Assalamualaikum peepsssss =D HOWWA YOUU? sorry, biane, for not updating my blog. It has been 2 weeks since I last updated my blog. Ottoke? Got loads of assignments, until now masih banyak yang perlu disettlekan. My mid semester exam is just around the corner, pray for me do pray for me =O 5th of March insha Allah. Introduction to Legal System punya sub topics banyak lagi yang perlu dikhatam, dihadam, Religions in Malaysia, Arab =S oh my memang banyak. Moga Allah mudahkan urusanku dan kawan-kawanku. Talking about assignments, tutorials masih err, then we have to make a scrapbook on the Development of Equity in England, then ada role play. Masha Allah kejo nye banyok! My group get to perform about the Pangkor Treaty. Alhamdulillah 'carta organisasi' dah siap, props fully discussed, scripts eheh ehem otw, castings tip top, tinggal buat props and rehearsals. We also have arabic project, where we have to make two commercial ads, alhamdulillah kejo ni group cek dah hantar dah, ok so boleh senyum dengan penuh syukur =DDDDD
Bayangkan semua kerja ni within the month of February! (Say whattttt?) Yes, within the month of February! (Nak buat macam mana, kau redha je lah!) = ="""" - But then it's true, all of us have to accept these. Ujian atau mehnah ni hanya sedikit berbanding dengan ujian yang bakal kita hadapi diluar sana.
At first, the feeling of "banyakkkkkk gilaaaaaa kejoooooooo, tuan punya badan ni mampu ka? penat dengan aktiviti lain, ni tambah dengan kerja kerja ni lagi, pikir carry marks lagi, pikir mid sem exam, final exam, aaah serabut serabut!! " came inside me. Masha Allah, exhausted, somnolent, rasa mcam beberapa tanggungjawab yang sedang dipikul ni rasa nak lepaskan aje sebab rasa tak sempat nak habiskan kerja kerja atas faktor berkomitmen pada sesuatu tanggungjawab yang memakan masa dan juga tenaga. After thorough muhasabah, I suddenly realized I'd made mistakes. I forgot He is there to ease my problems, He is there to listen to my grief, He is there to soothe my heart and calm my soul.
Masha Allah, astaghfirullah. How could I ever think of myself being in a state of "so- many- things- oh- I- can't- bear!" ? I realized after remember my Naqibah's words, after remember my Ustaz's words, after reading the ayat in surah al Baqarah verse 214
Adakah patut kamu menyangka bahawa kamu akan masuk syurga, padahal belum sampai
kepada kamu (ujian dan cubaan) seperti yang telah berlaku kepada orang-orang yang terdahulu daripada kamu? Mereka telah ditimpa kepapaan (kemusnahan harta benda) dan serangan penyakit, serta digoncangkan (oleh ancaman bahaya musuh), sehingga berkatalah Rasul dan orang-orang yang beriman yang ada besertanya: "Bilakah (datangnya) pertolongan Allah?" Ketahuilah, sesungguhnya pertolongan Allah itu dekat (asalkan kamu bersabar dan berpegang teguh kepada ugama Allah).
My ustaz mentioned about para pejuang Islam, pengorbanan mereka untuk Islam, hidup mati mereka untuk Islam. How they had sacrificed everything for Allah, they sell the world for Akhirat. How could I compare my so called tribulations - penat, lelah yang sangat sangat sedikit- with their tribulations? My so called ujian are only studies, assignments, tanggungjawab sebagai seorang muslim yang diwajibkan amar makruf nahi mungkar untuk orang disekeliling diri ini sahaja. Belum lagi disuruh angkat senjata dan berperang menentang musuh musuh Allah! Kalau macam ni pun kita tak sanggup, apa lagi untuk sesuatu yang lebih besar. And if I just think about living my life in luxury, then I'll be living for the world. Then I'd made an assumption that everything I do is for the world. Sedangkan kita bercita-citakan akhirat. Mana buktinya? The real tribulations are with them, the warriors of Islam. And I can't possibly say that I'm ready to be His jundullah, tentera Allah if I can't instill and cultivate within myself the value of patience. As sabr. Masha Allah. As compiled in kitab Riyadhus Solihin, page 26, all related to Patience; Allah S.W.T said in
Surah al Baqarah, 2:155
"Sungguh, akan Kami berikan cobaan kepada kamu sekalian dengan sedikit ketakutan, kelaparan, kekurangan harta, jiwa dan buah-buahan. Dan berikanlah kabar gembira kepada orang-orang yang sabar."
al - Baqarah, 2:153
"Mohonlah pertolongan kamu sekalian (kepada Allah) dengan sabar dan mengerjakan solat. Sesungguhnya Allah beserta orang-orang yang sabar."
Muhammad, 47:31
"Sungguh Kami benar-benar akan menguji kmu sekalian agar Kami mengetahui orang-orang yang berjuang dan orang-orang yang sabar diantara kamu sekalian."
There should be a determination, we should start motivate ourselves from now and said, if Allah will always be with the patient people and love those who are patient, I want to become the most patience of all. Masha Allah, there is no greater love than Allah's love!
Alhamdulillah, I thank Allah for His nikmahs to me, to all of the people around me are so much, so much that of course all of us couldn't possibly repay. Ya Rahman, Ya Raheem, Ya Ghofur, forgive me, forgive us all, indeed no one can forgive sins but You.
Bila kita rasa kita susah, lihat pada orang yang lebih susah daripada kita. And always remember that our brothers and sisters in Palestine, in Chechnya, and many other countries that sill haven't got their peace, their tribulations are great. Pray for them always.
Take care people. And tengah syok membaca blog ni or blog walk ni, dah solat belum?
