Yes, I am different from tonight on. But I'm not sad anymore. Allah just gave me the sign, alhamdulillah I feel much better now, much better. Thank You Allah, for still giving me your signs of mercifulness and lovingness. And there is no other who will accept my repentence to You. Astaghfirullah-al 'azim.
And Aimi, thank you hon. I felt better now ( ;