The Last Bid of Goodbyes

I remember on the day the starting month of Ramadhan, I was frustated at myself because I missed my first morning of puasa without qiyamullail. And this 'frets' going on and on and I only, embarassingly managed to wake up maybe a day or two for qiyamullail during the first two weeks. But despite that disappointment, I tried to read as much of the quran as possible and perform dhuha during my leisure time, although sometimes I found it hard to squeeze myself into leisure because of kekangan and all the crap. I told myself that if I could watch 3 movies during the weekend or maybe even more, why can't I spend 10 to 15 minutes for my Creator. Astaghfirullahalazim. I was definitely being selfish. To whom? To myself, because my inner soul certainly needs her cleansing. I f I care enough to buy lots of chemicals to take care of my appearence, why shouldn't I care to nourish my soul with what has my beloved prophet peace be upon him told his followers to? Dhuha is another path for you to cleanse your inner soul. Your heart.

Alhamdulillah my fasting is going on smoothly. Alhamdulillah I think this year, my Ramadhan is different, somehow it's hard to explain why. It's just that I think I can feel the nikmat bulan ramadhan. Thoroughly. Many things have been put sense to me. All the very valuable ceramah and talks certainly do good and better on me, and I know that I have to be very bersyukur indeed with all thses blessings, alhamdulillah! I am so happy(:

I'm the type of person who really care about her sleeping hours and I know that healthy minds need at least 6 hours of sleeping. Before ramadhan, it is quite hard for me to tidur awal, because of the so many homeworks and studies that I've got to finish and although my dad, and even some of my collegues suggested that I wake up early and study in the morning, it's hard for me to coordinate myself into that time. I usually sleep by 1. And if I exceed that time, I would be very kalut and all, because I know tomorrow I'll be sleeping during class ;P My qiyamullail routine also had been dreadfully embarassingly decreased. I woke up at 5.30 or so and after going for bath you know that you'll be listening to the azan by then.

Oh well. Today is 26th of Ramadhan already. I should be asking myself, dah banyak doa Allahumma inna nauzubika minannar, belum? This the third phase right? So, we should like banyak2 pray so that we would escape from the hell fire. Alhamdulillah, the last ten of ramadhan, insyirah and I made our priority on qiyamullail, it's not like we haven't before but like I said, our 'alarm' only bunyi by 5.30. Insyirah said that she would be sleeping at Dorm N with Saff, because Saff wakes up by 3.30 a.m, and I said that well why not, I think that's a great idea because we also have planned that we wana study afterwards. So I reminded her to pray at our dorm and don't forget to wake fasyak and I up. So this last ten, alhamdulillah, we managed to wake up as early as 4.30 a.m., hehe what happened to 3? Well, 4.30 is okay. But last friday all of us form fives and form three were compulsory to attend the qiyam, with Abi being the imam for solat sunat tasbih, seriously, that was my first time (embarassingly) and wow, panjang sangat! But I really am greatful because although some of my friends have perform this solat before maybe at young age, at least I started mine at seventeen, eh no, I actually dah eighteen(!) ikut bulan Islam lah, I was born on the second of Syaaban(: Okay so eighteen. Because, some people perform their first tasbih prayer maybe at late twenties, or thirtees, or maybe at 70. No, I didn't say that to offend anyone. Same goes to other people who perform their tasbih prayer at the age of forty maybe, and he or she would be thinking the same way as I did, but he or she should also be greatful because they have at least prayed the tasbih prayer once in their lifetime. Alhamdulillah, let us perbanyakkan our amalan while we're alive(:

Ramadhan is about to pack his bags already. I could feel that this Ramadhan somehow means a lot to me. Ya Allah, so many, so many nikmat and rahmah that Allah gave to us this Ramadhan, Masha Allah. It's unlimited. Unlimited. Insya Allah, I will not stop wake up to qiyam until the last ramadhan. I hope for lailatul qadar. I hope He would grant me one. And I hope to bid the last goodbye to Ramadhan, in the most mannerable way. Ya Allah, panjangkanlah umurku sehingga Ramadhan akan datang. Ameen Ya Rabbal 'Alamin.

It's Time To Shine, Baby!

All you have got to do is focus. Get yur head in the game. Trial is just around the corner... well corner of your BED! Raihana, make your parents proud! ;')

The Last Ten

Start with ayaat 186, Surah Al Baqarah. In the name of Allah the most gracious, the most merciful. "Ya Allah, ampunilah dosa-dosaku Ya Allah, sesungguhnya Engkaulah Yang Maha Pengampun dan amat suka pada yang ebrtaubat. Ya Rahman, Ya Raheem, Ya Wadud, ampunilah dosa-dosa mama dan baba, keluargaku, sanak-saudaraku, guru-guruku, rakan-rakanku dan semua umat islam di dunia ini yaAllah, yang hidup, mahupun yang telah mati. Ya Allah, terimalah amalan - amalan kami Ya Allah, masukkanlah kami dalam golongan yang beriman dan bertaqwa. Ingatkanlah kami padamu sentiasa, bersihkanlah hati- hati kami Ya Allah, terangkanlah hati kami dan berilah petunjuk dan hidayahmu pada kami. Ya Allah, kurniakanlah kami kecemerlangan, kejayaan, ketenangan, ketenteraman, kedamaian, kekayaan, kebahagiaan di dunia dan di akhirat. Lindungilah kami, peliharalah kami, dan selamatkanlah perjalanan kami di dunia dan di akhirat. Matikanlah kami dalam iman, islam, dalam keadaan syahid menimba ilmu atau mermperjuangkan agamamu, dan matikanlah kami dalam keadaan doasa2 kami terhapus seperti bayi yang baru dilahirkan. Ya Allah, ampunilah dosaku ya Allah. Aku mengaku akan segala kezaliman yang telah kulakukan terhadap diriku dan org lain Ya Allah, Ya Ghafur. Ya Allah kurniakanlah aku dan rakan rakanku kecemerlangan dalam Trial SPM dan SPM 2010 ya Allah kurniakanlah kami 11 A+ dalam peperiksaan kami tahun ini ya Allah. Mudahkanlah urusan kami sentiasa. Kurniakanlah kami akal fikiran yang cerdik dan pandai, cerdas dan pintar, dan kuat ingatan, dan dapat aplikasikan perkara yg telah diingati ketika exam nanti ya Allah. Sesungguhnya Engkaulah yang berkuasa atas setiap sesuatu. Ya Allah izinkanlah kami membalas jasa2 ibu bapa dan guru guru kami dgn kejayaan yang cemerlang ya Allah dan peliharalah kami daripada membuat ibu bapa kami sedih terhadap kami yaAllah. Ya Allah kurniakanlah kecemerlangan buat adikku Rayyan dan kawan kawannya ya Allah dalam PMR. Ya Allah peliharalah kami daripada maenjadi hambamu yang lalai dan menyesal. Ya Allah masukkanlah kami ke dalam syurga Firdausmu, dan peliharalah kami daripada menjejaki nerakamu yaAllah. Peliharalah kami dari azab kubur dan daripada dihisab ya Allah. Selamatkanlah kami dalam meniti titian sirat seperti sepantas kilat ya Allah. Ya Allah panjangkanlah umur kami dan peliharalah kami dari menjadi hambamu yang rugi. Robbana atina fiddunya hasanah, wa fil akhirati hasanah, wa qina azabannar. Ameen Ya Rabbal 'Alamin." And no one can answer my prayer but You.

The Worth Watching - Pelham 123

The Taking of Pelham 123- Is a movie worth to watch. Really people, no dissapointments, just a nice flow.

I just watch this movie last night on HBO. It's a 2009 movie, and yeah, it was in the cinema last year but you know that I don't go to cinemas. Okay back to the story. This movie is my favourite after Die Hard and some other action pack movies. One thing that to me is very cool about this movie is that they don't show women's butts to get to the highest rank on the most watched movie. Which to me, is very sensible thing ever. Because you can see that all James Bond movies has unnecessary women-that-show-off-their-legs and big pouty redded mouth to attract watchers but not Pelham 123. Directed by Tony Scott and actored by two famous actors; Denzel Washington and John Travolta, this movie is another baskin robin for those who love action pack movies, like me. hehe.

So here is the plot that I got from the internet.

In early afternoon, four armed men hijack a subway train in Manhattan. They stop on a slight incline, decoupling the first car to let the rest of the train coast back. Their leader is Ryder; he connects by phone with Walter Garber, the dispatcher watching that line. Garber is a supervisor temporarily demoted while being investigated for bribery. Ryder demands $10 million within an hour, or he'll start shooting hostages. He'll deal only with Garber. The mayor okays the payoff, the news of the hostage situation sends the stock market tumbling, and it's unclear what Ryder really wants or if Garber is part of the deal. Will hostages, kidnappers, and negotiators live through this?


Well watch this movie if you wanna know how it ended. One thing for sure is that Washington is now one of my favourite hollywood actor(;

When I Look At You

18th Ramadhan

Already! Masha Allah. How are your fasting going on peeps? I hope yu won't give up and remember that during fasting month all of our prayers will be granted, all of our sins will be perished and all of our kind-doings will be incresed their pahalas! Insya Allah. Just that we should cherished this ramadhan and not letting it passed by just like that. This is our time to read lots of pages of quran till we khatam again, and doing lots of kindness to other people.

But why there are still horrible incidents and bad attitudes during this month?
Easy peesy. Their nafsu controlled them.

Current newspapers read about dumping babies, murders, family institution problems, raping, etcetera. Wa nauzubillah. God forbid. And most horrid is that all these still happen during this holy month.

All we can do is that prevent ourselves from getting into that kind of situation. We should start praying if we haven't, about being in safe path. May Allah bless us during this holy Ramadhan.

The Abandoned

It's not like I'm out of town and had forgot to write to all of you. It's just that, I'm sorry. It's been a month! Ugh.

I'm flying back to you.

And So ...

There are like LOTSA LOTSA stories to tell you peeps! Ohmegosh! Ohmegosh! Ohmegosh! Hahah! (it's not easy for me to be this hyperactive -,-")

Okay so July is here! And I'm in fear! Because my pre-spm trial is near! (err -.-")
Well, yeah. My exam is like seminggu je lagi so what am I doing now exactly (apart from writing, eating non-stop, watching tv, sleeping hideously and etcetera) is studying my butt off. Pfft.
Well, it's just that I don't want to disappoint my Mama and Baba and my teachers. So I'm studying like heck apart from praying to Allah. Pray for my success yeah? All of our success (:

Many things had been going on thsese three weeks, really and there are just soo fascinating! I'm in glee! hehe. We get to meet Fatimah Syarha, fyi, she's like "The Bomb" now, just in case you are out of date, do read her writings please, she is just fab. (err why am I talking with such gedikness?) But seriously, she really had opened my heart when she gave her talk during Minggu Puteriku Sayang ;') Alhamdulillah and Subhanallah, the feedbacks were just too amazing. Although she wasn't well due to food poisoning, she came t give her 1 and a half hour talk. And fyi, when her husband, also the current "The Bomb" (haha ;D) came to fetch her almost 99 % of puteris usher her 'till her car and wave her a bon voyage. Ooh it's just so heart-gripping thing ever!

And we had our Girls Night Out aka GNO aka Malam Lipur Puteri. (err yg GNO tu was my own choice of word). That night was so fabish, girlish and partyish! Haha! We all dressed up and the performances were awesome. I would like to ask if any of you peeps have the video of it oh don't worry I won't put it in my blog, just want to have it as memory to cherish. All in all, I had a blast that night. Thank you girls for the memory(:

So ALPHA group is back again for a gathering. It was awesome, and I truly love the foods. We had spaghetti and mushrooms by Syed, fruit cocktail by Sobah, nuggets and fries by Nailah, jellies by Fira, fruits by Cika, bihun by Nurin, KFC bucket by Aleip and Jamak, Donashi by Khaliq and I brought 3 bottles of healthy carbonated drinks, 100 plus (ta-da! -.-") and oh I almost forgot, Andy and Que brought along their tummies! heheh. I really hoped that we could gather again and guys wait and see I'll bring coloured carbonated drinks this time okay. Haha

Oooh I've participated in ELS debate competition and apparently I don't know whether my debate team won. Oh well. So we challenge boys team; Fazil, Syazni, Qua, and Aimran (this debate consists of four debaters per group; Miss Rabiah wants it to be easy going and fun and so that she could hear more students speak in English and get to participate in this kind of comp). My team were Nabilah, Saffana, and Sasha who had replaced Pah. Our opic was about International is Better Than Locals, and we were in the govt. When we thought that we had prepared (literally) but seems that the boys managed to beat us, especially Syazni and Aimran, mann their way of debate really slammed us right at our faces -,-" Oh well, at least we had the experience of being a debater, fyi, none of us, my group member, who have joined debate before, so at least we know how it works and how a debater get to be slammed once in a while. But I really have much fun because I can speak using the mic! Heheh pathetic me ;P

My jubin collage and Su's apparently were not "up" to win the kebangsaan. But alhamdulillah, being the wakil for Kuala Lumpur PPI in collage competition did made us proud and have at least gave us something; an experience being an artist! heheh. I've always adore arts. Although I haven't even been to a arts gallery or fair but someday I will set my foot into one of those prestigious art gallery,. It's not like there are few arts exhibition going on in kl it's just that my parents won't bring to an art exhibition just like that i mean, we can but there is always lots of other priorities. Oh well. But really, congrats to us Su, at least we had made SMAKL proud and also to Pn Hamiliya thatks for the frame and the support! Ooh did you know that she put my masterpiece inside the dewan?

Wooh! See, I told you there are lots of things to brag, err, to tell. haha. And there is more. Just that I'm too tired to write~

Ohmegosh I'm Baaaaaaack!

Alhamdulillah, finally, I'm back after three whole weeks at asrama! Wooh! :D Just be prepared of my stories, can yah?hehe

Can You Stop Talking Like A S*** Please? Thank You!

When you look at someone's blog, there'll be it. When you look at someone's facebook's status, there will be it. When you hear someone's talking about something to other person, there will be constant it. When you hear songs, there will also be it. When you read someone's article or whatsoever reading material there will also have it or at least a slight it. What do it means? It is for swearing like a s***!

And I am absolutely loathing it.

Come on people, it is as if you can't put away the "How f***ing s*** he can be? Haha, That is such an a**hole" . It is the most absurd-iest, irritatingly, so uncool, so downgrading and so low- way of talking.

Well, I admit that I use "heck" and "bloody" sometimes, but at least it is way better than "WTH" or "WTFH??" And I'm only use them as an expression when I greet my long haven't seen firneds such as : "Hey Babe! Long time no see! HOW THE HECK ARE YOU??" or like "I miss you girl bloody much". I know that is somewhat harsh but I'm trying to reduce it for time to time. Well at least I tried.

How about you? No matter what kind of swearing you said, no matter whether it is in bm or bi, the words are still going to be a loathing thing towards the community, the bright minded community.

Take it as this way. Shouldn't we be thinking of our condition when we are being ask by Allah, how had we been using our mouth to speak in the world before we die? Wouldn't it be humiliating when we answered all those swearing words?? Think again people. Just that, I don't like, I don't respect and I loathe whoever swears. I'm sorry but I think you don't deserve to talk if you swear.

Would You Do Me A Favour?

It's 23rd of June already. And July is coming. And my trial is less than three months. And I'm not well heck prepared yet. And I don't want dissapointment. Also, a regrettion is another thing that I'm afraid of.

Can you do me a favour?

From today onwards (well mostly during weekends during balik bermalam), I only allow myself to online, to online FACEBOOK OR YM OR MYSPACE OR whatsoever for only ONE HOUR for my leisure. So, any of you are allowed to remind me nicely, or shout at me harshly or whatsoever IF you see me online MORE THAN ONE HOUR. YOU CAN SAY TO ME ; "RAI, IT'S OVER LAH. GO BACK AND STUDY BABE" or "RAIHANAAAA! WHY THE HECK ARE YOU STILL DOING HERE? GEESH! SPM IS LIKE FOUR MONTHS AWAY?!" or something like that.

Haha. I know. This is well heck of asking for help. But I really am looking forward for your help. So don't be selfish yeah people? I also want to be as successful as you ;)

I'm Baaaaack! :D

Alhamdulillah, managed to come home safely on Thursday evening, thanks for all the prayers people! ;) Oh btw, I'm sorry for this 'quite' late update, because after I got home I got to do this add maths folio thingy. Oh well. I'm just glad that I can write again~

Freedom Flotilla

Today is Thursday. It has been the third day since the shocking news of Israel's monstrous acts on the ships of aids for Gaza. Alhamdulillah there were some good news as what had been stated today in NST that I read this morning was 12 Malaysians were saved from the Israel's prison. And if you look at the front page of the paper, there is a bold-capitalized words of "It Was A Pure Hell" - a comment by a Astro Awani reporter, he was also among those who has been held in prison. The two ships - I forgot the names- among others that are trying to help those Palestinians, who fyi, have suffered terribly in 4 years! Four years of disaster mornings, and sleepless nights! I could feel myself burn with anger as I read about how the Israels act towards those people. Now you can see many Pro-Palestinians stand up, and voice out their piece of their mind. They voice out to the US Ambassador in Malaysia, voice out for Israel's violation and abuse of violation, and even to Barrack Obama.

If 12 of our citizens, willing to sacrifice themselves for the sake of others, for the sake of our friends in Palestine, why don't we take part on that? The least thing to do is we could boycott Jewish products such as Tesco and Marks & Spencer and be prepared to back up the others who had die for the sake of Islam.

Last fortnight my school had conducted a solat hajat and doa wahdah for the Palestinians and the those who had risk their life for the Palestinians. I could feel the spirit of Jihad among us.

ALLAHU AKBAR! ALLAHU AKBAR! ALLAHU AKBAR!

Our People

Ya Allah selamatkanlah saudara-saudaraku yang memperjuangkan Islam untuk menegakkan syiar Islam, selamatkanlah mereka yang sedang ditindas Ya Allah Robbul Jalali Wal Ikraam!

Palestin

Pakistan

Afghanistan

Iraq

Chechnya

Guantanamo Bay

Malaysia

Thailand

wa fi kulli makan wa zaman.

Old Fashion Letters

Far Away Land

In Sya Allah, my family and I are going for umrah next week on the 6th of June. I would like to apologize for any of my wrong doings to all of you and if I happened to owe any of you anything, please halalkan. Please pray for our safe journey and in sya Allah I would not forget to pray for all of you guys' happiness and success in both worlds. May Allah bless us all always ;DD

Heehee formal eh? ~

The Misconceptions of "I" and "You"

The misconceptions of the usage of "I"and "You" - We probably always hear that some teens prefer to use "I" and "You" in their writings or emails or comments to others, especially in Myspace, Facebook or whatsoever connecting commucations, other than use "Aku" and "Kau". While some others preferred otherwise. I mean, it's not a big deal, suits you if you want to use both, because "I" and "You" is like a kata ganti diri, same meaning as "Aku" and "Kau". Have you ever heard of statements such as ; "Gedik gila nak guna I You dalam meseg" or " Belagak Mat Saleh konon" ? Well I have and I disagree 100% of that. I mean, what is the problem of using the term I and You with BM?? I myself like to speak rojak. Okay I know its not good to speak rojak because you tend to, I don't know, well most parents doesn't prefer their kids to speak rojak. But I think I speak better rojak because words that I usually speak of are like : "Oh hey, you dah makan blom?" or "Don't you think it's quite penat to do all this?" I really like to speak in English and that does not mean I'm gedik. Haa, now I remember the actual motive why I'd post this post. This is because it's annoying when you hear someone said that you are some kind of gedik whn you speak in BI. What's wrong with it? I know that some schools in our country, their students prefer to speak in Malay, and some other like to speak in BI, and some just simply like both of the language. Fyi, BI is an international language and it's a fact. To tell you the truth, I myself prefer to use I and You than Kau or Aku. I speak to whichever gender with I and You EXCEPT when that person starts the conversation with Aku or Saya or Kita. I don't mind. However, at school, I usually use Aku or Kau with boys because the statement of I You usage in school is only for love couples. All I wanna say is that you have no right to say that that girl is some kind of gedik when you happen to read her comments or talk to others in FB or MS with I and You, because they are just nothing but a simply Kata Ganti Diri in BI. I am much preferred the word I and You that Ko and Aku. My mom saw me the other day, using the word Aku and Kau to a guyfriend, and she said why'd I used that, she thought that it was harsh. All I answered was that I only use I and You to some other people who are comfortable with it only that I also don't understand why should someone be uncomfortable when people use I and You to talk with them? I mean, don't be NARROW MINDED la. Don't think as if the usage of I and You is taboo, only can when you speak with you so-called boyfriends and girlfriends. To me, that statement is rubbish, because who would prefer to say : "Saya think awak looks great today" or "Aku hungry la. Let's have some foods at that restaurant. Why don't kau treat Aku this time?" It sounded even sillier. I'm sorry if I offended some of you, but I really want to put stop on the statement : Kau ni gedik bila cakap BI!

F4 - In Rememberence

I miss BOF already. All I want is an encore telecast of that Korean Drama!! Oh well. Hope you like the pictures ( :

LEE MIN HO ( :

The SHHH! - Revealed

So we've done with the Hari Guru Celebration and it was............ UNBELIEVABLY FANTABULOUS! If you know what I mean. The decorations were EXOTIC, thanks to AJK PERHIASAN DEWAN, BACKDROP, and I like the multimedias.. thanks to AJK MULTIMEDIA. I also, on the behalf of AJK SAMBUTAN reall really wanna thanks AIN, UNIE, MIA, ATIKAH, MAHIRA, AZIMAH, A.A, FARID, MALIK for being the best AJK SAMBUTAN for our program this year, thanks for the lovely Alice In Wonderland-like terowong, and the 'dwarfs of form 1' haha, really really cute, with all the cotton beard and an add up of Lapricon Hats, and for the girls, 'the fairies of form 1', the purple-glittered magic wands were also cute and not to mention our black spells of sweets and chocolates! Also, many thanks to AJK JEMPUTAN, the Mirror and Shield cards were Medieval-like. It reminds me of Avalon High. Don't forget other AJK'S.

Hahah yeah I'm pretty sure you readers are at least slightly bit curious of how the celeb was. Our theme, wheich before I had said SHHHH! was... FAIRYTALE. With Today Was A Farytale by Talylor Swift as our theme song, our dewan suits it all! From outside, you'll be walking through a manmade terowong (made up of blankets from Aspura -,-" ) and they've put dry leaves and many branches, and you'll come across a very huge black spider, the one you can see in one of those Dakota Fanning's, and what I love about it was it was made with full of care, the web are just too good to be true! Then when you stepped into the dewan, which we call on that day as KLIS Palace (Kuala Lumpur Islamic School's Palace), you'll find yourself entering into a magical, no, enchanted garden, on top of you would be giants of lollipops, sweets and a huge silve star hanging, with the colourful flags, just like in one of those princess stories, except for the sweets decorations, I think they'd adapted from Hansel and Gretel. Our walls were fully covered with candy-like walls and we had our own cloud-floor (the floor was covered with cotton clouds and baby blue satin) we had our own bridge, and you can see two giant redwhite candies (I forgot what's the name, but it is famous during Christmas) lean against each other symbolized the entering of the bridge, side by side there were lighted candles on top of a rectangular silver solids, with baby blue scalloping them. Its quite hard to explain in detail, really because mainly you have to experienced it yourself! hehe. Don't worry, I'll put the pictures as soon as I can find the AJK PERAKAM PERISTIWA... ooh yes, have forgot about you people! Thanks a lot!- But actually I've got whole lot of other delicious stories to tell, but I think this very post is enough for all of your curiosities, till then( :

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Ya Allah! I really badly miss you guys. Hope to see you guys someday somewhere again. Gosh ;'(

My dearest Farabians, SBians, and Alumni SRIP.