If I Die Young : Pre- Death Note (Part 2)

Honestly, 

it's kinda hard for me to pour out the feelings that I had kept inside my heart,

the blend of feelings that I've had when I'm with my friends,

my friends that had willing to sacrifice their time, energy and almost everything,

just to be there for me,

just to comfort me when I'm feeling low,

just to make me laugh and made my day,

just to make me feel special,

just to be my friend.

I thank Him for all the chances that I'd get to know all of them,

such special people,

such wonderful friends.

Since small, 

I've never failed to make friends.

Alhamdulillah all of my friends,

they really really made my day,

although we've gone through tears and fights,

in the end of the day,

we will be holding hands with each other,

trying to create another memory,

with Blissful entitled to it.

I'm sorry,

friends,

for every wrong doings that I'd done to you guys,

for every moments that I'd failed to be there for all of you as a friend,

for every moment that I'd failed to help all of you when you needed me the most,

for every mistakes, and every hurting words, 

and I'm sorry if I couldn't help to ease all of your burden,

I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry,

will all of you forgive me?

Will all of you remember me as a good friend,

despite my mistakes,

despite my wrong doings,

I know that not all of you can forgive me if I'd done wrong to any of you.

I'm sorry that I'm easily forgetful,

if I couldn't be there to comfort all of you on time,

and apologize on time,

before your hearts torn deep,

because of me.

I'm terribly sorry.

I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry.

Thank you to all of my friends,

for every laughter,

for every joy,

for every happy moments,

for every meaningful moments,

for every support,

for every pray,

for everything.

Thank you very much friends.

All I need later is continuous pray,

for me from all of you.

Thank you my friends for everything.

To write down every moments that we'd shared here,

although it'll be wonderful to replay it, it'll be a long story.

It's not that I mind if I get to share our moments together to the world,

so that everyone could be envious of me,

it's just that every moments all of us had shared together,

have so many chapters and only be fair if the story been told from all of us together.

I'll never forget every moments,

sad, happy, tearful, joyful, moments with all of you.

Thank you again for everything.

To my primary school friends at Sekolah Rendah Islam Pintar,
Class of 7 Al- Farabi and,
especially to Nabihah, Anis, Nur Aisyah, Atikah, Farhana, Hanif, Naim, Azim.
To my secondary school friends at Sekolah Menengah Taman Ilmu dan Budi,
Class of 1,2,3 Al- Farabi, my mentees, and,
especially to Husna, Kyra, Qila, Hanani, Tera, Alia, Aisyah, Kak Fatin, Fatin naqiya, Nana,
Zaid, Mawi, Zafran, Rizwan, Arief.

To my secondary school friends at Sekolah Menengah Sri Aman,
Class of 4 Sains Bakti and ,
especially to Amiera, Syahira, Adha, Iman, Sabrina.
To my secondary school friends at Sekolah Menegah Kebangsaa Agama KL,
Class of 4 Ali and 5 Othman, Batch SPM 2010, Dorm Jauhari, my adik adik usrah tersayang, and,
especially to Insyirah, Jannah, Nab, Aimisya, Fasyak, Pah, Unie, Kak Ecah, Ayu, Wanimer, Yati,
Norain, Saffana, Nailah, Anis, Nani, Auni, ND, Syaierah Kaswan, Syafa,
Sobah, Mia, Syamin, Muslihah, Ana, Syaza, Nazira,
Nabihah, Syahira, Tun, and all of Puteri Form 5 2010.
To my friends that I've known from PLKN,
especially to Diyanah, Fatin Nurafiqah, Sheena, Fatin, Wana Wani, Izyan, Azura, Janah.
To my friends in CFS IIUM,
Law Group 323,
especially to Waniey, Bella, Shameema, Minn, Artika, Fara, Marina, Amal,
Aina, Husna, Faezah, Hanan, Ummi, Azura.
Guys, I want to apologize for any, any of my wrong doings.
Please halalkan segalanya.
Please take care of yourselves.
Jaga solat, jaga aurat, jaga kesihatan.

And thank you, thank you for EVERYTHING.
I cannot say thanks enough.
I cannot apologize enough.


I know my two pre-death notes aren't enough to explain everything.
But I really hope all of you could accept my apologies.
I'm trying, trying to be better. Insha Allah.
Everyday should be anew day for me.
Everyday should be a better Rai.

Take care.
May Allah bless all of you ~

# 2

When you think your life is miserable.

You don't know how there are many others live their life full of tears because of hunger,

 full of fear because of terrorism, full of depression because they can't see themselves in future.

Think again. Appreciate life.

- Raiot ! 

#1

Don't dwell on the PAST,

focus on the PRESENT,

so we could succeed in the FUTURE. 

- Raiot! 

If I Die Young : Pre- Death Note (Part 1)

Sometimes when I waste my time on simply thinking,

thinking about everything,

every aspect of my life,

I had been thinking about me leaving this world.

How will my life ends?

Of course I don't have answer to that.

But how would I like my life to end?

I know that I myself have the answer to that question.

I don't know about you or anyone who wants to die young,

as far as I know almost everyone wants to live long.

I, myself prayed for that,

to live long I mean.

I don't think I have much experiences.

 I think by going through those experiences,

I'll learn about life better.

I really want to become a successful lawyer.

Although right now I'm not sure what kind of lawyer that I would like to be.

But I really want the experiences that I will get being a lawyer.

I really want to marry early and experience the life as a wife.

I want to become a mother and have my own kids.

I want to live happily ever after with my own family.

I know that by dreaming to have those kinds of experiences,

age is one of the biggest factor that could help me achieve those wonderful moments.

I know that by wanting those kinds of moments,

only His wills could accomplish those for me.

Insha Allah, I entrusted my prayers to Him,

I believe in happiness.

I believe in His words in the verse 186 Surah Al Baqarah.

But what if I die young?

If I die young,

as young as 20,

as young as now,

of course it's obvious that I wouldn't be living the moments that I really wanted to indulge in.

Like I said I'd thought about this,

I'd made some unwritten plans.

Make some plans that although I couldn't achieve my dreams that will possibly happen after my teen years,

I should live happy despite my body slowly welcoming death.

I don't know when I'm going to die.

I don't know where I'm going to die.

I don't know who will see me die.

I don't know all that to make a highly organized plan for me to be a happy person who will die young.

But I know one thing,

I should live according to the Holy Quran.

I should live according to Allah's words.

My plans?
Insha Allah from now on,
I'm aiming to become a better daughter.
To become a better sister.
To become a better student.
To become a better Muslim.
Every day must be a new day for me.
Every day must be better than yesterday.
Ya Allah,
Please help me for I'm weak.
Please forgive my sins for I'm vulnerable to devil's whispers.
Please answer my prayers for You're the only One who can answer them.
No God beside You,
The Almighty The Great.

If I die young,

I really want my family,

mama, baba, rayyan, raihan and razeen,

to know what exactly have been lingering inside my mind.

I've been wanting to say all these,

but my throat and lips would suddenly become dry.

I would swallow all the words,

and I don't know when will be the day for me to speak up.
But right now,
I think it's the best time for me to actually write all of it.

Mama,

you don't know how grateful I was to you as my mother.

I thank Allah that my mother is you.

Baba,

you don't know how lucky I was to have you as my superman.

I thank Allah that my father is you.

I'm sorry for every mistakes that I'd done to both of you.

I'm sorry if I ever make you sad,

make you mad.

I'm sorry if I don't act like a daughter,

I'm sorry for not listening to your words well.

I'm sorry for the failures that I caused you.

I'm sorry if I'd torn your hearts in two.

I'm sorry for not being the smartest kid in town.

I'm sorry if I'd tear you down.

I'm sorry for not having the chances to buy a wonderful house,

to take both of you to Mecca again,

to travel the world with both of you,

with the money that I'll earn.

I'm sorry, I'm sorry.

Thank you for everything, ma, ba.

Thank you for all of the wonderful and happy moments that both of you had shared with me.

Thank you for preaching words of Islam to me ever since I was born.

Thank you for the good foods both of you fed me.

Thank you for being the Superbaba and Wondermama in my life.

Insha Allah 'till we meet again.

To my siblings,

rayyan,raihan and razeen.

I'm sorry for all the shouting and angry words.

I'm sorry for being a lousy big sister.

I'm sorry if I'd done wrong to you guys.

I'm sorry if I'd caused you guys in trouble for what I did.

I'm sorry for not being able to keep being your big sister,

who will always be there to comfort you with hugs and to wipe your tears.

Please take care of ba and ma for me.

Please keep being good muslim girls and boy.

Please take care of yourselves.

My dear baby brother,

take care of our family when I'm gone.

Don't ever smoke, don't play around with girls.

Don't be like the usual guys you shall meet in the future,

be the unusual guys who hang out in His home.

Your responsibilities are big, sweetie.

Please take care of yourself.

I'm sorry again adik adik akak.

Thank you for enlightened my world,

with your laughters, your smiles and your worlds that you guys had been willing to share them with me.

Thank you for everything.

Insha Allah, 'till we meet again.

To my big family,

I'm sorry for any of my wrong doings,

I'm sorry for everything.

Please forgive me, 

please take care of my family well.

To Sarah, Nadia, Husna, Munirah, Ahmad,

you guys are among my favourite cousins that always there for me.

I'm sorry for any wrong doings,

and thank you so very much for everything.

The kindness, the supports, the moments.

I love each and every one of you,
really.

Pray for me always.
Please never stop pray for me.
So Allah forgive my sins.

Muharram

Happy New Year 

to all Muslims around the world.

May Allah bless us all.

May our new year begins with lots of blessings from Him.

Let's become better people this year.

Let's create new goals.

Let's become new us.

Insha Allah.

:D

A Quick Babble

Bismillah.

Assalamualaikum peeps! How how are you guyss? Seriously, I have got loadsss of stories to write about but sadly I haven't got enough time. So why I'm giving alasan tak bawak laptop as the main reason for not keep updating my blog? ( duhh  I guess that's the main reason after all) Sorry, I'm still in that condition because I don't bring laptop so I can't really consistently updating my blog. Haigoo. Pathetic is me. Yeah I know.

So anyway just like the tittle promise, I'm just going to write a short quick babble (wah post pendek pun boleh 'babble' jugak eh? You ni minah babble apee??) - -"" I'm not. 'Minah Babble'. Ok fine. Not sangat SANGAT. But if you ask most of my friends of me, they would say I'm more on the talkative side :P heh whattodo. So anyway, I've passed the third week in CFS here , (mymylookatthetimeee!) and apparently my mid semester exam is jussssst around teh corner. Hari Isnin babe. Pukul 10 - 11 pagi. Anyone care enough to buy me a breakfast special? On that day I mean. An orange juice or pink guava juice, two toasts with the sides cut, with melting butter on top. Choices of blueberry jam or raspberry jam, Stella's Choice. Two hot pancakes with golden syrup. Omellete, filled with extra cheese and mushrooms. A fruit platter and a blueberry muffin to pack for my after-exam snack. Ehe. Kan it's a big day for me kan. ( ok roll your eyes at meee! I know I'm being TOO MUCH and you can also say mengada ngada) Well maybe it's my fault I'm writing with my tummy shouting 'hunggggryyyy, HUNGGGGGRYYYYYY!! Feed meeeeee!'. OOOOkay. Sorry for being quite disturbing. (What's with the TALKING INSIDES??? Eeeewww) Hahahah. Sorry sebab suka buat conversation sendiri. Aaaah, being pathetic. Again. Haigoo. ANYWAY, I don't really think my exam caused me to deserve such marvellous breakfast, (btw, I eat toast WITH the sides ok)just in case you guys didn't notice, it's an hour exam only . AN HOUR. What kind of exam that only take one hour of your life every three weeks of the second semester if you study here in CFS? Oooh yes. Computer 1 exam. Ok you can start throwing cabbage, lettuces and tomatoes at me. (more with the tomatoes, it softens skins fyi.) (muahaha) Ok, soooo typical . Err I'm referring to the throwing veges part. So anyway yes. Only comp exam for mid sem ? yes. Apparently yes. Fortunately yes. Just that although it's not a big deal like as if it's hard like physics or chemistry or maths (rai you tak ambik subjects tu pun ?) I mean not as tough as other law core subjects, but it's still AN exam, so it's a big deal to me. Pray for me so I could memorize all the computer-ic terms (no such word in proper english ok) and I could answer all questions smoothly . (Nah, I'm not saying this to mintak the breakfast special from any of you! ) (Shame on you if you thought so ) Hihi.

Oh just a couple of things to add, I'm glad that I get to learn computer 1 here because really, the lessons, the text book and the lab manual really really open my eyes about the computer world that I've never thought about of and seriously had benefit me from the start. I mean what's not cool if you study on how to combat viruses pretty much no need those computer technicians anymore and learn about the "inside system" or we can say the system unit and many many more about programs and the networks bla bla bla. Really, Bro Zulhairi, your class is cool to me. Ok, terlebih gula la pulak kan. Again, not trying to proof anything that this exam is special to me and you guys could treat me the special breakfast :P

Hahah. I'm not that desperate . Just an image of a good breakfast to me :D
Oh btw Happy Breakfast peeps! Kunyah banyak kali dulu before telan ok! This is a good eat ads. (whtvr)

Take care. And Happy Friday! Banyakkan selawat ok! :D

Aja Aja FIGHTINGGGG !

My dear Rai,

just in case you've forgotten,

just in case you didn't notice the time,

just in case you didn't perasan hari hari berlalu pergi,

I'm now doing my responsibility,

to remind you.

To jerit sekuat hati kat kau RAII!!!

You're eighteen babe.

Yes, muda lagi.

Tapi you ni student babe.

Focus la sket.

Focus!

Study tu bukan sebab nak dapat good result je,

bukan nak saje saje,

niat tu biar betul,

because of Allah.

How?

You work hard to become His best caliph,

untuk menjadi penolong agamaNya.

Sudah menjadi asbab kecemerlangan tu sebagai bukti kita ni berada di puncak.

What's with the lazy bump?

Sabar Rai, sabar.

Ketepikan segala godaan nafsu tu.

Yes I know babe, I understand.

KDramas, Twitter, FB, KPops, HBO, AXN,

aigoo babe,

all that won't help you to achieve your dreams!

Tak guna bercita cita tinggi melangit,

tapi itu semua hanya dalam mimpi.

Why can't you work darn hard to achieve your dreams?

Impian tidak akan jadi kenyataan kalau kau asyik buang masa je!

Tengok keliling kau Rai.

Ramai lagi yang tak bernasib baik macam kau.

Although you're not rich,

you still eat good foods every day,

you still sleep in an air conditioned room every night,

you still live under a good roof,

you still have your parents,

you still have the chance to study in a University,

you still have the chance to become successful.

Ramai lagi yang kurang bernasib baik daripada kau boleh cemerlang gemilang terbilang.

Kenapa kau tak boleh?

Kau sama je macam mereka.

Manusia juga.

Cuma kena pandai membezakan kemahuan dan keperluan.

Sometimes our kemahuan could simply throw us in a pool of dumps.

Remember Rai, responsibilites.

Your responsibilty as a daughter.

As a big sister.

As a student.

As a future wife.

As a future mummy.

As a caliph.

Banyak tanggungjawab kau Rai.

Belajar sungguh sungguh,

gapai cita cita.

Enough Rai,

enough to all of your day dreams.

Habluminallah, habluminannas.

Always remember too, the knowledge is light.

If you sinned yourself and dirtied your heart,

no light could enter it.

Clean your heart everyday,

polish it until you can hear the 'squeak' o clean.

Read your quran everyday.

Don't let ma'thurat fall into comma everyday.

Be patient while you're struggling on His path.

Talk to Him every single time.

He is the Best Listener.

Take your friends, your cousins as examples.

Your parents!

How'd they become so successful.

Recently you've heard about the success of your cousin.

Being a Sime Darby scholar is not enough.

You know that she'll get the chance to study overseas.

She'd succeed in her recent exams.

And currently, you got the news that she'll be sitting for the Oxbridge exams.

If she pass the tests, she'll get to enroll to Oxford University or Cambridge.

You know how astonished you were.

Oh, and to my dear cousin, CONGRATS!

I'm so proud of you.

Pray for me always.

 

One thing that you knew about your cousin is that,

she never stops working hard.

So why shouldn't you ?



Around Me

Bismillahirrahmanirraheem.


Assalamualaikum and a very good morning to my beloved readers! Today’s post will be an entry of my own personal views on most of the everyday situations that I’d experienced with regarding the same ol’ reasons people like to give when it comes to Islamic practices. I hope everyone would be open minded with whatever that I’ll be blogging about and of course I myself will accept whatever comments that you guys would like to give , open – minded.

When you try to advice people to cover their aurah and to dress accordingly with Islam, when you try to talk about Islam and preach His words, when you advice people that his or her doings aren’t right and when we talk about whatever issues about Islam, I’ve heard comments from THOSE WHO REALLY DON’T UNDERSTAND ABOUT ISLAM, comments like:

1) “Eh aku bukan budak sekolah agama, kau tak payah nak suruh aku pakai macam tu. Kau tu yang budak sekolah agama, so kau je la patut pakai macam tu”

2) “Eii, aku tak paham la. Kita ni bukan budak sekolah agama lagi, dah U dah, takkan kena dengar ceramah camni lagi? Bosan la BOSAN!”

3) “Dia pakai macam tu boleh la, dia budak mana, sekolah agama an. Memang la pakai macam tu, tutup apa semua. Jaga imej la normal la tu. Kita ni pulak bukan budak sekolah agama, so takpe sebab bukannya kena jaga imej mana-mana.”

4) “Dia tu hafal Quran, kot memang patut la dia pakai macam tu, menjaga macam tu. Kita ni although budak bekas sekolah agama pun, tak hafal Quran sume, so macam relaks relaks la sket bab bab menjaga sume ni. Dulu waktu sekolah dah terhabis jaga, now tak payah la macam tu kan. “

5) “Aku pakai tudung ni pun sebab nanti mak aku bebel. Malas nak dengar. So pakai je laaa. Ala, keluar dengan kawan aku bukak la, bukan mak bapak aku tau pun. Yang penting aku jaga hati dorang. Kita buat dosa, biar kat luar la. Tak payah kaitkan mak bapak kita sekali. Aku sayang lagi mak bapak aku, tak nak dorang tetibe sakit jantung sebab aku.”

6) “Aku pernah sekolah agama, yes. So what? Suka hati aku la nak free hair ke, nak berkepit dengan boyfriend ke, nak clubbing ke. Sekolah agama tu dulu. Ini life aku sekarang. At least aku tak hypocrite macam sesetengah orang.”

7) “EEEE geram gila aku dengan ustazah tu. Apa masalah dia suruh suruh orang pakai tudung? PLKN je pun. Lain la kalau memang dari awal tempat ni suruh budak melayu pakai tudung, aku pakaila. Tapi takde pun rules macam tu. Yang dia nak pandai2 buat undang2 sendiri tu kenapa? Mak bapak aku tak pernah suruh suruh aku. Benci gila!”

Maybe some of you haven’t heard these kinds of remarks and comments, I myself maybe write a bit exaggerate in some of the remarks above, but whatever comments that I’ve heard before are as close and some, similar to the remarks above. Let’s see one by one.

1) “Eh aku bukan budak sekolah agama, kau tak payah nak suruh aku pakai macam tu. Kau tu yang budak sekolah agama, so kau je la patut pakai macam tu”

When some people only expects agama school- based people to cover their aurah, and they who haven’t been in agama school before, shouldn’t be wearing like that. When some people DOESN’T EVEN REALIZE, that it’s not because they have to attend Islamic schools to cover their aurah then, it’s because Allah had asked us to do so. Allah had told clearly in the Quran. The friend who advised to this person is just doing his or her job as His caliphs, a caliph advising ANOTHER CALIPH. Without even realizing also, the person being advised is also a caliph!


2) “Eii, aku tak paham la. Kita ni bukan budak sekolah agama lagi, dah U dah, takkan kena dengar ceramah camni lagi? Bosan la BOSAN!”

When some people who have learn Islamic teachings, thought that when he or she left that environment, that person is no longer “tied with” the Islamic teachings that the person has learnt. This is absolutely SAD. I’m sorry to say that this kind of person wasn’t paying attention and trying to learn whatever important Islamic teachings when he or she was in an Islamic school, he or she had the kind of mentality of “ SEKOLAH AGAMA, where SEKOLAH AGAMA je yang boleh ada ceramah dakwah mcm ni. Tempat lain tak patut.” Sorryla, ini mentality kurang pandai. We can’t deny that if we are like these kinds of people, we are denying the truths that WE KNEW BEFORE. We are actually trying to AVOID the real truth. And verily, Allah’s torment is very powerful! Wa na’uzhubillah. Bila kita ada ilmu, sebarkan! Siapa lagi yang nak bimbing khalifah khalifah lain yang tersasar dari jalan Allah? Siapa lagi yang nak ajar mereka yang juga ada tanggungjawab seperti kita, yang tidak pernah dengar atau belajar mengenai ajaran sebenar Islam? Bila kita ada ilmu, kita abaikan, kita jadi seperti mereka yang tidak tahu,KITA sebenarnya perosak dunia.

3) “Dia pakai macam tu boleh la, dia budak mana, sekolah agama an. Memang la pakai macam tu, tutup apa semua. Jaga imej la, normal la tu. Kita ni pulak bukan budak sekolah agama, so takpe sebab bukannya kena jaga imej mana-mana.”

The so-called “Image”. I mean what the heck? Again, we cannot deny that person who talk like this, is either being too smart because he or she cannot answer the right answer, or being too stupid because again, denying the real truth that he or she has learnt from their parents. Not all parents send their kids to agama schools, because they themselves are good in Islamic teachings and qualify to teach them to be good muslims. Okay, about the person who act too smart because he or she doesn’t know the real answer why they have to cover their aurah. My dear brother or sister, covering aurah is not because certain people was from agama school or because he or she wants it, it’s because Allah told all of us to do so. Tak kiralah, kita ni dulu sekolah mana pun, jika kita beragama Islam, tutup aurat adalah wajib. No doubt lagi. Allah dah terangkan dalam al Quran dengan jelasnya. Why must we look away from the truths? To those who act too stupid because of denying the truths, let’s repent and go back to where we belong. Sebenarnya jauh di sudut hati masing masing tahu yang bila-bila masa sahaja kita boleh kembali kepadaNya. Macam mana boleh tahu? Sebab kita ada ilmu. Tapi disebabkan nafsu dan bisikan syaitan, kita buat buat lupa. Cuma, harap Allah tidak melupakan kita and still bagi peluang. So grab it, before it’s too late!

4) “Dia tu hafal Quran, kot memang patut la dia pakai macam tu, menjaga macam tu. Kita ni although budak bekas sekolah agama pun, tak hafal Quran sume, so macam relaks relaks la sket bab bab menjaga sume ni. Dulu waktu sekolah dah terhabis jaga, now tak payah la macam tu kan."

 When people who still don’t understand why they have to take care of themselves, take care of their relationships with other human beings, take care of the boundaries that God has approved and clearly stated in the Holy Book. Bila dulu ustazah kita, ustaz kita suruh kita menjaga segala perkara, akhlak, aurat, solat, bukan sebab mereka yang suruh, tapi ALLAH YANG SURUH. So bila kita sendiri yang nampak semua itu seperti beban and perkara yang buang masa, tak sedarkah kita sebenarnya telah berkata and beranggap sedemikian terhadap Allah Yang Maha Berkuasa? Beraninya kita mengingkari suruhan Allah sedangkan Dia Maha Besar! Beraninya kita, kuatnya kita nak menghadapi azab siksaan Allah kelak! Ingatkan neraka yang Allah sebut sebutkan berulang kali di dalam Quran itu perkara yang main-main? Tanpa sebab dan tujuan? Sesungguhnya Allah tidak melakukan sesuatu tanpa sebab. Semua ada hikmah disebaliknya. Again, when our nafs and the devils tried to spoiled us with maksiat and zina, try as hard as we could to overcome that, and remember Allah is always watching. Always. Akhirat nanti ada big screen, wajar sahaja aib aib kita, dosa dosa kita dipaparkan. Wa na’uzhubillah. And verily, He is Most Forgiving, Most Merciful.


5) “Aku pakai tudung ni pun sebab nanti mak aku bebel. Malas nak dengar. So pakai je laaa. Ala, keluar dengan kawan aku bukak la, bukan mak bapak aku tau pun. Yang penting aku jaga hati dorang. Kita buat dosa, biar kat luar la. Tak payah kaitkan mak bapak kita sekali. Aku sayang lagi mak bapak aku, tak nak dorang tetibe sakit jantung sebab aku.”


When some people forget Allah is watching over them. When some people do something because of other people. So if the other people who told them to do something according to Islam died, is it possible for them to stop doing all what had been taught to them? Yes, unfortunately. Because they never niat to do that because of Allah, but because of their moms and dads. Jadi bila mak ayah mereka meninggal, bagi mereka tiada siapa lagi yang ada untuk mengawasi mereka. Masha Allah. Lagi sekali, syaitan berjaya menghasut dan meliputi hati hati kita. Lupanya kita pada Yang Hidup, Yang Maha Melihat dan Yang Maha Mengetahui! Tidak kira la berapa jauhnya kita dari mak bapak kita, betapa gelapnya suasana, betapa tersoroknya kita di alam semesta, Allah masih lagi Yang Maha Melihat dan Maha Mengetahui. Allah masih boleh Nampak kita! And malaikat ditepi masih lagi menjalankan tanggungjawab mencatat amalan2 kita, dan kita masih lagi akan dibangkitkan dan disoal segala perbuatan kita. When that time comes, none can help us. None, except His mercy.


6) “Aku pernah sekolah agama, yes. So what? Suka hati aku la nak free hair ke, nak berkepit dengan boyfriend ke, nak clubbing ke. Sekolah agama tu dulu. Ini life aku sekarang. At least aku tak hypocrite macam sesetengah orang.Buat diam-diam. ”

Hipokrit. Memang masalah orang yang bermain dengat perkataan ni. Of course, hypocrisy appeals to those who don’t do what he or she said. But this is absolutely nothing to do about hypocrisy. Bila seseorang yang menegur tu tegur rakannya kerana dia sayangkan kawannya and tidak mahu kawannya terbabas dari jalan Allah, and mungkin dia sendiri belum cukup perfect untuk menegur, bukan maksud dia hypocrite, tidak. Tak sedarkah kita dia tu sebagai asbab, Allah menegur kita, Allah bagi kita peluang lagi untuk kita kembali kepadaNya, sebab kita ni pelupa! Kita tak perfect, kita buat dosa, kita lemah. Sebab itu Allah bagi kita hidayah sekali lagi, beri peluang yang belum mungkin dapat diterima oleh semua orang. Kita memang sukar nak menerima teguran daripada seseorang. Dalam kepala, teringat perbuatan dosa orang yang menegur, teringat kat akhlak di yang dulu pun buruk, tapi sekarang tidak lagi. Tapi dalam hati, still ada perasaan ala, kau buat buat je bertudung, jaga semua, kau sama je macam dulu. Bila kita tak sedar, hati kita jadi busuk sebab syaitan menguasainya. Why can’t we sit down and think about what WE did then pin pointing at people and claimed them not pure enough to advice us? Kita pun sama macam dia, buat kesilapan. Manusia semua sama. Kita patut terima teguran and mulakan perubahan. Again, He is Most Merciful and Forgiving.


7) “EEEE geram gila aku dengan ustazah tu. Apa masalah dia suruh suruh orang pakai tudung? PLKN je pun. Lain la kalau memang dari awal tempat ni suruh budak melayu pakai tudung, aku pakaila. Tapi takde pun rules macam tu. Yang dia nak pandai2 buat undang2 sendiri tu kenapa? Mak bapak aku tak pernah suruh suruh aku. Benci gila!”

Bila kita dengar orang cakap camni, kita boleh buat beberapa assumptions. First assumption, aku rasa dia ni cakap tak pakai ilmu main tebus je. Kau tak pernah belajar agama kot sebelum ni. Second assumption, dia ni saje buat2 lupa kot, sebab nak cover silap dia yang tidak menutup aurat. Well, I know that I should be grateful that I’d learnt about Islam since I was small. To cover my aurah is compulsory, it’s a no tolerance subject, we just have to follow it. We shouldn’t question why we have to cover it, because Allah, our Great Lord told us to do so. And I’m pretty sure most of us know the tremendous benefits of covering our aurah. I also know that not all people have the chance to learn about Islam although he or she has been a Muslim for the whole entire of his or her life. This is where we, Muslims who has a bit of the ilmu, teach them; preach to them what is right what is wrong. Kadang- kadang tu kita tak patut cepat melenting bila berdepan dengan orang yang cakap main lepas, sebab dia cetek ilmu agama. Satu hal lagi, kutuk ustazah. Ni bukan kutuk ustazah tak betul, terpesong, kutuk ustazah yang mengajar, cuba mendidik kita jadi orang yang benar di jalanNya. Disebabkan mulut dia yang begitu laser, and cara percakapan yang kasar, saya takde kekuatan nak menegurnya. Cuma benci perbuatan dia dalam hati. Masha Allah selemah-lemah Iman! I felt really sad for not standing up for ustazah at that time. At that time I felt so weak, because I don’t have the guts to speak up. But since that day, I was determined to be more berani. Berani. Berani kerana benar, takut kerana salah. In my mind the proverb ‘actions speak louder than words’ kept replaying. Susah, susah benar aku nak mempraktikkan benda ni. I hope He would always give me strength. Of course, I’m praying for all of my friends, for us, to always be granted with His hidayah.


This is just some something I would like to share with all of you. Let us all pray so that we are always on His path. Forever and always. Take care my beloved brothers and sisters, take care.

EID ADHA 2011 :D

Selamat Hari Raya Eiduladha

All praises to Allah for everything,

every nikmah He'd granted us.

Maaf Zahir && Batin.

Ikhlas Daripada,

Rai :D

ps. SORRYYYY FOR THE LATE POST OF THE "PRE-EID". 

Should've posted it on Friday but then internet connection bermasalah D":

Pre Eid Adha :D

04/11/11


Bismillahirrahmanirraheem.

Assalamualaikum peeps ! :D Sihat? Miss me? I really really miss blogging and now TARAAA! I decided to blog again hehe. I came home last night and yes, my comp class already started for two days; wednesday and thursday. We really have to be on track with our course outline and all since our mid semester is like this 17th of November! (Sayyy whatttt? Cepat tu weii!) Yeahh I know, tell me about it. aigoo. So anyway, today is friday already, (obviously) and tomorrow is saturday (what's with the Rebecca Black lyrics? :P) - -" I'm just telling !! - Anyway, tomorrow is wuquf day and we as muslims should be more aware of this day and consider this day as a very special day like we looked at nisfu Syaa'ban as a special day and we performed many amalan sunat, and so is tomorrow. And fyi, its Zulhijjah, our beloved Prophet (PBUH) said that the first ten days of Zulhijjah is absolutely special, where we should do lots of amalan sunat like fasting and make lots of Du'a : ) Here are some fun facts about the month of Zulhijjah. Credits to http://www.pesima.net/index.php?name=News&file=article&sid=256&theme=Printer

"Daripada sebuah hadis yang diriwayatkan oleh Ibnu Abbas r.a, Rasullullah s.a.w telah menerangkan tentang fadilat di bulan Zulhijjah iaitu :
Tanggal 1 Zulhijjah kesalahan Nabi Adam a..s telah diampunkan Allah. Oleh itu sesiapa yang berpuasa pada hari itu dosanya akan diampunkan oleh Allah

 
Tanggal 2 Zulhijjah doa Nabi Yunus a.s diperkenankan Allah. Oleh itu sesiapa yang berpuasa pada hari itu seperti berpuasa setahun dan dicatitkan baginya seperti tidak pernah melakukan maksiat.

 
Tanggal 3 Zulhijjah doa nabi Zakaria telah diperkenankan oleh Allah. Oleh itu sesiapa yang berpuasa pada hari itu doanya juga akan diperkenankan oleh Allah

 
Tanggal 4 Zulhijjah Nabi Isa a.s dilahirkan. Sesiapa yang berpuasa pada hari itu akan terhindar dari kefakiran dan kemelaratan.

 
Tanggal 5 Zulhijjah Nabi Musa a.s dilahirkan. Oleh itu sesiapa yang berpuasa pada hari itu akan terlepas ia dari sifat munafik dan siksa kubur


Tanggal 6 Zulhijjah Allah telah membukakan pintu-pintu kebajikan kepada nabi-nabiNya. Oleh itu sesiapa yang berpuasa pada hari itu akan dipandang oleh Allah dengan pandangan rahmat

 
Tanggal 7 Zulhijjah pintu neraka Jahannam akan dikunci. Oleh itu sesiapa yang berpuasa pada hari itu akan dibukakan 30 pintu kemudahan dan dikunci 30 pintu kesulitannya


Tanggal 8 Zulhijjah Nabi Ibrahim a.s telah mendapat perintah supaya menyembelih anaknya Ismail. Seharian ia berfikir sama ada perintah itu daripada Allah atau dari Syaitan. Hari itu dinamakan hari Tarwiyah (hari berfikir). Sesiapa yang berpuasa pada hari tersebut akan diberikan pahala yang banyak oleh Allah

 
Tanggal 9 Zulhijjah Allah telah memberitahu kepada Nabi Ibrahim bahawa mimpinya itu adalah benar dari Allah, bukan dari syaitan. Oleh itu, hari tersebut terlah dikenali sebagai 'Arafah' (Hari ketahui).

Sunat bersedekah kepada fakir miskin. Sesiapa yang bersedekah pada hari tersebut akan dibangkitkan oleh Allah pada hari kiamat nanti dalam keadaan aman dan sentosa.


Amalan sunat pada 10 Zulhijjah seperti :



a) Mandi sunat Aidil Adha pada pagi harinya.

b) Sunat tidak menjamah makanan atau minuman sehinggalah selesai menunaikan solat Adha

c) Keluar menuju ke masjid dengan satu jalan dan bila pulang menggunakan jalan yang lain

d) Lebih afdal dengan berjalan kaki ke masjid

e) Mengumandangkan takbir, tahmid dan tahlil bermula malam 10 Zulhijjah hinggalah tersenam matahari pada tanggal 13 Zulhijjah (Takbir Muqayyad)  "

Does anyone know the status of this hadeeth? Please share it if so :D Omao ! Btw I found another page with the same contents, may Allah bless them for willing to share these interesting facts about the month of Zulhijjah. And seriously, I myself haven't started my sunat fasting for the month of Zulhijjah yet. Yes I know, how shameful I am D': Insha Allah tomorrow I'll fast. Jom puasa ? ;D Banyakkan berdoa pada Hari Wuquf. Seeeeebanyak banyaknya ok?  Baba kata, bayangkan kita ni macam mereka yang sedang menunaikan haji, berdoa di 'Arafah semasa mereka berwuquf. Bukan orang yang pergi haji je buat amalan2 ni, kita pun patut macam tu. And we shouldn't waste our first ten days of Zulhijjah like that, doing absolutely unbeneficial things, without knowing it, we'd wasted much blessings from Allah. Masha Allah ! Insha Allah, jika dipanjangkan umur, biarlah bulan Zulhijjah akan datang lebih baik daripada bulan Zulhijjah yang sekarang. Belum terlambat untuk kita mengubah cara hidup kita ke jalan yang lebih diredhai-Nya. And verily, He is oft Forgiving and Most Merciful ; ) Astaghfirullahalazim Ya Ghofur Ya Raheem.

Actually, we shouldn't waste our everyday life! Of course we're not perfect. But there's a saying goes; although we're not perfect, there's always room for improvement, which leads to "almost" perfection. Let's try not to waste our times on tv and movies more often. Masa muda ni lah kita patut banyakkan (seeeeebanyak banyaknya ) amalan amalan sunat and pelihara sebaik mungkin (seeeeeebaik baiknya) perkara perkara wajib. Sebab nanti takut Allah tarik satu2 nikmat waktu lapang kita, waktu sihat kita, waktu muda kita, waktu hidup kita. Of course, the  reminders in bold, are FOR ME. But you guys could take these too, if you want. Saya cuma tak nak jadi orang yang bercakap tak serupa bikin. And I'll try my best to change for the better.

PS. I am soooo sorry for the very very late post! Yes, I should’ve post this by Friday but then our house got internet connection problem! Hope you guys don’t mind. Maybe the reminders in this post have expired but we can still take benefits from it for next year’s Zulhijjah preparations, can’t we? Again, SORRY D:

Today's World

What a loss,

to people who only considers you as a friend,

if you wear branded clothes,

if you own an iPhone or a BB,

if you drive a car ranges from a Merce to Ferrari.

What a loss,

to people who only considers you as a human being,

if you have lots of cash in your wallet,

if you own lots of credit cards,

if you are model skinny,

if you are the daughter or the son of somebody.

What makes us humans,

so great?

Greater than The Greatest of all?

What makes us humans,

greater than Allah The Great?

Who doesn't even care any of the above but,

our hearts?

Shame on you.

Shame on us.

Can we even bring all of that together with us in our graves?

None of that could save us.

None of that could ensure the real happiness,

that we could achieve when we enter to His heaven.

May Allah bless us all with His mercy.

'It's Reality' is Driving Me Nuts

Bismillah.

Okay, nuts? NUTS?? Well literally :P 'It's Reality' is my sister's blog. I had a good long look at it just now and what I can comment is : Ugh, you irritating-annoying-'terror'-english-writer hmph :B Terror bukan maksud terror as in seram, but terror as in 'tererrrr gilerrrr'. And yeah maybe I copied this a bit from kak Maria Elena. (err you don't mind I call you kak right or does it sound a bit ollldddd to you?? Or maybe I should call you sis?) (get a grip babe, maria elena won't be reading your notsointeresting blog btw) (Oh yeahhh I forgot T_T) Btw, yeah I just have to admit that my sister's blog is way cooler than mine minus the hundreds of viewers! *GASP (Sayyy WHAAAAATTTTT??) * picturing me with my mouth wide open and hands on the cheeks and eyes wide open macam nak terkeluar biji mata (sorry for being so disturbing to yah people) - -" Hoho I'm so devastated! *picturing me buat buat pengsan with a gedik hands on forehead then baru 'ter'jatuh

Haha. I know maybe that sup tulang I had just now for lunch caused me to be soo .. (weird?) no, no so...
(annoying?) no, so.... so (freakin'weirdandannoying? DOES THAT HELP?? mann!) ha yes! Of course. That's the word! Nyihihi

Maybe you guys will going on like : Rai ni dari dulu dok english tak betul2 and tak terror2 mcm adik dia pasai apa? Takde motivasi ke or insiatif nak jadi lebih baik dari semalam?? (aiseyman, sarkastikus nampak? Tikus sarkas pun tak sarkastik mcm tu) (*sarkastikus = sarcastic = Hlovate style) Well, I'm sorry but I really am trying my best to read as much good english novels as I could and watch english movies but still, my sis's is more daebak-er than mine. Hmmph D': (*daebak = terbaik in korean)

Ahh well. I hope YOU sis , yes YOU tak payah tgk kanan kiri belakang! could help me to write and speak english better so that I could prepare myself for any future interviews :3 risau neh haigoo T_T-- doakan akak Ryn so that I could pursue my dreams. Doakan akak, ma, ba, rauhan, azeen so that I could pursue my dreams. (well, my dad sometimes has a peek on my blog) (yeah go ahead, don't believe me :P)

Just an entry full of babbles. Hope you guys don't mind ehe. Take care peeps <3

ps. yeah now I'm on twitter (after soo longgg, after soo like dah berjanggut whatsoever) and I really hope you guys could understand I'm trying to change for the better? Yeah, that's include not twittering with kawan2 lelaki unless we have strong reasons to do so. Oh thank you . No, I don't blame you guys, I blame myself. I am big enough to know which is strong reason and which isn't~

Eeeeeeeeeeeppppssssss :S 2

Bismillah. Assalamualaikum people! :D Just a short post.

Alhamdulillah, finally I get to opened my student portal. And alhamdulillah wa syukurillah, all praise to Allah for our results. Thank you friends for praying for me. Alhamdulillah :D

To my friends, like what I posted before, if we don't achieve our target, please let's not give up and still strive and work hard to get to the top. Insha Allah, niat kita utk menjadi penolong agamaNya. Whatever that we will be in the future; doctors, engineers, accountants, lawyers , etc all of that is to be His caliphs in this world. Insha Allah dengan niat sebegitu, Dia akan menolong kita utk capai impian kita.

I texted with my friend Nisa earlier tonight, and seriously I was awakened. Awakened because I haven't been using my time wisely during my holiday. Now lagi 5 hari ( ok we have to register by 1st Nov), nak masuk campus balik and I know that I'll be taking comp this short semester and I've heard wayway before that comp is quite tough if you don't struggle to read and understand the verybigandheavy book, besides the assignment and quizzes. And lecturers will be teaching us quite fast in order to finish the whole book within two months, and we only have 2 classes per week ! T_T yeah I know. And tonight, baru nak bukak buku and buat pre-study comp. Why Rai? Tak sedar ke selama ni nikmat yang Allah bagi? Waktu sihat sebelum waktu sakit. Waktu lapang sebelum waktu sempit. Sepatutnya masa holiday, kalau tak nak belajar academic sekalipun, buku agama satu pun tak dapat khatamkan. Kalau baca novel, laju je. Sehari dua boleh habis. Padahal novel tu boleh tahan jugak tebalnya.Astaghfirullah. I'd wasted my time a lot.

Insha Allah I'm trying my best to be more careful with my time. I should, I must use my time and health wisely. Macam mana nak jawab nanti dgn Allah ? If I'd spent it without giving any benefit to me and masha Allah if towards sins, macam mana nak jawab dengan Allah? Aku dah kufuri nikmatNya! Ya Allah ampunilah dosa dosa ku.

I realized how our teen years are precious. Baba ada pesan, masa muda ni la kena rajin beramal ibadat, nanti bila dah tua susah. Masa muda ni la biasakan diri dengan buku agama, biar diri tu terisi, biasakan dengan quran, jangan jadi orang yang kufur nikmat. And when I think of it, bukan saja dapat dosa dengan Allah sebab buang masa macam tu je, dengan baba jugak. Sebab baba dah bagi nasihat, in fact mcm teguran and suruhan, so kalau anak tak buat, itu tandanya derhaka. Wa na'uzhubillah. Astaghfirullah.

To my friends who still have time and lots of holidays, gunakan masa kalian sebaiknya. Take care buddies ~

30 Days Down, 3 More Days To Go

Bismillahirrahmanirraheem. Asslalamualaikum peeps! :D

Aaah look at the time, look at the date! My my, time passed so quickly and without (trying to) noticing, I'll be going back to campus this 1st Nov :P Aigoo. Btw, I still have the problem to open my student portal. Tak tahu la nape portal tu mcm dengki semacam je dengan aku >:P

Anyway, my friends - who apparently get to open their portals :P - told me that we, students who will be taking short sem, will have to register at repective colleges oh err hostels by 31st Oct or 1st Nov 2011. The thing is both days fall on working days, how am I going to go back there? Hell-looooo! Although I have got my driving liscence someone still need to help me to carry my bags and stuff, and that someone is of course no other than my mighty hero - my DAD! Fyi, my dad works five times per week, yeah so the days include Monday and Tuesday just in case the campus cannot notice. Well, I think that most of our working parents work on weekdays starting Monday, so yeah. Actually I don't have a problem if they allow us to start 'moving in' by this Sunday, sebab senang sket, mak ayah adik beradik atuk nenek sume kalau nak hantar boleh datang, Monday Tuesday traffic will be like congested especially in that area of Petaling Jaya. Oh well, sapelah daku untuk mengcomplain complain macam ginih. Haiyoo = ="

Anyway, I shall need to start packing my bags and stuff I think starting today. Hmm just thinking about it makes me still don't wanna change the current mood from lazybumpholidayhooyeah! to energeticlasketkandahstartsem -_______________-"" Yeaaaaahh, I know sometimes I can act a bit weird. So anyway, (ERR, aku rasa dah banyak kali dah kau duk beranyway nih) (SOOOO?? L.I.C!) (L.I. Whaatt???) (Aigoo, Like I Care lahhhh itupun tak tahu kaa??) Hahaha ok ok sorry.

Additional to that, I still don't know what's my final result. Memang diri ni rasa teruji. Mana taknya, patut keluar semalam after 5 pm, tapi until now, I can't even catch a glimpse of it! D: Mama jap jap g tunggu masa je nak bertanya soalan yang sama. Saboo je laa. And we, arts programme students still cannot register our thrid semester yet! Seriously, I'm getting more and more annoyed wth student portal. Budak sains sume dah register before cuti sem lagi !! Ni yang risau jugak ni. Oh but friends - who apparently get to open their portals :P - (AGAIN!) - ugh- told me that the group lists had already been informed in the portal. And thanks to a friend of mine, Maryam Jamilah, she posted the name list in our group wall in FB and unfortunately, I don't really well, a bit excited with my new group members because I shall be one the newbie again. Tapi, alhamdulillah, ada lagi beberapa rakan yang sama kelas so okayla. But Pah, babe, I shall miss you. And all of you guys who apparently not in the same group as mine anymore -tsk tsk- ;'( I really hope our study groups are still on though. Seriously, I love us haha. I mean I love how all of us were so keen on helping each other on every subject and making study groups, trying to form our own thesis (ehem kan Bell? - err I'm referring to ILH and LS of course)  and from my perception, the way I see it, I could see how all of us want to help each other to achieve success :D And this , my friends, is the true success indeed . (cehh
macam nak tulis buku motivasi la pulakk)

So, yeah. Nanti bila dah ada short sem will I be busying myself writing new entries? Most probably. Insha Allah ada masa, okay je. Untuk my beloved GUESTS jugak :P hihi. Btw, I'm taking only Comp 1 this semester, so tak banyak kelas pun (tak banyak sangatttt) but I want to make sure my two months are not wasted on k-dramas, eatingeating and enjoy every minute of life without good cause (ehe), Insha Allah the only way for all us to be discipline is to make a schedule. Insha Allah I want to start focusing also on BTQ and other third sem subjects that I could get my hands on. Ok, so JOM BUAT STUDY GROUP LAGI? :D hehe. Oh, and you guys ingat kan yang Hanan ada suggest nak buat group discussion more often? The main focus is that we must be fully aware of what is the current issues, and we have to start practice speaking proficiently insha Allah. yepp, for future benefit people, for zee futureeee!

So my friends who are going with me to enrol in 2nd semester, don't forget all the important things! Especially your matric card T_T ! IMPORTANTE! Hehe. Well, see you guys : )

ps. to my friends yang holyholiday tu, hope you guys manage your time well ! Three months are longggg dudeeess. Longgg. (oookay. I'm exaggerating) (hahah being me )

Oh and these are for my buddies, for all of you who have lots of days to do something right. Your holidays can be as close as perfect for the RIGHT TIME .

During your holidays, try to be the person who ease other's burdens. Try : )

For those who have the hands of creative and fun, create something that could
motivate others, that could enlightened others with your own inspirational works and words : )

To those who are hoping that this holiday is going to be the right time for you
to ease your own burden or making out solutions for your troubles,
just remember that He is there for you. Troubles are not permanent : )

I know this is a strong quote. But looking at the bright side of it, the words are true.
Why don't spend some time to have a quality time with others. Even if they're strangers? :D

Let's hold on to this quote too. You can do anything while you're vacationing or on holidays.
But doesn't mean that you can start smoking, or do anything that is wrong in Islam.
Whatever we do, remember always that Allah is watching us. He is always watching.
Forever and always.


Take care peeps <3


Eeeeeeeeeeeppppssssss :S

Bismilliahirrahmanirraheem.

Asslamualaikum peeps! Just a short post. Well, insha Allah tomorrow is D-Dayyy! D-Day of whatta??
D-Day of MYFINALRESULTISSHOWINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG ! Aaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh! :O

Yeahh, I'm being over dramatic! But it's true! Insha Allah esok result final keluar kt our student portal. Just want to tell you guys how berdebar-DEBAR I am, thinking about it! Mama pun dah tanya lamaa dah bila result nak keluar. So I guess tomorrow will be the day He answered her prayers. Please do pray for our keputusan terbaik. Insha Allah whatever that I'll achieve and we achieve, my pals, insha Allah is the best for all of us. And we have to be prepared, emotionally and physically. Let's just keep praying, and tawakaltu 'alAllah, insha Allah He will answer our prayers. And, just to remind all of us, if we happened to achieve not as what we've targeted, let's don't give up and keep on working hard. Always remember the saying; Usaha itu tangga kejayaan. The only way for us to climb to achieve success is by using the ladder of hardwork and being deligent and discipline. What I meant by discipline is that, I must control what I eat, what I wasted my time on. Just that foundation studies or matriks are not the playing place for all of us. Holiday is wayy over friends , let's work hard to achieve our dreams. Insha Allah with lots and lots of D.U.I.T, we can be on the top, together :D We don't want our future to be ruined because of ourselves, don't we? Nope.

For everyone who yearns success ; )

RYN! You Deserves VIEWERS!

Just a short post to all of my beloved viewers, friends and GUESTS. Please, have a dip in my sister's cool blog : http://www.itisntjustadreamhoney.blogspot.com/ Trust me, you guys could improve your english, and if you viewers happened to still schooling, I guess her posts can also aid you guys to improve your essays, and I'm pretty sure you guys could enjoy yourself reading hers as much as you guys did with mine. (Okayyy, you guys takde cakap pun korg enjoy reading my blog - -"" PERAAHHSANTANN!) hehe = ="

Oh kalau nak cepat lagi view blog dia, go to my 'I SPY THEM', my sister's blog is entittled "IT'S REALITY"

ENJOYYYYY! <3

ps. RYN, babe, sorry la, akak kena bagi tau satu dunia. I know you never told me to do this, but it's devastating just by looking at your teeny-miny viewers! Although it is still sucks with the reality that your english is better than mine, and you can 'pull-off' I mean,tell good stories in fun and sassy ways,

I'm still you kakak and RYN,yes, you deserves VIEWERS.

Lots and lots of them : )

Belajar sungguh sungguh! Get excellent results okayh!

Ehem bukan senang akak nak post pasal adik akak neh :P

# 2 My Chatbox and I

Bismilllah. Asslamaualaikum GUESTS <3

Hihi just a short post to give a tribute for you guys who suggested songs for me :D Thanks GUESTS for still wanting to layan me and read my posts ! I hope if not all, but at least one or two posts of mine could benefit you all. Please comment to add more infos or if you guys want to share some interesting and beneficial knowledge also facts to all of us. Reading is always the best way to increase one's knowledge, a saying goes. So it'll be great if all of us could help each other to be a better person ~^_____^~

Btw, hope you guys are in good health and please, do take care of yourselves; your health, your solat, your ma'thurat, your dzikrs, your selawat (at least 10 times in the morning and in the evening), your iman (don't listen to bad songs, don't watch eyes hurting movies - if you know what I mean-, don't browse bad channels or webs, don't curse, don't gossip, don't waste your time, we don't have much time left -  for everything that is important), take care of your hearts, don't let the devils and nafs control your precious hearts, insha Allah banyakkan dzikr, sebab itu sahaja cara utk membersihkan hati yang kotor and so that He will always remember us. Insha Allah, if He remembers us always, He'll take good care of us in the world and akhirah.

Take care : )






Both of the songs are easily moved, but of course in different ways. Thanks guys for suggesting. I really like the song by Opick :D And the song by Dadali, hihi another suggested love song, may I know my dear GUEST, why'd you suggested this song? Any stories that you would like to share with us ? I would like to hear them ehe. Anyway, I've listened to this song too before this, and yes, it's a sad love song, hmm. Anyway, I suggested you guys to listen careful;y the lyrics of Tombo Ati, sangat2 bermakna :D Oh and Beribu Sesalan, thanks to you GUEST, lagu ni first time pernah dgr, and the lyrics are sad, again another suggested love song. Hihi. Tapi best jugak lah.
Btw, one of my dear GUESTS also suggested Smile by Avril, but I don't think I want to post either the music vid or the lyrics here, ada unnecessary words and Avril's clothing tak berapa nak elok dalam video tu. But, I also would like to take back my word, the one I said, 'yeah lagu ni pun best jugak', I meant, best as in music dia, but when I viewed the lyrics, I'm sorry guys, lagu ni just contain many string words! Anyway, I'm open with any of your suggestions :D Aaah suggestion buku ke, web ke etc. Anything great ~

Byebye and take care GUESTS : )

For my GUESTS :D

A Day of Exhaustion, Yet Fun

Bismillah. Assalamualaikum peeps :D

How do you do? Hihi I've got loads of things to write about. More importantly yesterday was a fun and enjoyable day for me although I'd to bear with blisters and sweaty body. Seriously, if you guys happened to bumped into me semalam, mesti you all akan kata, 'maaakkk aiii raiii! muka tak leh berminyak lagi ke? besides babe, your body stinks! mannnnn'. Haha yes, maybe your other meaning for aigoo. Anyway, semalam saya pergi ZOO NEGARA (hakhak) and visited UIA Gombak with my SB friends; Nani and Aisyah <3thanksguysfortheday;) , and seriously, yesterday was worth it!

So it's like lamaaa gilaaa tak melawat SB, my form1-form3 secondary school, sure miss the school, the people, badly. Alhamdulillah, I got to meet some of my favourite teachers, seriously muka2 cikgu tak berubah langsung! awet mudaa hihi. Cikgu Marziyana, Cikgu Latifah, Cikgu Azmi, Cikgu Faiza, .. all of the teachers I am familiar with since form 1. As Hanani and I walk technically aorund the school, suddenly memories and flashbacks played inside my mind, especially when my eyes caught at certain places that I'd good memories with. Aaaaah those days. Then we started talking about our fun days when we were peeping at the pool, (semakin cantik la pool korang) and I suddenly realized how long I haven't been swimming. Aiyaa, dah la swimming ni like the best calorie-burner EVER. Anyway, bukan senang nak cari enclosed swimming pool yang asing laki perempuan , ever since I left SB, I practically never swim, sebab kalau nampak pools pun, kat hotel, and hotels in Malaysia manade swimming pool tertutup and not unisex kan. Hmm, I'd been thinking about UIA Gombak punya pool, but then, masa pulak tak mengizinkan. (Alah, banyakla alasann) Hihi then the canteen. Well the way I could sum about it is that the menus are different than last time when I studied there, but I think now is better, with more additional food stalls. Tapi the environment still sama, like you're eating at a food court, well not as much variety, but still lots to choose from. Aaah those days!

Then we headed to the zoo. I haven't been to Zoo Negara since I was a kid. So I think it's a good change then go wandering about in a mall :P We got ourselves adult tickets for RM 20, but kalau you takde mykad, extra RM 10 ! yepp lebih2 la pulak. Anyway, to sum up our visit yesterday we missed Orang Utan, and some other interesting looking animals, well maybe because we haven't got any much time left, we arrived there around 10. 15 and Hanani's mother is fetching us at 2 pm, but then we don't really had the energy to walk more. I've got blisters already and I was stinking myself :P We  sure do took crazy photos with the animals like : the giraffes, elephants, tigers, lions, monkeys, baboons, penguins, beautiful colourful birds, emus, hyaenas, and got a bit terrified looking at the many different kinds of snakes and crocs, oh and don't forget the many kinds of frogs - -" Then there was also a sea lion show, and the show was actually nice and cute, the sea lion kept clapping and kept eating besides entertained us with his many tricks. Then we had our lunch there and we decided to pray at the UIA Gombak mosque. Anyway, my suggestions for you guys who going to spend a day at the zoo, please,

>wear sports shoes or any comfortable sandals and not flats. Of course, heels are unforgiven!
>make sure that you use plenty of deos
>the sun is shining bright and you guys need is good SPFs. Wear sunblocks or BB cream, a SPF compact powder is not enough. You still have to wear BB cream or sunblock first, then the compact powder.
>wear SPF lip balms. and brought along or buy mineral water.
>you can also bring along your cool sunshades or hats also, please bring hand towel to wipe the sweats.
>bring a good cash of around RM 50, or maybe a bit more, because you'll need them to pay your enty tickets, foods, if you must, souveniers. Oh yes, and the tram. It's a good thing if you pay extra RM 3 to get yourself a tram ticket, because at certain time, you'll need it.

Hihi hope I'm a bit helpful. So anyway, UIA Gombak has also its own interesting reason for us to go there. Ada bazaar yang sangat menarik, especially us girls, the bazaars are selling eye catching and having promotions on tudung, selendang, bajus, jubah et cetera! Seriously, at that we were thinking, nanti masuk main campus ni tak yah susah2 nak cari tudung sampai pegi Jalan TAR or wheresoever, sini pun dah memadai. Hihi, we were like rambang mata especially on the pretty tudung and bracelets :D Btw, tudung bawal ada jual as low as RM 6! Seriously murah. So pratically, after zohor Hanani and I were wandering around and bought some of the tudung and cute pins. This promotion and bazaar has been going on for awhile now and their last day will be until next week! So, pegilah ramai2 ke UIA Gombak :) hihi.

We were very grateful that it wasn't so hot yesterday and in the afternoon it also rained, so I'm a bit grateful that I wasn't exposed to sun too long, because I have sensitive skin, especially with my acne problem, I cannot bear oily skin or too hot weather. (annnnd, I am not grumbling, just telling).

Hehe. Hope you guys enjoy your day today. Of course, everything is fine as long as we don't forget our obligations to Allah.

Some Explanations to "The 'Letter'"

Bismillah and assalamu'alaikum :D

Well well, seriously I'm quite surprised with some of my faithful reader's feedbacks on my current post, "The 'Letter'". Aigoo guys, no need to feel sorry for me. When I decided to pour out a little piece of my other-side-of-my-life story, I really want to share with all of you how I felt. And how some things that we thought it's the best for us, actually it isn't.

No, I don't meant that some of our meetings and the chances that we got to know someone is not the best for us. But what I'm saying is that it's not the best for us, yet, because now, we should just pray to Him for giving us the best person that we should share our future life with. Maybe we might think the person we met now and fall for is the best for us, but now, I am only eighteen. It is not possible for me to think about love when I'm still far from achieveing my dreams. We have our own dreams to catch, so we shouldn't let this dream go away.

Btw I think some of you guys pitied me because you guys didn't really understand the reasons why I posted it.  I wasn't being helpless and sad, but I'm actually picturing what I'd gone through in the past that is actually not according to our religion. Yes, we can only communicate or having to deal with our opposite sex when it's needed. Not, without any concrete reasons.
What I'm saying also is that whatever the feelings that I had, I'd sealed it and keep the enveloped heart aside for awhile. Insha Allah when time comes, I will open the sealed envelope of heart again.

But now, we shouldn't be thinking about this. We have our responsibilities. Our future is in His hands. So let's pray so that He will always grants the best for all of us. And about my recent post, I would like to re-emphasize that, we must always follow His path. No other. This is the only way for us to achieve true happiness, in the world, and in the Hereafter.

Yes, thanks guys, I'm being patient :D

ps. please re-read the "The 'Letter' " post. I assure all of you, it's not a sad post.
pss. the current songs in my mixpods are korean :D hope you guys tak kisah. you guys should spare 5 minutes to listen to them. They're beautiful though.

The 'Letter'

I've done a lot of mistakes.

Mistakes that brought me miseries.

Miseries because I can't find the true Light.

The Light that will bring me to the neverending happiness.

Of course, the Light from Him.

When I hit rewind,

I could see myself trying to 'create' my own happiness.

I could see myself walking on a path that leads me to a bogus trail,

a trail that camouflage its dark destination,

a false trail that signed REAL HAPPINESS,

but actually hidden behind it is eternal despair.

Ahh I am writing in riddles.

Let me share some of my melancholic stories.

Let me share some of my,

flashbacks.

I thought I found love when I am happy.

I thought I found love when I never stop smiling.

I thought I found love when I kept glancing the sky, and never stop laughing.

I thought I found real happiness when I found the so-called love.

But apparently no.

The true happiness that I've been seeking,

not from the so-called love that I seemed to have found.

Parents, teachers, friends,

all of them had played their roles in teaching me what can be done and not do,

All of them have been spreading the message of Islam to me for the last 18 years.

I am truly grateful.

I am truly thankful.

To Him, for granting them to me.

So I could find my way to real happiness.

But somehow when my heart is darkened by guilty desires,

I could find myself trying to conceal the true acts,

by replacing it with erroneous acts.

I remember I promised myself to stop.

Promise myself to no more texting,

no more answering or returning calls,

no more unimportant YM-ing.

I remember I said,

'Enough is enough, Raihana.

You know pretty well the Laws of your God!'

I remember I was 18 in the month of March 2011.

But suddenly you turned up.

Well to be exact ofcourse I'd known you much much more earlier.

But the surrounding is different now.

Although we never call,

we never stop being supportive for each other through texting,

sometimes through chatting.

We never stop being best buds.

I remember when we never talked before.

I remember when we never become friends before.

And I also remember when all that changed.

Then pieces of puzzles seemed to form in my mind.

The puzzles of our friendship.

Later somehow I could feel the atmosphere had changed.

I don't think I like you as a friend anymore.

But more than a good friend.

There were a number of messages that we suddenly felt brave enough to ask.

Asking questions more to answer the curious hearts.

This is where everything turned out wrong.
The continuous 'keep in touch',
led to feelings that wasn't meant to be there.

I was 18 in the month of September 2011.

I was awakened.

Again.

Masha Allah.

All praise is to Him.

For still giving me the chance to stop my feet from walking on the dusty road.

The dusty road of the bogus trail, remember?

Lots and lots of voices I heard.

Voices that speak out the real truth.

The real truth of the Laws of God,

that I had put aside because of the guilty desires that I had sealed in my heart.

How can I have such friendship with a guy who is not even confirmed yet my husband?

How can I be so friendly with a guy who may be not my future husband?

How can I be happy because of a guy who is not my soul partner, yet?

The only permissible relationship that I could have with a guy whom I can get married with

is only marriage.

Everywhere I go I could hear the voice that said,

'Batasan pergaulan antara lelaki dan perempuan'

The boundaries that I should always bear in mind.

The boundaries that I must take care of and not letting it broke down apart.

When I hit pause,

I re-read my 'letter' to you.

I said we should put a limit to this.

I said we had wronged ourselves.

I said we had put aside the real truth that we had learnt before.

Both you and I are well aware of the Laws of our God.

In my heart I was questioning myself.

 How can we hoped for His help to give us success to achieve our aspirations,

when we make things not according to His ways?

 How can we achieve real happiness?

I told you my reasons.

I told you we must only possible to communicate if urgent calls turned up.

And I was grateful that you understand.

When I hit fast forward on my 'another- side- of- my-life- story tape',

I re-read your reply 'letter' to me.

You said you were glad finally I told you why recently we don't text.

You said you understand and you acknowledge that what we've done before is wrong.

You said that you were hoping for a everlasting relationship.

And I remember I smiled to that.

I'm not saying I'm only put a stop to only one guy.

I'm aware that I have got many guy friends which includes my classmates and schoolmates.

My group mates and my juniors.

I'll never stop calling you guys as friends.

But friends with a guy is unlike friends with a girl.

You don't friendly 'hey I miss you how are you',

you don't friendly high-fives,

you don't friendly kiss and hugs.

You have a boundary that shall give you true and real happiness.

The boundary that He had awarded to all of us.

Trust me, if you follow His path,

you will be granted with His Heaven.

It's also noteworthy that Heaven is our eternal place.

Eternal means forever and ever.

And the boundary,
it depends you know.
It's different if you have important things to deal with.
It's different if you want to ask about,
studies, work, projects,
any important stuff that requires you
to deal with men.
Then it is alright.
Because it's undoubtedly that sooner or later our world will be surrounded by men,
if it's not now.
Sooner or later we have to work with them.
But again,
the boundary,
take good care of it.

Allah has said in the holy Quran:

"Perempuan yang baik untuk lelaki yang baik.

Lelaki yang baik untuk perempuan baik."

Don't we want to become the good woman and the good man?

So that we could have a good partner that will bring His please?

If we want the everlasting relationship according to His wills,

so that we could last together until Jannah,

we should always, always,

bear this verse in mind.

Allah said in the Quran:

"..Boleh jadi kamu membenci sesuatu perkara, padahal ia amat baik bg kamu,

dan boleh jadi kamu menyukai sesuatu perkara, padahal ia amat buruk bg kamu.

Dan Allah Maha mengetahui sedang kamu tidak mengetahui"

(2:216)

No harm for us to change for the better.

No harm for us to improve and become as close to perfection.

When I hit stop,

I am 18 in the month of October 2011.

ps. Stop, as in stop writing this other -side -of -my -life story.

Stop as in THE END.