If I Die Young : Pre- Death Note (Part 1)

Sometimes when I waste my time on simply thinking,

thinking about everything,

every aspect of my life,

I had been thinking about me leaving this world.

How will my life ends?

Of course I don't have answer to that.

But how would I like my life to end?

I know that I myself have the answer to that question.

I don't know about you or anyone who wants to die young,

as far as I know almost everyone wants to live long.

I, myself prayed for that,

to live long I mean.

I don't think I have much experiences.

 I think by going through those experiences,

I'll learn about life better.

I really want to become a successful lawyer.

Although right now I'm not sure what kind of lawyer that I would like to be.

But I really want the experiences that I will get being a lawyer.

I really want to marry early and experience the life as a wife.

I want to become a mother and have my own kids.

I want to live happily ever after with my own family.

I know that by dreaming to have those kinds of experiences,

age is one of the biggest factor that could help me achieve those wonderful moments.

I know that by wanting those kinds of moments,

only His wills could accomplish those for me.

Insha Allah, I entrusted my prayers to Him,

I believe in happiness.

I believe in His words in the verse 186 Surah Al Baqarah.

But what if I die young?

If I die young,

as young as 20,

as young as now,

of course it's obvious that I wouldn't be living the moments that I really wanted to indulge in.

Like I said I'd thought about this,

I'd made some unwritten plans.

Make some plans that although I couldn't achieve my dreams that will possibly happen after my teen years,

I should live happy despite my body slowly welcoming death.

I don't know when I'm going to die.

I don't know where I'm going to die.

I don't know who will see me die.

I don't know all that to make a highly organized plan for me to be a happy person who will die young.

But I know one thing,

I should live according to the Holy Quran.

I should live according to Allah's words.

My plans?
Insha Allah from now on,
I'm aiming to become a better daughter.
To become a better sister.
To become a better student.
To become a better Muslim.
Every day must be a new day for me.
Every day must be better than yesterday.
Ya Allah,
Please help me for I'm weak.
Please forgive my sins for I'm vulnerable to devil's whispers.
Please answer my prayers for You're the only One who can answer them.
No God beside You,
The Almighty The Great.

If I die young,

I really want my family,

mama, baba, rayyan, raihan and razeen,

to know what exactly have been lingering inside my mind.

I've been wanting to say all these,

but my throat and lips would suddenly become dry.

I would swallow all the words,

and I don't know when will be the day for me to speak up.
But right now,
I think it's the best time for me to actually write all of it.

Mama,

you don't know how grateful I was to you as my mother.

I thank Allah that my mother is you.

Baba,

you don't know how lucky I was to have you as my superman.

I thank Allah that my father is you.

I'm sorry for every mistakes that I'd done to both of you.

I'm sorry if I ever make you sad,

make you mad.

I'm sorry if I don't act like a daughter,

I'm sorry for not listening to your words well.

I'm sorry for the failures that I caused you.

I'm sorry if I'd torn your hearts in two.

I'm sorry for not being the smartest kid in town.

I'm sorry if I'd tear you down.

I'm sorry for not having the chances to buy a wonderful house,

to take both of you to Mecca again,

to travel the world with both of you,

with the money that I'll earn.

I'm sorry, I'm sorry.

Thank you for everything, ma, ba.

Thank you for all of the wonderful and happy moments that both of you had shared with me.

Thank you for preaching words of Islam to me ever since I was born.

Thank you for the good foods both of you fed me.

Thank you for being the Superbaba and Wondermama in my life.

Insha Allah 'till we meet again.

To my siblings,

rayyan,raihan and razeen.

I'm sorry for all the shouting and angry words.

I'm sorry for being a lousy big sister.

I'm sorry if I'd done wrong to you guys.

I'm sorry if I'd caused you guys in trouble for what I did.

I'm sorry for not being able to keep being your big sister,

who will always be there to comfort you with hugs and to wipe your tears.

Please take care of ba and ma for me.

Please keep being good muslim girls and boy.

Please take care of yourselves.

My dear baby brother,

take care of our family when I'm gone.

Don't ever smoke, don't play around with girls.

Don't be like the usual guys you shall meet in the future,

be the unusual guys who hang out in His home.

Your responsibilities are big, sweetie.

Please take care of yourself.

I'm sorry again adik adik akak.

Thank you for enlightened my world,

with your laughters, your smiles and your worlds that you guys had been willing to share them with me.

Thank you for everything.

Insha Allah, 'till we meet again.

To my big family,

I'm sorry for any of my wrong doings,

I'm sorry for everything.

Please forgive me, 

please take care of my family well.

To Sarah, Nadia, Husna, Munirah, Ahmad,

you guys are among my favourite cousins that always there for me.

I'm sorry for any wrong doings,

and thank you so very much for everything.

The kindness, the supports, the moments.

I love each and every one of you,
really.

Pray for me always.
Please never stop pray for me.
So Allah forgive my sins.

Muharram

Happy New Year 

to all Muslims around the world.

May Allah bless us all.

May our new year begins with lots of blessings from Him.

Let's become better people this year.

Let's create new goals.

Let's become new us.

Insha Allah.

:D

A Quick Babble

Bismillah.

Assalamualaikum peeps! How how are you guyss? Seriously, I have got loadsss of stories to write about but sadly I haven't got enough time. So why I'm giving alasan tak bawak laptop as the main reason for not keep updating my blog? ( duhh  I guess that's the main reason after all) Sorry, I'm still in that condition because I don't bring laptop so I can't really consistently updating my blog. Haigoo. Pathetic is me. Yeah I know.

So anyway just like the tittle promise, I'm just going to write a short quick babble (wah post pendek pun boleh 'babble' jugak eh? You ni minah babble apee??) - -"" I'm not. 'Minah Babble'. Ok fine. Not sangat SANGAT. But if you ask most of my friends of me, they would say I'm more on the talkative side :P heh whattodo. So anyway, I've passed the third week in CFS here , (mymylookatthetimeee!) and apparently my mid semester exam is jussssst around teh corner. Hari Isnin babe. Pukul 10 - 11 pagi. Anyone care enough to buy me a breakfast special? On that day I mean. An orange juice or pink guava juice, two toasts with the sides cut, with melting butter on top. Choices of blueberry jam or raspberry jam, Stella's Choice. Two hot pancakes with golden syrup. Omellete, filled with extra cheese and mushrooms. A fruit platter and a blueberry muffin to pack for my after-exam snack. Ehe. Kan it's a big day for me kan. ( ok roll your eyes at meee! I know I'm being TOO MUCH and you can also say mengada ngada) Well maybe it's my fault I'm writing with my tummy shouting 'hunggggryyyy, HUNGGGGGRYYYYYY!! Feed meeeeee!'. OOOOkay. Sorry for being quite disturbing. (What's with the TALKING INSIDES??? Eeeewww) Hahahah. Sorry sebab suka buat conversation sendiri. Aaaah, being pathetic. Again. Haigoo. ANYWAY, I don't really think my exam caused me to deserve such marvellous breakfast, (btw, I eat toast WITH the sides ok)just in case you guys didn't notice, it's an hour exam only . AN HOUR. What kind of exam that only take one hour of your life every three weeks of the second semester if you study here in CFS? Oooh yes. Computer 1 exam. Ok you can start throwing cabbage, lettuces and tomatoes at me. (more with the tomatoes, it softens skins fyi.) (muahaha) Ok, soooo typical . Err I'm referring to the throwing veges part. So anyway yes. Only comp exam for mid sem ? yes. Apparently yes. Fortunately yes. Just that although it's not a big deal like as if it's hard like physics or chemistry or maths (rai you tak ambik subjects tu pun ?) I mean not as tough as other law core subjects, but it's still AN exam, so it's a big deal to me. Pray for me so I could memorize all the computer-ic terms (no such word in proper english ok) and I could answer all questions smoothly . (Nah, I'm not saying this to mintak the breakfast special from any of you! ) (Shame on you if you thought so ) Hihi.

Oh just a couple of things to add, I'm glad that I get to learn computer 1 here because really, the lessons, the text book and the lab manual really really open my eyes about the computer world that I've never thought about of and seriously had benefit me from the start. I mean what's not cool if you study on how to combat viruses pretty much no need those computer technicians anymore and learn about the "inside system" or we can say the system unit and many many more about programs and the networks bla bla bla. Really, Bro Zulhairi, your class is cool to me. Ok, terlebih gula la pulak kan. Again, not trying to proof anything that this exam is special to me and you guys could treat me the special breakfast :P

Hahah. I'm not that desperate . Just an image of a good breakfast to me :D
Oh btw Happy Breakfast peeps! Kunyah banyak kali dulu before telan ok! This is a good eat ads. (whtvr)

Take care. And Happy Friday! Banyakkan selawat ok! :D

Aja Aja FIGHTINGGGG !

My dear Rai,

just in case you've forgotten,

just in case you didn't notice the time,

just in case you didn't perasan hari hari berlalu pergi,

I'm now doing my responsibility,

to remind you.

To jerit sekuat hati kat kau RAII!!!

You're eighteen babe.

Yes, muda lagi.

Tapi you ni student babe.

Focus la sket.

Focus!

Study tu bukan sebab nak dapat good result je,

bukan nak saje saje,

niat tu biar betul,

because of Allah.

How?

You work hard to become His best caliph,

untuk menjadi penolong agamaNya.

Sudah menjadi asbab kecemerlangan tu sebagai bukti kita ni berada di puncak.

What's with the lazy bump?

Sabar Rai, sabar.

Ketepikan segala godaan nafsu tu.

Yes I know babe, I understand.

KDramas, Twitter, FB, KPops, HBO, AXN,

aigoo babe,

all that won't help you to achieve your dreams!

Tak guna bercita cita tinggi melangit,

tapi itu semua hanya dalam mimpi.

Why can't you work darn hard to achieve your dreams?

Impian tidak akan jadi kenyataan kalau kau asyik buang masa je!

Tengok keliling kau Rai.

Ramai lagi yang tak bernasib baik macam kau.

Although you're not rich,

you still eat good foods every day,

you still sleep in an air conditioned room every night,

you still live under a good roof,

you still have your parents,

you still have the chance to study in a University,

you still have the chance to become successful.

Ramai lagi yang kurang bernasib baik daripada kau boleh cemerlang gemilang terbilang.

Kenapa kau tak boleh?

Kau sama je macam mereka.

Manusia juga.

Cuma kena pandai membezakan kemahuan dan keperluan.

Sometimes our kemahuan could simply throw us in a pool of dumps.

Remember Rai, responsibilites.

Your responsibilty as a daughter.

As a big sister.

As a student.

As a future wife.

As a future mummy.

As a caliph.

Banyak tanggungjawab kau Rai.

Belajar sungguh sungguh,

gapai cita cita.

Enough Rai,

enough to all of your day dreams.

Habluminallah, habluminannas.

Always remember too, the knowledge is light.

If you sinned yourself and dirtied your heart,

no light could enter it.

Clean your heart everyday,

polish it until you can hear the 'squeak' o clean.

Read your quran everyday.

Don't let ma'thurat fall into comma everyday.

Be patient while you're struggling on His path.

Talk to Him every single time.

He is the Best Listener.

Take your friends, your cousins as examples.

Your parents!

How'd they become so successful.

Recently you've heard about the success of your cousin.

Being a Sime Darby scholar is not enough.

You know that she'll get the chance to study overseas.

She'd succeed in her recent exams.

And currently, you got the news that she'll be sitting for the Oxbridge exams.

If she pass the tests, she'll get to enroll to Oxford University or Cambridge.

You know how astonished you were.

Oh, and to my dear cousin, CONGRATS!

I'm so proud of you.

Pray for me always.

 

One thing that you knew about your cousin is that,

she never stops working hard.

So why shouldn't you ?



Around Me

Bismillahirrahmanirraheem.


Assalamualaikum and a very good morning to my beloved readers! Today’s post will be an entry of my own personal views on most of the everyday situations that I’d experienced with regarding the same ol’ reasons people like to give when it comes to Islamic practices. I hope everyone would be open minded with whatever that I’ll be blogging about and of course I myself will accept whatever comments that you guys would like to give , open – minded.

When you try to advice people to cover their aurah and to dress accordingly with Islam, when you try to talk about Islam and preach His words, when you advice people that his or her doings aren’t right and when we talk about whatever issues about Islam, I’ve heard comments from THOSE WHO REALLY DON’T UNDERSTAND ABOUT ISLAM, comments like:

1) “Eh aku bukan budak sekolah agama, kau tak payah nak suruh aku pakai macam tu. Kau tu yang budak sekolah agama, so kau je la patut pakai macam tu”

2) “Eii, aku tak paham la. Kita ni bukan budak sekolah agama lagi, dah U dah, takkan kena dengar ceramah camni lagi? Bosan la BOSAN!”

3) “Dia pakai macam tu boleh la, dia budak mana, sekolah agama an. Memang la pakai macam tu, tutup apa semua. Jaga imej la normal la tu. Kita ni pulak bukan budak sekolah agama, so takpe sebab bukannya kena jaga imej mana-mana.”

4) “Dia tu hafal Quran, kot memang patut la dia pakai macam tu, menjaga macam tu. Kita ni although budak bekas sekolah agama pun, tak hafal Quran sume, so macam relaks relaks la sket bab bab menjaga sume ni. Dulu waktu sekolah dah terhabis jaga, now tak payah la macam tu kan. “

5) “Aku pakai tudung ni pun sebab nanti mak aku bebel. Malas nak dengar. So pakai je laaa. Ala, keluar dengan kawan aku bukak la, bukan mak bapak aku tau pun. Yang penting aku jaga hati dorang. Kita buat dosa, biar kat luar la. Tak payah kaitkan mak bapak kita sekali. Aku sayang lagi mak bapak aku, tak nak dorang tetibe sakit jantung sebab aku.”

6) “Aku pernah sekolah agama, yes. So what? Suka hati aku la nak free hair ke, nak berkepit dengan boyfriend ke, nak clubbing ke. Sekolah agama tu dulu. Ini life aku sekarang. At least aku tak hypocrite macam sesetengah orang.”

7) “EEEE geram gila aku dengan ustazah tu. Apa masalah dia suruh suruh orang pakai tudung? PLKN je pun. Lain la kalau memang dari awal tempat ni suruh budak melayu pakai tudung, aku pakaila. Tapi takde pun rules macam tu. Yang dia nak pandai2 buat undang2 sendiri tu kenapa? Mak bapak aku tak pernah suruh suruh aku. Benci gila!”

Maybe some of you haven’t heard these kinds of remarks and comments, I myself maybe write a bit exaggerate in some of the remarks above, but whatever comments that I’ve heard before are as close and some, similar to the remarks above. Let’s see one by one.

1) “Eh aku bukan budak sekolah agama, kau tak payah nak suruh aku pakai macam tu. Kau tu yang budak sekolah agama, so kau je la patut pakai macam tu”

When some people only expects agama school- based people to cover their aurah, and they who haven’t been in agama school before, shouldn’t be wearing like that. When some people DOESN’T EVEN REALIZE, that it’s not because they have to attend Islamic schools to cover their aurah then, it’s because Allah had asked us to do so. Allah had told clearly in the Quran. The friend who advised to this person is just doing his or her job as His caliphs, a caliph advising ANOTHER CALIPH. Without even realizing also, the person being advised is also a caliph!


2) “Eii, aku tak paham la. Kita ni bukan budak sekolah agama lagi, dah U dah, takkan kena dengar ceramah camni lagi? Bosan la BOSAN!”

When some people who have learn Islamic teachings, thought that when he or she left that environment, that person is no longer “tied with” the Islamic teachings that the person has learnt. This is absolutely SAD. I’m sorry to say that this kind of person wasn’t paying attention and trying to learn whatever important Islamic teachings when he or she was in an Islamic school, he or she had the kind of mentality of “ SEKOLAH AGAMA, where SEKOLAH AGAMA je yang boleh ada ceramah dakwah mcm ni. Tempat lain tak patut.” Sorryla, ini mentality kurang pandai. We can’t deny that if we are like these kinds of people, we are denying the truths that WE KNEW BEFORE. We are actually trying to AVOID the real truth. And verily, Allah’s torment is very powerful! Wa na’uzhubillah. Bila kita ada ilmu, sebarkan! Siapa lagi yang nak bimbing khalifah khalifah lain yang tersasar dari jalan Allah? Siapa lagi yang nak ajar mereka yang juga ada tanggungjawab seperti kita, yang tidak pernah dengar atau belajar mengenai ajaran sebenar Islam? Bila kita ada ilmu, kita abaikan, kita jadi seperti mereka yang tidak tahu,KITA sebenarnya perosak dunia.

3) “Dia pakai macam tu boleh la, dia budak mana, sekolah agama an. Memang la pakai macam tu, tutup apa semua. Jaga imej la, normal la tu. Kita ni pulak bukan budak sekolah agama, so takpe sebab bukannya kena jaga imej mana-mana.”

The so-called “Image”. I mean what the heck? Again, we cannot deny that person who talk like this, is either being too smart because he or she cannot answer the right answer, or being too stupid because again, denying the real truth that he or she has learnt from their parents. Not all parents send their kids to agama schools, because they themselves are good in Islamic teachings and qualify to teach them to be good muslims. Okay, about the person who act too smart because he or she doesn’t know the real answer why they have to cover their aurah. My dear brother or sister, covering aurah is not because certain people was from agama school or because he or she wants it, it’s because Allah told all of us to do so. Tak kiralah, kita ni dulu sekolah mana pun, jika kita beragama Islam, tutup aurat adalah wajib. No doubt lagi. Allah dah terangkan dalam al Quran dengan jelasnya. Why must we look away from the truths? To those who act too stupid because of denying the truths, let’s repent and go back to where we belong. Sebenarnya jauh di sudut hati masing masing tahu yang bila-bila masa sahaja kita boleh kembali kepadaNya. Macam mana boleh tahu? Sebab kita ada ilmu. Tapi disebabkan nafsu dan bisikan syaitan, kita buat buat lupa. Cuma, harap Allah tidak melupakan kita and still bagi peluang. So grab it, before it’s too late!

4) “Dia tu hafal Quran, kot memang patut la dia pakai macam tu, menjaga macam tu. Kita ni although budak bekas sekolah agama pun, tak hafal Quran sume, so macam relaks relaks la sket bab bab menjaga sume ni. Dulu waktu sekolah dah terhabis jaga, now tak payah la macam tu kan."

 When people who still don’t understand why they have to take care of themselves, take care of their relationships with other human beings, take care of the boundaries that God has approved and clearly stated in the Holy Book. Bila dulu ustazah kita, ustaz kita suruh kita menjaga segala perkara, akhlak, aurat, solat, bukan sebab mereka yang suruh, tapi ALLAH YANG SURUH. So bila kita sendiri yang nampak semua itu seperti beban and perkara yang buang masa, tak sedarkah kita sebenarnya telah berkata and beranggap sedemikian terhadap Allah Yang Maha Berkuasa? Beraninya kita mengingkari suruhan Allah sedangkan Dia Maha Besar! Beraninya kita, kuatnya kita nak menghadapi azab siksaan Allah kelak! Ingatkan neraka yang Allah sebut sebutkan berulang kali di dalam Quran itu perkara yang main-main? Tanpa sebab dan tujuan? Sesungguhnya Allah tidak melakukan sesuatu tanpa sebab. Semua ada hikmah disebaliknya. Again, when our nafs and the devils tried to spoiled us with maksiat and zina, try as hard as we could to overcome that, and remember Allah is always watching. Always. Akhirat nanti ada big screen, wajar sahaja aib aib kita, dosa dosa kita dipaparkan. Wa na’uzhubillah. And verily, He is Most Forgiving, Most Merciful.


5) “Aku pakai tudung ni pun sebab nanti mak aku bebel. Malas nak dengar. So pakai je laaa. Ala, keluar dengan kawan aku bukak la, bukan mak bapak aku tau pun. Yang penting aku jaga hati dorang. Kita buat dosa, biar kat luar la. Tak payah kaitkan mak bapak kita sekali. Aku sayang lagi mak bapak aku, tak nak dorang tetibe sakit jantung sebab aku.”


When some people forget Allah is watching over them. When some people do something because of other people. So if the other people who told them to do something according to Islam died, is it possible for them to stop doing all what had been taught to them? Yes, unfortunately. Because they never niat to do that because of Allah, but because of their moms and dads. Jadi bila mak ayah mereka meninggal, bagi mereka tiada siapa lagi yang ada untuk mengawasi mereka. Masha Allah. Lagi sekali, syaitan berjaya menghasut dan meliputi hati hati kita. Lupanya kita pada Yang Hidup, Yang Maha Melihat dan Yang Maha Mengetahui! Tidak kira la berapa jauhnya kita dari mak bapak kita, betapa gelapnya suasana, betapa tersoroknya kita di alam semesta, Allah masih lagi Yang Maha Melihat dan Maha Mengetahui. Allah masih boleh Nampak kita! And malaikat ditepi masih lagi menjalankan tanggungjawab mencatat amalan2 kita, dan kita masih lagi akan dibangkitkan dan disoal segala perbuatan kita. When that time comes, none can help us. None, except His mercy.


6) “Aku pernah sekolah agama, yes. So what? Suka hati aku la nak free hair ke, nak berkepit dengan boyfriend ke, nak clubbing ke. Sekolah agama tu dulu. Ini life aku sekarang. At least aku tak hypocrite macam sesetengah orang.Buat diam-diam. ”

Hipokrit. Memang masalah orang yang bermain dengat perkataan ni. Of course, hypocrisy appeals to those who don’t do what he or she said. But this is absolutely nothing to do about hypocrisy. Bila seseorang yang menegur tu tegur rakannya kerana dia sayangkan kawannya and tidak mahu kawannya terbabas dari jalan Allah, and mungkin dia sendiri belum cukup perfect untuk menegur, bukan maksud dia hypocrite, tidak. Tak sedarkah kita dia tu sebagai asbab, Allah menegur kita, Allah bagi kita peluang lagi untuk kita kembali kepadaNya, sebab kita ni pelupa! Kita tak perfect, kita buat dosa, kita lemah. Sebab itu Allah bagi kita hidayah sekali lagi, beri peluang yang belum mungkin dapat diterima oleh semua orang. Kita memang sukar nak menerima teguran daripada seseorang. Dalam kepala, teringat perbuatan dosa orang yang menegur, teringat kat akhlak di yang dulu pun buruk, tapi sekarang tidak lagi. Tapi dalam hati, still ada perasaan ala, kau buat buat je bertudung, jaga semua, kau sama je macam dulu. Bila kita tak sedar, hati kita jadi busuk sebab syaitan menguasainya. Why can’t we sit down and think about what WE did then pin pointing at people and claimed them not pure enough to advice us? Kita pun sama macam dia, buat kesilapan. Manusia semua sama. Kita patut terima teguran and mulakan perubahan. Again, He is Most Merciful and Forgiving.


7) “EEEE geram gila aku dengan ustazah tu. Apa masalah dia suruh suruh orang pakai tudung? PLKN je pun. Lain la kalau memang dari awal tempat ni suruh budak melayu pakai tudung, aku pakaila. Tapi takde pun rules macam tu. Yang dia nak pandai2 buat undang2 sendiri tu kenapa? Mak bapak aku tak pernah suruh suruh aku. Benci gila!”

Bila kita dengar orang cakap camni, kita boleh buat beberapa assumptions. First assumption, aku rasa dia ni cakap tak pakai ilmu main tebus je. Kau tak pernah belajar agama kot sebelum ni. Second assumption, dia ni saje buat2 lupa kot, sebab nak cover silap dia yang tidak menutup aurat. Well, I know that I should be grateful that I’d learnt about Islam since I was small. To cover my aurah is compulsory, it’s a no tolerance subject, we just have to follow it. We shouldn’t question why we have to cover it, because Allah, our Great Lord told us to do so. And I’m pretty sure most of us know the tremendous benefits of covering our aurah. I also know that not all people have the chance to learn about Islam although he or she has been a Muslim for the whole entire of his or her life. This is where we, Muslims who has a bit of the ilmu, teach them; preach to them what is right what is wrong. Kadang- kadang tu kita tak patut cepat melenting bila berdepan dengan orang yang cakap main lepas, sebab dia cetek ilmu agama. Satu hal lagi, kutuk ustazah. Ni bukan kutuk ustazah tak betul, terpesong, kutuk ustazah yang mengajar, cuba mendidik kita jadi orang yang benar di jalanNya. Disebabkan mulut dia yang begitu laser, and cara percakapan yang kasar, saya takde kekuatan nak menegurnya. Cuma benci perbuatan dia dalam hati. Masha Allah selemah-lemah Iman! I felt really sad for not standing up for ustazah at that time. At that time I felt so weak, because I don’t have the guts to speak up. But since that day, I was determined to be more berani. Berani. Berani kerana benar, takut kerana salah. In my mind the proverb ‘actions speak louder than words’ kept replaying. Susah, susah benar aku nak mempraktikkan benda ni. I hope He would always give me strength. Of course, I’m praying for all of my friends, for us, to always be granted with His hidayah.


This is just some something I would like to share with all of you. Let us all pray so that we are always on His path. Forever and always. Take care my beloved brothers and sisters, take care.

EID ADHA 2011 :D

Selamat Hari Raya Eiduladha

All praises to Allah for everything,

every nikmah He'd granted us.

Maaf Zahir && Batin.

Ikhlas Daripada,

Rai :D

ps. SORRYYYY FOR THE LATE POST OF THE "PRE-EID". 

Should've posted it on Friday but then internet connection bermasalah D":

Pre Eid Adha :D

04/11/11


Bismillahirrahmanirraheem.

Assalamualaikum peeps ! :D Sihat? Miss me? I really really miss blogging and now TARAAA! I decided to blog again hehe. I came home last night and yes, my comp class already started for two days; wednesday and thursday. We really have to be on track with our course outline and all since our mid semester is like this 17th of November! (Sayyy whatttt? Cepat tu weii!) Yeahh I know, tell me about it. aigoo. So anyway, today is friday already, (obviously) and tomorrow is saturday (what's with the Rebecca Black lyrics? :P) - -" I'm just telling !! - Anyway, tomorrow is wuquf day and we as muslims should be more aware of this day and consider this day as a very special day like we looked at nisfu Syaa'ban as a special day and we performed many amalan sunat, and so is tomorrow. And fyi, its Zulhijjah, our beloved Prophet (PBUH) said that the first ten days of Zulhijjah is absolutely special, where we should do lots of amalan sunat like fasting and make lots of Du'a : ) Here are some fun facts about the month of Zulhijjah. Credits to http://www.pesima.net/index.php?name=News&file=article&sid=256&theme=Printer

"Daripada sebuah hadis yang diriwayatkan oleh Ibnu Abbas r.a, Rasullullah s.a.w telah menerangkan tentang fadilat di bulan Zulhijjah iaitu :
Tanggal 1 Zulhijjah kesalahan Nabi Adam a..s telah diampunkan Allah. Oleh itu sesiapa yang berpuasa pada hari itu dosanya akan diampunkan oleh Allah

 
Tanggal 2 Zulhijjah doa Nabi Yunus a.s diperkenankan Allah. Oleh itu sesiapa yang berpuasa pada hari itu seperti berpuasa setahun dan dicatitkan baginya seperti tidak pernah melakukan maksiat.

 
Tanggal 3 Zulhijjah doa nabi Zakaria telah diperkenankan oleh Allah. Oleh itu sesiapa yang berpuasa pada hari itu doanya juga akan diperkenankan oleh Allah

 
Tanggal 4 Zulhijjah Nabi Isa a.s dilahirkan. Sesiapa yang berpuasa pada hari itu akan terhindar dari kefakiran dan kemelaratan.

 
Tanggal 5 Zulhijjah Nabi Musa a.s dilahirkan. Oleh itu sesiapa yang berpuasa pada hari itu akan terlepas ia dari sifat munafik dan siksa kubur


Tanggal 6 Zulhijjah Allah telah membukakan pintu-pintu kebajikan kepada nabi-nabiNya. Oleh itu sesiapa yang berpuasa pada hari itu akan dipandang oleh Allah dengan pandangan rahmat

 
Tanggal 7 Zulhijjah pintu neraka Jahannam akan dikunci. Oleh itu sesiapa yang berpuasa pada hari itu akan dibukakan 30 pintu kemudahan dan dikunci 30 pintu kesulitannya


Tanggal 8 Zulhijjah Nabi Ibrahim a.s telah mendapat perintah supaya menyembelih anaknya Ismail. Seharian ia berfikir sama ada perintah itu daripada Allah atau dari Syaitan. Hari itu dinamakan hari Tarwiyah (hari berfikir). Sesiapa yang berpuasa pada hari tersebut akan diberikan pahala yang banyak oleh Allah

 
Tanggal 9 Zulhijjah Allah telah memberitahu kepada Nabi Ibrahim bahawa mimpinya itu adalah benar dari Allah, bukan dari syaitan. Oleh itu, hari tersebut terlah dikenali sebagai 'Arafah' (Hari ketahui).

Sunat bersedekah kepada fakir miskin. Sesiapa yang bersedekah pada hari tersebut akan dibangkitkan oleh Allah pada hari kiamat nanti dalam keadaan aman dan sentosa.


Amalan sunat pada 10 Zulhijjah seperti :



a) Mandi sunat Aidil Adha pada pagi harinya.

b) Sunat tidak menjamah makanan atau minuman sehinggalah selesai menunaikan solat Adha

c) Keluar menuju ke masjid dengan satu jalan dan bila pulang menggunakan jalan yang lain

d) Lebih afdal dengan berjalan kaki ke masjid

e) Mengumandangkan takbir, tahmid dan tahlil bermula malam 10 Zulhijjah hinggalah tersenam matahari pada tanggal 13 Zulhijjah (Takbir Muqayyad)  "

Does anyone know the status of this hadeeth? Please share it if so :D Omao ! Btw I found another page with the same contents, may Allah bless them for willing to share these interesting facts about the month of Zulhijjah. And seriously, I myself haven't started my sunat fasting for the month of Zulhijjah yet. Yes I know, how shameful I am D': Insha Allah tomorrow I'll fast. Jom puasa ? ;D Banyakkan berdoa pada Hari Wuquf. Seeeeebanyak banyaknya ok?  Baba kata, bayangkan kita ni macam mereka yang sedang menunaikan haji, berdoa di 'Arafah semasa mereka berwuquf. Bukan orang yang pergi haji je buat amalan2 ni, kita pun patut macam tu. And we shouldn't waste our first ten days of Zulhijjah like that, doing absolutely unbeneficial things, without knowing it, we'd wasted much blessings from Allah. Masha Allah ! Insha Allah, jika dipanjangkan umur, biarlah bulan Zulhijjah akan datang lebih baik daripada bulan Zulhijjah yang sekarang. Belum terlambat untuk kita mengubah cara hidup kita ke jalan yang lebih diredhai-Nya. And verily, He is oft Forgiving and Most Merciful ; ) Astaghfirullahalazim Ya Ghofur Ya Raheem.

Actually, we shouldn't waste our everyday life! Of course we're not perfect. But there's a saying goes; although we're not perfect, there's always room for improvement, which leads to "almost" perfection. Let's try not to waste our times on tv and movies more often. Masa muda ni lah kita patut banyakkan (seeeeebanyak banyaknya ) amalan amalan sunat and pelihara sebaik mungkin (seeeeeebaik baiknya) perkara perkara wajib. Sebab nanti takut Allah tarik satu2 nikmat waktu lapang kita, waktu sihat kita, waktu muda kita, waktu hidup kita. Of course, the  reminders in bold, are FOR ME. But you guys could take these too, if you want. Saya cuma tak nak jadi orang yang bercakap tak serupa bikin. And I'll try my best to change for the better.

PS. I am soooo sorry for the very very late post! Yes, I should’ve post this by Friday but then our house got internet connection problem! Hope you guys don’t mind. Maybe the reminders in this post have expired but we can still take benefits from it for next year’s Zulhijjah preparations, can’t we? Again, SORRY D:

Today's World

What a loss,

to people who only considers you as a friend,

if you wear branded clothes,

if you own an iPhone or a BB,

if you drive a car ranges from a Merce to Ferrari.

What a loss,

to people who only considers you as a human being,

if you have lots of cash in your wallet,

if you own lots of credit cards,

if you are model skinny,

if you are the daughter or the son of somebody.

What makes us humans,

so great?

Greater than The Greatest of all?

What makes us humans,

greater than Allah The Great?

Who doesn't even care any of the above but,

our hearts?

Shame on you.

Shame on us.

Can we even bring all of that together with us in our graves?

None of that could save us.

None of that could ensure the real happiness,

that we could achieve when we enter to His heaven.

May Allah bless us all with His mercy.