bagi dia semangat, doakan dia, Insha Allah Allah akan memberikan Fikri kesihatan seperti dulu. Doa supaya dia tidak berasa sakit dan perit walaupun keadaanya begitu sekarang.

To all my friends who have the latest info on Fikri, please state that in Fivers '10 okay? Thanks!

oOOOOH ! :D

Okay maybe some of you will think that this post is alahai gedik gilaa - -"" But I really really am looking forward for these things ! Hehe. Especially the roses and the teddy : D

Yepp, I'm looking forward for someone to give me a very big cute teddy bear : ) tapi taknak bunga tu sekali. Bagi seperately ye. HAHA :P (i know i know- demanding gila)

Aaaah. A bouquet of fresh red roses. This, also something that I won't buy to fulfill my own desire.

Hehe. Anyone care enough to give? ^ ^

iPhone 5. Yeah, dah keluar dah pun. This is absolutely a smart phone that I'm looking forward to.

But I won't ask my parents to buy this for me. Because in our family in order to earn something is to succeed in our studies. Rasa segan nak mintak sebab result SPM not good enough. huhu maybe later.

Mac Book Air :D AAAAH I'm soo looking forward to this thing. hehe but now ada VAIO pun oklah kan. But still, in the future, this genius creation must be minee! hahah XD

iPod Touch. Haha, other thing that I really hope to own. And if I get to own this thing I wish to have the whole surahs in Al- Quran and hadiths in it : ) Songs? Alah, phone ada, youtube ada. Dengar and tengok je from there. ;)

Adidas runners - very light one. But my sports shoes is still quite new because I bought it for PLKN last January. But after it has worn out, a pair of this beauty must be mine :D

Benefit cosmetics. It's not like I wear make up outside. Inside my bag are the normal deals ; Nivea lip balm, Maybelline Compact, and Maybelline eye liner. Celak sometimes je pakai. But Benefits, is like another deal to buy. Hehe. I love how they commercialised their foundations. But Mama never believe in wearing foundation at young age, because you'll look older later. But the way they camouflage our faces are just simply flawless ! : )

Ballet flats is a must must for me. But don't get yourself wrong by looking at this picture. Hehe. Even if I'mm soo rich, I won't spend RM 5K and above just for a ballet flats. So Chanel is absolutely out of topic :P And ballet pumps and flats are my favourite because apart that I am tall and some of my girlfriends wouldn't except me wearing heels - -""" , the effects that I'll get after walking at the malls or wheresoever is that I don't feel uncomfortably in pain. Tapi itupun sometimes kenaletak plaster kat belakang, sebab kalau jalan jauh2, the skin would peel = ="

Gladiators. This is also another thing that never fail to make me fall in love just by looking at it! Haha. This beauty is absolutely painless and comfortable when you wear it. That's why gladiators are one of my favs too

This kinda watch - me like. Haha, tak kisah brand apa pun. But Fossil absolutely captivates me. Especially this watch that I searched in the net. Haha. Tapi harga dia mahal lah - -"" Never mind, maybe later later I'll own one but not now. My swatch still functions perfectly and the watch tak sampai setahun lagi pun guna. In fact, my grandma just went back from Umrah and she bought me a watch. Heehee, a Guess watch.

Thanks Mak Wo :D

Clinique Facial Treatments. Is another thing that I would love to try. Haha, because you know why? I love how their models' skin look in their adds, so fresh and flawless - -""" But my cleanser that I'm using now is still fine, I use Simple, and it has no perfume, no harmful chemicals and essential vitamins that are good for the skin. It is also made in the UK and still cheaper than Clinique.

In fact, I love their motto; Smile, it's Simple !

Ipanema sandals. Hehe, I absolutely love the Giselle Bundchen collections. Simply adorable. But I haven't own any of them yet. Wish to own at least a pair sooner or later ^ ^""

A goldfish. I've always wanted a pet and Mama can't stand a Persian cat, Baba can't stand it's poo, Rayyan is allergic to furry pets so I guess the suitable pet for me is a goldfish! And I absolutely adore goldfish! :D heehee they're shiny and .... err cute? Tapi apapun ikan emas terbaik :)

Raybans :) If you ask me about sunglasses, shades, I choose Rayban. Hehe, but belum ada lagi lah :P I really hope to own one but Mama said that 'what for nak beli sunglasses? Bukannya nak pegi anywahere panas pun' Well, actually Mama do has a point. And besides, Rayban is quite expensive. MNG or Guess has cheaper range. Oh well. Last time my dad lost his Rayban at the ATM machine :/

Paul Frank. PAUL FRAAAAAAAAAAAAANK. haha entahla, sekarang ni brand ni macam phenomenal je. Tapi phenomenal pun, harga pun phenomenal, yang ori lah :P Oh well, I love their iPhone cases though.

If I get the chance to own any Paul Frank's collection, I would absolutely adore this cheeky monkey with red background, tak kisahla, tops or handphone cases. heehee.

Juicy Couture. Is another brand that I really have been longing to own one. Haha, but the price of their items in Malaysia is quite expensive, besides, you can only find the shop in Pavi :P Last time I went to Pavi with my mom and sisters, I didn't even dare to walk inside the shop, hahah. Itupun pergi sana sebab Mama nak beli handbag kat Radley, then we had our lunch there and pergi Tangs. So each of us dapat one item from Tangs, Mama belikan and kebetulan on that day tengah sale so boleh la kan spend kat sana.

This is the most BIZARRELY GRUESOMELY GENIOUS ballet flats creation EVER! :D :Dhaha. This is Vansessa Beecroft Repetto - err yeah, a designer's flats. hmmph. Entah bila lah nak own one. Haha. But I really hoped to own this freaky genius thing one day !

Yeah, this camera, is the only camera that I trust, to be inside my handbag :P Haha. But for me, to own it, maybe later, if I get good results. Like I said before, we siblings don't own gadgets for free. We have to earn it by getting good and excellent results.

I've always love this kinda purse. And brand tu tak kisah la sebenarnya. But Roxy pun cantik2 jugak their purses hehe. But mine is still new, last time I bought one at Tropicana Life, so nanti2 lah bila dah teruk sangat2 baru tukar : ) Tapi kalau nak bagi for birthday gift, saya terima je :D

SWATCH. Is another watch brand that I really love to own. Hehe. And I'm still loyal to my Swatch, that I wear everytime I go out. Baru setahun umur dia ; ) hehe and I got a buddy who loves to collect Swatch watches. Kalau hang nak beli Swatch lagi, belikan untuk aku sekali tau ^ ^""

Okay gambar ni just a gambar. Haha, if I have lots of money, I don't think I want to spend $1000 K for my wardrobe, okay? Haha, this picture is trying to tell you that I love clothes so much. Tak kisahla brand apa asalkan selesa ; ) But to me, affordable brands like Dorothy Perkins, Forever 21, Topshop is okay. Alah, sometimes tu beli kat Brands Outlet, Ikano je. Seriously affordable :D FOS pun best jugak. haha.

Okay, I think panjang lebar cerita pasal my desires kan? Haha. But I'm telling you that to own these things is a great feeling but not as great as to own all of the nikmat that He has given me. Alhamdulillah : ) And like Baba said last time when I kept moaning because I want to eat Char Kuey Teow and Baba tak sempat beli sebab busy with meetings and work, Baba said "Kamu kena bersyukur, bukannya takde makanan pun kat rumah. Orang lain yang tak mampu, ada yang tak makan sebanyak yang kamu makan selalu. Nanti makan yang kamu nak tu Baba cari, tapi you must always remember that, it's not the end of the world if you don't get to eat Char Kuey Teow. And bukannya tak pernah makan pun " Hmm. That's true. If you sigh a lot, means that you are being ungrateful of what you have now. Apa apapun, kita kena sentiasa bersyukur, sebab nikmat yang Allah bagi terlalu banyak. Tak payah tengok duit dan kekayaan, tengok diri kita sendiri. Alhamdulillah, kita dikurniakan mata, telinga, dan anggota badan yang berfungsi dengan sempurna. Senang je kalau nak bersyukur ni. Jangan pandang orang yang bawak Merce, pandang orang yang tiada kenderaan untuk bergerak sana sini.

Haha, saje nak tunjuk gambar my love. Meet Muhammad Razeen Rafidi. He is nine years old going to be ten insha Allah this 17th of December. This pic was taken during our vacation at Sepang Gold Coast. (haha nama bukan main lagi :P )

This is the bag that I bought using my own money. Kan Mama tak bagi spend guna duit sendiri, oh well. Somehow I get to buy this bag during Umrah last year.

Okay so itu jelah kot. And siapa2 yang rase post ni melebih, hmm, I'm sorry that I didn't post a good post for you to read.

Freedom : D

The Laugh And Smile Therapy : D

Here are some of the jokes that really cracked me up and I guess this also would cheer up your day :D



1 - One day theres a couple of kids in a phycology class. The teacher stands up and says to the class "stand up if u think you're stupid!" after about 5 minutes Little Johnny stood up and the teacher says "do you think you're stupid Johnny?"


To which Little Johnny replies "No miss i just hate to see you standing there all by yourself!!!"

2-  Ten things that you don't want to hear during a surgery.

1 Don't worry. I think it is sharp enough.
2 Nurse, did this patient sign the organs donation card?
3 Damn! Page 84 of the manual is missing!
4 Everybody stand back! I lost a contact lens!
5 Hand me that...uh...that uh.....thingie
6 Better save that. We'll need it for the autopsy.
7 "Accept this sacrifice, O Great Lord of Darkness"

8 Whoa, wait a minute, if this is his spleen, then what's that?
9 "Ya know, there's big money in kidneys. Hell, he's got two of'em
10 What do you mean "You want a divorce?"


3- A Plane was flying through the jungle when suddenly the engine stalled. The pilot ejected and drifted gently down to land. Unfortunately he landed in a large cooking pot which was gently simmering over a low fire.


All the local tribesmen turned to look at him until the chief, blinking in disbelief asked, "What's this flier doing in my soup?"



4- Two fisherman are out sailing when suddenly a hand appears in the sea. "What's this?" asked the first fisherman, "It looks as if someone is drowning!"


"No," explained the second fisherman, "It's just a little wave."


5- First Man: I bet I can make you speak like a Red Indian?


Second Man: How?

First Man: Told you I could.


6- "He may look like an idiot and talk like an idiot but don't let that fool you. He really is an idiot."


- Groucho Marx

7- "His mind is so open - so open that ideas simply pass through it."


- F. H. Bradley


8- Q. Were you long in the hospital?


A. No, I was the same size that I am now!


Q. What button won't you find in a tailor's shop?

A. A Belly button!


Q. What kind of car does Mickey Mouse's wife drive?


A. A minnie van!


Q: How did the telephones get married?

A. In a double ring ceremony!


Q: Why did the child study in the aeroplane?

A: He wanted a higher education!


Q: What kind of hair do oceans have?


A: Wavy!



Make A Change

Last night I slept late because I watched CSI : NY and Miami, their latest season you know? haha and err I was scolded by Baba. He said " Kamu lupa ke, umur ni rezeki. Jangan buang masa. You had the whole day to watch tv, takkan malam pun nak watch tv juga? Read books, banyak buku agama dalam almari tu yang kamu tak baca lagi ...." Reminiscing those words really made me TER-SEN-TAK. Yes, what Baba said was true. I've been living for 18 years, and throughout those years, so many, so much rezeki, nikmat, that He'd gave to me, to my family. What should I do in becoming a greatful believer? I should make a change. A change here means towards a better Raihana Nadhira Rafidi.

I, should make a list. One step at a time is the best solution for my TheChangeProject.

1. No more read the Quran 1-4 pages every morning. Read 5 pages !

2. Start istiqamah in performing the rawatib prayers. Start by performing rawatib for one compulsory prayer. For instance, start by performing the rawatib prayer during Zohor.

3. Finish the book : Apa Ertinya Aku Memeluk Islam Fathi Yakan by next week. Please amati page by page.

4. Never fail to read agama book everyday. At least, a page a day.

5. After this, FB is only in the morning and before Asar. Sebab, cmmon lah, like takkan the whole day?!?

6. Sleep early to rise early. If you people see me at certain days I onlined YM or whatsoever late at night, then I have certain reasons. But still, sleep early to rise early.

7. Do qiyam at least twice per week.

8. Never fail to solat taubat, hajat and witir every night.

9. Jom Rai, puasa sunat balik macam kt smakl dulu? ;D Start slow by fast once a week. Either monday or thursday, you choose babe!

10. Keep on searchin', browsin' about Dentistry, Universities, Courses, Scholarships.

11. Never EVER GIVE UP ! The only key to success is hard work Rai. Then remember the word money in bahasa melayu, D-U-I-T.

12. Pray, pray, and keep on praying! And remember His words in Surah Al- Baqarah ayaat 186. Put your trust in Him Rai. And you must be bertaqwa in order to get what you've prayed.

Let yourself change Raihana. For a better you : )

The Current Issues

Assalamualaikum and a very good morning  :)

So there are like many many things that really disturbed me. Seriously, like seriously. And how is that they happened to disturbed me? Well, maybe if you speak for an eighteen year old teenage girl the things that I'll tell all of you are something somewhat important. Yes, important so important that I'll be happy to share the benefits of the err things. Okay so let us start, shall we?

THINGS THAT REALLY DISTURB ME NOWADAYS - with its benefits

1. I am handphoneLESS. Yep. Since I was in form 4, my new phone that I got as for my pmr gift, stolen by my maid - -"" how irritating and annoying was that. So I started using handphone when I was going to PLKN, but technically it wasn't mine, it was Rayyan's old one- oh she has a new phone already sebab pmr jugak - then the handphone, I kinda let it wet when I played by the sea in Sepang Gold Coast last March holiday (now why this sound kiddish? oh nvm) so the handphone rosak = ="" yeah I know. Okay, it's not like I'm being ungrateful and demanding it's just that it's easier for my friends to contact me although I am a FBManiac, I uh practically online every single day, well because of other reason that also really disturb me. But still, I am eighteen and I shouldn't be handphoneLESS. Oh well. So Mama said "insha Allah by end of April, okay?" and I was like "wokay mom".

2. I am jobLESS. Well at first I stated in my about me in FB that 'currently I'm JOBLESS and I'm HAPPY with it ' but now I stated in my blog that 'currently I'm JOBLESS and I'm TOTALLY NOT FINE WITH IT'
But I've already had the discussions with the Mighty Two and I'm not to work like as a waiter or jobs that required me to go there using public transportations or jobs that situated in some malls, because my dad really don't like the picture or even the sound of it. And I actually agree with Baba on that. But knowing about how my friends work and earn money on their own really disturbed me. I, want to earn money to, I mean I, have things that I really want to buy that I don't really like to ask my parents to buy them for me. I mean most of my friends really being independent in buying their stuff but doesn't have to ask money from their parents. Mama don't like us siblings spend using our own money because money should just go to the bank! Oh well, but still kan? And I'm still hunting for a good and suitable job for me that will have my parents approval. But I really want to earn money okay. Okay.

3. I am driving liscenseLESS. Ugh. Everytime my friends ask me in FB , 'Rai, dah ada lesen?' the normal answer would be 'Daftar pun belum lagi '. I know, now is already almost end of April and sooner May comes! Okay it's not like you should have a driving liscense by certain month, it's just that it's easier for Mama to go to her office, because err, Mama can't drive. I don't mind being a driver for awhile. Alah, pahala pun dapat jugak kan :) But now we already have the numbers that lead us to lady instructors. And this afternoon, my friend gave a number, he said he and his siblings semua belajar with the same lady ! hahah cool tak. And plus him, 5 of his family actually learn with the same old woman. But before that Mama already got a number from a cousin of mine, only that if I'll be learning with the lady that Ahmad - my cousin- introduced, I'll be staying at his place at Gombak. Yeah because the driving academy is at Gombak. Oh I don't mind take me anywhere as long as I could learn how to drive a car :D

4. I am laptopLESS every night. Pfft. Our pc broke down and been sent for a repair, so every night I just have to give the laptop to my bro. For what? For the annoying PHENOMENAL game ; NINJA SAGA (!)
Ugh. This game just annoyed me and my brother and his friends siap buat group lagi : Anti Scammers Ninja Saga . Right. So now I just have to pray so that the pc cepat cepat sembuh, so he'll get to play the game without me grumbling beside him every night ; D Well, maybe you people are wondering why would I really care if I just give my brother some space to use the internet because I practically use the laptop almost the whole day since morning. Well, maybe because most of my friends online at night and I like to update my blog at night. Okay, maybe my reasons aren't relevant enough but I could only think of that eheh ^ ^""

5. I am MUET-LESS. Okay, just incase some of you still wondering what is MUET well it stands for Malaysian University English Test. Maybe some of you also wondering that why should I bother about this test? Well, maybe if you're not going to study overseas within a few years, you have to worry about this test because this test is just so important for students who attends local universities. Like if you go to UK or Aussie, you have to take A - levels, or TOEFL maybe. But MUET is important in our country. Some of my friends have already sat for the exams and last Sunday, during my brother's Sports Day, I met Aunty Sherry, my primary school friend's mother, and she said that 'yeah, you're not working, you're just sitting around at home, you SHOULD take this test sayang' and I turned to Mama and was like 'see? I told you so' heheh. Because Mama said last time when I questioned my thought about taking MUET, that we don't have to worry now and just wait a bit later. But I really am jobless and just sitting around at home without any work to do, this is actually a good idea. But right now, this matter is still under discussions, well my parents are busy people. Haihh. Never mind. Aunty Sherry even offered to give me some of 'Aisyah's notes (my primary school friend tu only that fyi, she is one year old YOUNGER than I am and she's now sitting for A levels. TERKEJUT tak? haha!) because last time she and her sister went to the bengkel about MUET and stuff and Aunty Sherry also mentioned that the book is quite expensive but I have pictured Aimisya's book in my mind, so yeah : ) haha

Well, practically I've got 5 things that disturbed me. But I haven't told you that my current mood is still happy. I'm disturbed but I can still live my life. When certain things troubled you, go back and return to Him, maybe this is not the right time for you to earn those things and be happy. You should be greatful of what you have now and it is all gifts from Him to you.

ps. Tak tahu kenapa now I'm soo into this song : Janji - Akim. HAHA

She is happy.

She. AWAKENED!

Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh !

I KNOW I KNOW IT HAS BEEN AGES! People, I know. AND I MISS YOU ALL TOOOO LIKE SODMNMUCH! ;D haha. Sooo, how are youuuu? Alhamdulillah I'm fine today and mayeb that's why I'd planned to start dusting raihanaeuphoria by today and gimme a whole week will yah?

Okay so. Many, many, many things happened throughout the month and weeks and days, and maybe some I'll share it with yah and some just let me keep that in my secret box of mypersonalstories. Ehem. So, this beloved blog of mine okay will be under construction for a week. So please, visit after one week, don't peek okay so maybe you can peek but I want this to be hyperly active like it used to everyday. I, am going to try to write as much as possible, everyday. Got it? E-VERY-DAY! :D heehee. Oh well - -""""

So here I am, once again, I AM AWAKENED! : )

ps.  just incase some of you still wondering, - -""" is the new -,-"" okay? My buddy MNZKA first introduced that to me and I was like hey, this looks nicer without the nose! HAHA :P



Talented People :DD HeeHee

Sometimes I Just Wished That I Would Just Fade Away

I thought I've made the right choice.

I thought I've made the right decision.

On my feelings.

But it turned out to be,

I just don't know how to describe it.

Oh dang.

I just have to learn how to stop believing.

I just have to learn how to stop holding onto.

I just have to stop acting like I'm on a cloud 9.

I just have to stop letting my heart being torn.

I just have to learn how to fade away.



Taylor Swift Madness ;D

Puzzles of Words For You

To my meilleur ami - ,

this is a special post for you.

Because I want you to know how your words affected me.

And because I want you to know how your words changed my feelings towards you.

First of all, I know that I owe you an apology.

Because I forgot your birthday.

Because I was late in wishing your birthday.

And because of all the reasons that I had stated.

Yes, I'm a lousy meilleur ami.

No need to doubt that.
Happy belated birthday my meilleur ami.

Secondly, let's turn back the time.

I was away for three days.

It was March 17 in the evening,

when I decided to open my big red bag,

to look at my phone which has been left untouched since I left the house that morning.

Then, I saw your message.

Puzzles of feelings started to link together.

Happy.

Glee.

Touched.

Confuse.

Irritated.

Happy.

I can't believe that I still get those beautiful words.

I can't believe that I still get those beautiful reminders.

So why confuse and irritated?

Because I recalled your post on March 16.
I'm in confusion with your words.
I'm irritated because at that time the words kept lingering in my mind.
".. hypnotizing my mind, my feelings, my heart "
And now,
I'm feeling more and more confused.
With your post on March 17,
that I get to read yesterday.
Is that true what you wrote?
Is that true what I read?
Is that true?
"..my blood, my vein, my heart",
"...it's you that I will wait for,
even if it takes days, weeks, months, years, centuries",
till death comes your way you said.
And then you wrote the magic words.

On March 19,
your post is full of apologies,
full of hopes,
full of expressions.
On this day also,
I wrote my post.
And I'm sure you've read it.
Now, keep on reading,
because now I'm writing full.

I don't know how everything could turn out differently.
I don't know how everything turned out to be so unexpected.
So unpredicted.
So wrong,
No, wait.
More words to come so please keep on reading.

I want that everything we do is what He would be pleased.
I want that everything we do achieved His blessings.
I want everything we do follow the right procedure.
I don't know right now.
I've got so much things ahead of me.
I'm just eighteen.
I'm still young to think about 'it'.
Just like what I've posted yesterday,
let du'a be the link that bonded us.
If,
this is the right decision.
Let Him made the final plan.

If you fall for someone,
keep it a secret.
Pray for the one you love.
So that you can be with the one you love,
forever and always.

You pursue your dream.
You hold onto your goal.
You become a Cardiologist like you've ever wanted.
And you know you'll take no less than six years.
Six years is long my meilleur ami.
Anything could happen throughout those years.
Many people that we will meet.
Many people that we will have to know.
Many people that could change our life,
forever and always.

So if the feelings is true,
let's start praying for our future what might hold us.
And no promises please.
Because making promises that can't be kept is just another hurtful page of your life.

 

Awakened

Hey, I've returned. Yeah, been gone for three days and I miss writing already :) Anyway, peace be upon you wonderful folks - my trustee readers (:

Alhamdulillah, I managed to come back in one piece ;) and my holiday was AWESOME and a different post will be coming out soon about it, don't worry I'll babble a lot later, hehe. Just that this is a short post (I know, I keep saying I'll be writing a short one but it turned out to be long, sorry  ^ ^" but I'll try to be as simple and prep as possible).

I just happen to read my good friend's blog, and she said now she is in love. No, wait. Don't get yourself wrong and think that I'm busybody with other people's lovelife but this is different. What I want to say here is that I'm proud of her. I really, really had fall for her beautiful words. And I'm awakened now. Alhamdulillah.

You must be curious of what I've read right? Well let me share it with you then.

My dear friend said that she is in love, she is in love with a person who ;

"dengan insan yang melabuhkan cintanya kepada Allah.


dengan insan yang menjaga peribadinya dari fitnah.

dengan insan yang tiada cinta utama selain perjuangan fisabilillah.

dengan insan yang tiada aku kenal, kecuali kerana agama dan peribadinya.."

She also adds;

"Sesiapa yang jatuh cinta, kemudian menyembunyikannya hingga kematian datang menjemputnya,

maka dia adalah seorang yang syahid."

(Riwayat Hakim,Ibn Asakir,al-Dailami dan lain2)

*dipetik daripada buku Pemilik Cintaku Setelah Allah dan Rasul karya ukht Fatimah Syarha Mohd Noordin


PS. Dia tak tahu dan takkan pernah tahu. Doa itu penghubung antara hati hati insan. Juga penghubung insan dengan pencipta. Pertemuan semula itu, serahkan kepada Al-'Alim. May Allah Hears."

After all these words, these remarkable words, I've awakened. I'm in confusion right now, with my feelings. But this is the perfect solution for me right now. And maybe for any of you out there who needs a resolution on love and feelings. Then, this is it. Let our hearts be taken care by Him. He knows what's the best for all of us. And don't you want your life is full of His blessings?

I do. And I know that now my journey is still long, is still far ahead. I've got lots of times to think about love. And I know that now, my solution is to pray, is to seek His guidance always, and so that whoever has won my heart now, is the perfect choice for me.

To my dear friend, Aimi Syahirah Ibrahim, Masha Allah, you've awakened me. Alhamdulillah. Thank you sweetheart ;)

ps. I'm sorry that I copypaste some of your words. I hope you don't mind and I really want to show to the world (who some, happened haven't read your beautiful post yet) on the beautiful of love in Islam.

My Beloved Friends

My beloved friends,

a few words to express how I felt about all of you,

about how sorry I am if you think I've left you,

how sorry I am if you think I'm a lousy friend,

how sorry I am if you think I never value our friendship that we created together,

how sorry I am if you think that I have forget you,

how sorry I am if you think I don't need you in my life anymore.

My beloved friends,

I'm truly blessed having to meet with all of you,

having to know with all of you,

to become your friend.

I'm absolutely grateful to Him that I met all of you,

I get to know all of you better,

I get to be your friend,

and most importantly,

your best friend.

I'm thankful to Him that He let us create a beautiful bond,

a beautiful relationship,

friendship.

My beloved friends,

I know I always apologize.

Because I thought I'd make you guys mad,

I'd hurt your feelings,

I'd torn you apart.

I know friends forever is what I promised all of you.

Because that is really what I want, deep inside of me.

I understand that someone should take the blame.

And let the person be me.

But one thing that I must tell all of you,

this friendship won't work if both sides won't cooperate.

Let's try again.

Although friendship is hard to retain.

Because as you grow older,

you'll meet more people.

You'll create another bond of friendship.

You'll may forget your past bonds.

So I understand that,

promise of 'friends forever' is hard to keep,

but for my side,

I'll try.

I'll try to be your, friend.

Forever.

SRIP: Nur Aisyah Rahman, Nur Nabihah Abd Hadi, Anis Hasanah, Syahmira, Atikah Abdulullah, NZKA(; , Naim Mazri, Mohd. Hanif Zonkifle, Mohd. Hafiz Zonkifle, Hafiz Suhaimi, Hanif Suhaimi, Naif Faris, Amirul Azim, Naif Farhan, Shauqy Osman.

SB: Nurul Husna Yusof, Siti Sakirah Abd Jalil, Zaid Jamaluddin, Aqilah Kamarulzaman, Nurul Hanani Damiri, Fatin Afiqah, Nur Alia Niza, Teratai Nadia, Rizwan Saiful Raslin, Hafiz Nazri, Zafran Mustafa, Mohd Naqiyuddin, Aisyah, Fatin, Zulaikha Syawal, Natasya Fellina, Ehsan, Affan Bahemsa-i.

SMAKL: Nurul Jannah Jalaluddin, Insyirah Zulkifli, Fatin Syakirah, Siti Nur Nabilah Lutfi, Sharifah Amirah, Aimi Syahirah, Auni Bazilah, Nur Zafirah, Norain, Puteri Hidayu Nafisah, Nur Nailah, Nor Saffana, Siti Husniyah, Farihah, all of Dorm Jauhari, all of batch  FiveForm Puteri 2010, all of my usrah members, Raihan, Izzat, Shafique, Azim Razak, Kamil, Iqbal

PLKN Kem Bumimas Sibu: Diyanah Kaiyisah, Fatin Nurafiqah, Shazwana Shahril, Redzlam, Shazwani Shahril, Azura, Jannah, Izzyani izzat, Reyvathy Sheena, Mohd Shafiqal, Filhan, Siti Syamimie, Muthaharah, Afiq Fakrul Razi, Najwa Nur Diyana, Francis, Affendi, Muhammad Wira, Aliff,  Siti Solehah, Azniera, Selviya, all of Dorm Durian, all of DELTA COMPANY that know me, all of WIRAWATI KUMP1 SIRI 8 that know me.

THANKS FOR EVERYTHING. THANK YOU FOR BEING MY FRIEND. MY BEST FRIEND.

I LOVE YOU TOO .



I Really Miss You. I do. I do.

I know I'd probably hurt your feelings.

I know I'd probably torn you apart.

I know I'd tell you my phone is a bloody thing.

I know I'd tell you I've got no more credits.

I know I'd tell you FB was damn slow.

I know I'd tell you that I'm sorry that you thought I'd forgot about you.

But hurting your feelings,

torn you apart,

have never come into my mind.

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry that I should've called you using the house phone.

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry that I should've post you a hello greeting.

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry for all the things I did wrong,

that made you think I'd forgotten about you.

Never.

I felt crushed.

I felt torn.

I felt upset.

After you send me the message.

Maybe what you said would happen to be true.

If you don't remind me,

remind me to be a friend.

A friend in need is a friend indeed.

I'm sorry.

If I haven't been your friend in need.

If I haven't been your friend that you hoped for.

I'm sorry.

But no, I really miss you.

I really do.

So please forgive me my dear,

for you are my good friend,

and I can't possibly forget you.

Can't possibly.

Thank you for the reminder.

That's sure a wake up call.

I really miss you. I do. I do,

Fatin Syakira.

When You Thought It Is Enough But It Is Actually Isn't

Enough is enough.

You think you have done enough.

Enough in everything.

Enough in your words.

Enough in your actions.

Unfortunately, so sorry to say that,

you are wrong.

So wrong.

Let us go one by one.

Let us turn the page by page.

Let us just sit down and take time,

to think back,

to recall,

to reminisce.

Number One;

"How is my ma'thruat?"

Sadly to say that,

it has been in a comma for almost more than two months now.

Yes, now you can open your eyes big,

your mouth wide open in shock,

this is absolutely,

unexpected.

Take a deep breath,

and let's move on to Number Two.

Shall we?

Number Two;

"How is my Dhuha?"

Sadly to say that,

it is only been done 3 times when you were away for 70 days.

Yes, now you can start closing your big eyes,

your mouth now shut abrubtly,

too numb.

No my dear, this is not torture.

Really, it's for your own good.

So buck up, Number Three is coming right up.

Number Three;

"How is my qiyam?"

Sadly to say that,

it hasn't been done for three months now!

Gosh, honey!

What have you been doing?

You know that you cannot rise early if you don't sleep early.

Yes, you can fall down now.

And let the tears fall,

silently.

Sorry to let you know about all these.

But you do remember your resolutions right?

Please, if you don't, let's not be a lazy bump and click on to the January post.

There, written clearly and nicely, boldly.

It is understood that you are now,

feeling guilty.

Ya Allah,

forgive me.

I shouldn't be like this.

I shouldn't just let it all go away.

I shouldn't create excuses.

I shouldn't just pray 5 times a day and read the Quran every morning and night.

I should've done more than that.

It is not enough yet.

I've wasted a lot of my time.

A lot of precious time.

Ya Allah,

forgive me.

And no one forgive sins but You.

Allah is all Forgiving, all Merciful.

p/s: This is only the part of it. I have many things that I'd done not enough yet. Well actually, there is no 'enough' in our life. Yeah, no enough.

If I Die Young - The Band Perry

The Way I Loved You (:

Some of My Favourite Indonesian Songs

It's Fine With Me (I'm Feeling Fine With You (: )

I've posted three different stories.

Each has its own meaning.

Each has its own speciality.

Each has its own secret.

And now,

I must tell how I felt,

how I felt after those three stories been poured out.

Why Is It Just Don't Come Out Right?
Well, you cannot really win everytime.
Every game there's always a winner,
and of course,
every game there's always a loser.
It's fine with me,
if I have to be the loser,
because I know it won't last long.
I may lose right now.
I may lose again.
But again as I said before,
it's fine with me.
Because sooner or later,
I'll win.
I'll win over 'it'.
I'll win and get my trophy.
The Trophy of 'It'.

Some said that,
I'm still young,
I've got more in front of me,
I've got a lot ahead of me.
I've got time.
Time to search for 'it'.
Time to look for 'it'.
So maybe not now.
Maybe not tomorrow.
Maybe not next month or another year.
But the time will come.
The time will come,
for me to be the winner.
The winner, finally.
I'll bring back The Trophy of 'It'.
So like I said before,
it's fine with me.

Trapped Within,
trapped,
buried,
it's almost the same right?
The same feel,
the same condition,
the same everything.
Now I have to work things out,
to crush the sealed tight box,
to break the oversized chains,
to sit again,
to stand again,
to be able to breathe freedom.
All praise is for Him,
for giving me the courage,
the guts,
the strentgh,
to work things out.
So that I could smile again.
So that I could laugh again.
With no more fear.
No more lies.
Don't get yourself wrong my friend,
like I told you this morning,
I've got many other different reasons that made me
Trapped Within.
And no,
I never forcing smiles and faking laughs,
when it comes about you,
my best friend.

It's fine with me
now that although some part of me still,
Trapped Within,
but with His help,
I can always run a mile on naked feet,
I can always swim in the ice cold water of Southern Ocean,
I can always climb the Mount Everest,
to untrap me.
To set me free.
So it's fine with me now.
It's fine with me.
Because one of my problems,
has settled,
settled beautifully,
settled wonderfully,
and been understood patiently,
by one of the souls that I really
appreciate most-
apart from my family and other friends.
Thank you again.

NZKA(;
I know that it's a bit rare of me,
to write about specific person,
in my beloved raihanaeuphoria,
but I did, didn't I?
So that I could tell,
how I really felt after what I said.
How I really felt after what has been uttered.
So that I won't feel regret.
So that I won't be upset.
So that no more heart I'd torn.
So that no more sad songs could be heard.

It's fine with me
now that I just got your message,
now that I just got your words,
makes me stonger,
makes me relieved,
makes me smile one more time.
It's fine with me
that we are still best friends.
We are still feeling fine.
Yeah,
it's fine with me,
when you are always fine.
NZKA(;

So I've written down,
my feelings after those three stories has been posted.
I hope all of you would understand now.
I hope all of you would understand.
Understand a girl,
who could not leave her smile behind.

My Long Time Favourite

Trapped Within

Have you seen a box

sealed so tight,

that when you take it and shake it,

you can hear a sound,

that makes you wonder,

that makes you suspicious,

whatever inside the tight sealed box?

Have you seen a trunk

shut so tight,

by an oversized chain,

that when you forced it to open,

you'll just brake your manicured nails,

that even when you use the crowbar,

it just won't work,

this makes you feel frustrated,

this makes you feel angry,

however shall it going to be opened?

Have you seen a girl,

that look so pale,

look so numb,

have red rimmed eyes,

look confused,

look pressured,

at somewhat that has been bothering her.

Have you seen a girl trapped within her own mistakes?

It's all my fault.

It's all because I never think before I do.

It's all because of giving to people a lot.

No, you can give,

but it depends on what you give.

There's no next time.

And you can't hit Rewind.

You can't even linger your finger at Pause.

Because it has happened.

Now you just have to make it all better.

You just have to work yourself out.

Work yourself out of the box.

Work yourself out of the trunk.

Work yourself out of your mistakes.

Ya Allah, help me.

And no one can help me but You.

Why Is It Just Don't Come Out Right?

Just a short pouring-what-I-feel note.

Just a short expression.

I promise you.

You, Raihana.

When it comes about 'it', 

when you suddenly feel that,

this is it.

The right time,

the right change.

Because it is hard you see,

before this you had what you thought 

enough experience.

But actually you don't.

But that doesn't matter.

What you're going to say right now,

is that you've been hit by 'it'.

Again.

Damn it.

You saw 'it' is coming,

and at first you know that you're in a situation.

Confusion, surrounds you.

Confusion and anxiety.

Just seemed to enveloped you.

Especially your heart.

Yes, you knew that your heart has been 

intrigued by 'it'.

You said to yourself, 

its okay. 

You can trust on this one.

But then it turn out to be,

 otherwise.

At first, 

there were two 'it'.

But you know that one of 'it' you just have to just forget.

Because like they say,

friends should just remain friends.

Anyway you know that 'it' is taken by someone else.

A soul that your best friend love.

Then came another 'it'.

You look at how 'it' is.

Throughout the days, weeks.

You thought 'it' looks nice.

'It' looks like 

The Perfect One.

Whatever.

Now, everything almost everything

that you thought,

just don't seem to be right.

You just saw the pictures.

One of it just made you feel,

somehow disgusted.

And you felt disappointed.

And sorry, 

two pictures.

And you know that now you have to end 'it'.

Damn 'it'.

I'm sorry.

You just have to forget 'it'.

Although tears may fall.

And your heart is in

pain.

Again.

No longer Aishiteru.

Crying on the inside.

raihanaeuphoria Under Construction

Starting 14th of March 2011.

Be patient, just.

Stay with me. 

Alhamdulillah, I'm Home. Finally ;')

IMY IMY IMY guysssss badly! ;') I'm BACK FINALLY and it's true, Azim R, aku ada banyak STORIESSS TO SHARE with you guys :D Alhamdulillah, I came back to pangkuan family safely, around 5 something yesterday. I arrived at KLIA around 2 pm, then we had this process before we go to Zetro Wangsa Maju, macam kena ada check whatsoever and by the time we finished all this it was almost 3.30 we started heading to Zetro. But seriously the process is slow! Anyway, we bertembung with other two camps that arrived from Sabah, jumpa dengan Teha, Debel :)

Whatever it is, I'm so SORRY coz last night I tak dapat online FB lama, after Isyak, I head downstairs, with a new book on my left hand, Thirteen Reasons Why by Jay Asher and dunking Oreos in Milk ,(cold milik. Finally!! ) and at the same time watch a scary movie at HBO, Case 39 - seriously got goosebumps every second :P But I'll try to online FB as long as I can take, but at the same time updating my beloved bloggie(: And cakap awal2 kt sini, I rarely nak pegang my phone so FB je okay my beloved friends(:

Just wanna add that I terkilan sbb semalam tak sempat peluk habis2 Fatin Nurafiqah and Fatin Izzatie :'( I'm sorry girls, I really wanna apologize for all my wrong doings and thank you guys for everything, face-to-face. Insha Allah kalau ada rezeki, we will meet again(:

I miss THEM already : Diyanah Kaiyisah, Fatin Nurafiqah, Shazwana Shahril, Fatin Izzatie, Reyvathy Sheena, Shazwani Shahril, Azura, Izzyani, Jannah, Siti Syamimi.... Ustazah :'(

I miss all of wirawati and wira (?!) and para jurulatih, cikgu cikgu, that I get to know at PLKN Kem Bumimas Sibu Sarawak Kump 1 Siri 8 2011

Thanks for everything and sorry for anything.

Goodbye Folks ! :(

Saying godbye is always the hardest thing ever. Unfortunately, I have to say it because leaving you without a goodbye is like a cut through your heart, leaving it throbbing in pain.

Goodbye Folks! Pray for me, pray for us, PARA PELATIH PLKN 2011 KUMP 1~

See you in March 2011.

2011 - A New Rai 2

Alhamdulillah alhamdulillah alhamdulillah. Finally, today is 01/01.11 (: And I'm grateful to Allah for giving me and my family the chance to improve better in this whole new year. I would like to wish all of you peeps all the best in 2011! Make yourself a cup of coffee and start writing your azam because this year shall be YOUR YEAR to become the BEST HUMAN BEING ON EARTH :D

My AZAM TAHUN BARU 2011(:

I want to become a better muslim a better daughter a better sister a better student have a better attitude a better academic performances have high confidence in me to khatam quran at least three times this year to not fail recite the mathurat every day to never fail to say "please and thank you" to people when I need and obtain something to be a great friend to my friends to help others more often to smile often to be a happier person to always try the hardest in everything be the best among the rest to try not to miss dhuha every morning to sleep by 10. 30 every night so that I would not skip my qiyam unless I have lots of assignments or whatsoever important stuff to do then I could exceed until midnight to become more polite to act like a real woman to be polish in everything especially in communications to make my parents proud to make my siblings look up to me always to not raise my voice anymore to create a happy living to all people to exercise every day at least for 15 minutes per day become more alert in every situations not be careless in keeping things to be happy to eat healthily to drink more water to speak fluently in english without grammatical errors to write better in english and malay to learn more of every useful things to learn how to drive and get driving license to lessen the day dreaming to lessen my times on tv to read more religious boks to read more books to become a happy Raihana (: Insya Allah~

Since you get more joy out of giving joy to others, you should put a good deal of thought into the happiness that you are able to give.

- Eleanor Roosevelt